A Talk To Myself Paper.. But Online

A Talk To Myself Paper: Blue Eyes

AHHH I LIKE A NEW KID AND I AM NOT OKAY! His name is ******. He is in 4/6 of my classes so I see him a lot.  I need to calm down. ***** kept telling ****** that I think he is a snack. I mean true BUT SHUT UP! Anyways pretty boy has blue eyes. That was the first thing I noticed about him. My nickname for him is blue eyes. I mean the obvious. I keep staring at him and if I don't stop I am going to get caught! I gave blue eyes candy so he owes me but his looks kind of paid me back already. NO. I WANT FOOD OR MONEY! His curly hair makes me go ahhh.. Btw he is white. I've never truly liked a white boy. Why do I like this white boy? Then again my mom liked a white boy at a time.. aka my dad. Blue Eyes and me have similar last names soo yay? IDRK! Ok he got his paragraph. Now let me explain where I have been. NVM HE IS TALKING TO ANOTHER GIRL AND I AM JEALOUS! FYUUUKKK! ok i really need to calm down. btw he is tallll... like tall. 

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ok I am awkward child. Whenever I truly like someone, I typically know them really well and don't seem to be awkward around them. But Blue Eyes is really testing how awkward I can be. So far I have Blue Eyes number and snapchat. We have had some conversations.. like one but I plan on keep talking to him to put in a good word for me. But Joel still needs to help me. I really want to be friends with him. But you know anything more would be cool... like really cool. But anyways Lee gave me Blue Eye's snapchat. I don't plan on texting him on Snapchat. Plus he hasn't even added me back. I am so awkward around him all because I want his attention. BUT ITS NOT WORKING! I don't think he even wants to see me as a friend. I want to give up but I already started (SPOILER: I gave up, find out in the next version, "Mistake") ugh. Whatever.

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I made a new friend. His name in Omar. If you know me, you know I can't trust the name Omar. But this Omar seems fun. I made his Snapchat name O Riley Auto Parts. His voice kept cracking so I told him I would change his name to Puberty Boy but he told me no to because he would change my name to Hyena girl. I was not taking that risk. I am pretty sure ***** likes Omar but she got REJECTED! He said he didn't want a girlfriend until Junior or Senior year, maybe even Sophomore. Btw he had no idea he was saying that to the person that lies hm. lol she got REJECTED! Luckily she still has homecoming! Maybe she will ask him or even better he will ask her. I however have no one to take... sad. Unless I can build my relationship with Blue Eyes, ima be a lonely child at homecoming. Even if I build a friendship with him, I highly doubt I can go with him. 

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ok a lot of stuff went down last night.

1. Omar and Haley

2. Veronica and Blue Eyes

3. Lee

ok so 1. Omar and Haley confessed to each other. They are basically dating. It was so easy for them. I wish it was that easy for me.. 2. Veronica talked to Blue Eyes last night and she asked about me but he kept changing the subject. I am not crying, you are. Lastly 3. Lee seemed like such a bad guy.... By Billie Eilish. In person he seems bad but through text he is a nice guy. Tbh, I had to think for a long time about wanting to be his friend. Lee was threatening to tell Blue Eyes everything but later told me I could kick him where it hurts if he told Blue Eyes. 

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I made a mistake.

+No quote today because I ran out of them but I will have one in the next version. But GUYS I MADE A MISTAKE!! NEXT VERSION I WILL TELL YOU ALL ABOUT IT!