A Talk To Myself Paper.. But Online

A Talk To Myself Paper: That's why

so much stuff. **** doesn't care about any of my feelings [...] and I was so Oblivious. I wanted to believe he would change or become a better person and accept me. Mia told me that if he was really worth it he would accept my personality. Mia told me I don't really don't think before I do and that's part of who I am. By now **** would have learned to accept that but he doesn't. When **** was sad, I went to console him. Whenever I am sad, he doesn't care and he avoids the problem. If he is the reason, he avoids that. I even tell him straight to his face, you are the reason I am sad, but he still thinks nothing of it. I always text him first, he never texts me first. He never wants to talk to me. I was just so oblivious to believe he didn't want to be my friend. I was trying way to hard and I wasted so much time on him. He wasn't worth it but I always believed he was a good person... He wasn't.

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I learned I lot also when Mia was consoling me at school. She told me that if Omar cared for me, he would have came up to me while I was crying. That made me think.. Who didn't care? ********? Well they have been out of it for a while... They were the one I was thinking about when thinking about who didn't care for me.

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Kim texted me. I love her so much even if I might not show it cause I am scared of showing my gayness towards my friends. 

Kim: [in response to the first paragraph] "Awwwwwwwwww its ok poor baby i mean he is just a an asshole if he doesn't at least take the time to see and maybe change his feelings towards you like maybe if he got to know you he would probably end up liking you for the weird and caring person you are although sometimes a little carried away with your crushes and you are just gullible but I mean your a really great person but I mean i don't think you have found the right person for you yet and everything like your crushes are just illusions that you have with that person not until they actually show that they care for you and take the time out to text you first to see how you are doing or just care for you and maybe just keep their mind open cuz maybe they might just start to like you but until that happens everything is just an illusion but you'll find the right person for you because you can't get everyone to like you or be everyone's type because that is just impossible but you also cannot get anyone to not like you or for you not to be their type because that will be impossible you will always be someones type no matter what but you just haven't found that person meanwhile [***] is a straight up jerk asshole dick and etc just know i will always be here for you and that i always love you, you can always tell me anything [...] i will always do my very best to help you and to make you feel better as your best friend because you have always been there for me especially in 7th grade when i was going through a lot and now it is my turn i love you [...] and i am always here for you"

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Oop, I have a celebrity crush on Cuco! 

"Sorry, for not turning back. Sorry, for selfish self of mine." -The Rose, Sorry

+My love for Cuco is showing.