#Promise

Happy

I woke up with a throbbing headache the next morning. I felt worse than having a hangover. I don't know if it was because I wasn't able to go back to sleep or was it still from total shock and disbelief. I had to pause and literally shake my head as flashbacks of what had happened last night played in my head. Was everything just a dream? If it was, it certainly was so vivid that I can still smell Jimin's subtle scent around me. It seemed like I watched a romantic TV drama, and I was the female character that was on it. It felt so real.
The envelope that Jimin gave me with the concert tickets inside was the one proof that he was really here and that he really said what he had said last night.
                    I started brewing a pot of coffee to somehow start my day right and clear my head. I really don't function well with little sleep, so I need something to perk me up. The strong coffee aroma started to make me feel a little better. Out of habit, I turned on the radio to listen to the morning news. As if my life hasn't been shaken enough by Jimin's confession last night, what are the odds that I would be tuning in to the station where BTS was a guest?
                     They were, at that moment, talking to a fan over the phone. She was a 15-year-old high schooler who was fangirling over my Jimin, confessing her love to him as she was sobbing in tears. Did I just thought of that? Calling him "my Jimin" in my head? She started screaming over the phone when they told her that she had just won a ticket to see the concert.
" Could I ever do that too? To have the guts to tell the entire world that I, a nobody, likes Jimin too?" I thought to myself. What a bizarre and shameless thought!
                      The radio host's excited voice came on after she finished playing their song. " So guys, this just came in fresh from the newsroom! Please confirm or deny this story..... Tae! you were allegedly spotted by some fans going around the city with a female friend. They even have pictures to prove it and by looking at them, you two looked too sweet together for her to be just one of your staff. Is she somebody special?"
                        There were a few seconds of awkward silence. The question obviously caught the boys by surprise. I felt like a bucket of cold water was poured over me. This can't be happening right now! I thought everything was under control? I thought that news was blocked by their company?
                         Tae's familiar deep voice came on. He sounded rather confident and unbothered by the question. " We seldom visit this part of the U.S. so I wouldn't pass the chance to enjoy the things that this city has to offer. Miami is so charming! I definitely could see myself settling down here in the future if I have a choice. Fortunately, for some of us, we also had the chance of meeting some new and amazing friends here. I don't think there is anything wrong with that. I hope that the fans who saw us won't misunderstand."
Thank God that the show was running short on time, so they had to quickly wrap up the interview by letting the boys invite the fans to the concert and to thank them as well.
I turned the radio off after they said goodbye to the listeners. I sat there thinking how did I manage to get myself involved in this kind of situation. Didn't I intend to be invisible?
I then heard my phone's notification alert. Both Jimin and Tae had sent me a text message asking if I happen to be listening in. I sent them both the same reply. "No worries. I am okay."

Saturday came so quickly. I wanted for the days to go by more slowly, but ironically, it seemed that it came by more quickly. I spent the day laying down on the couch, literally having a conversation with the ceiling. Have I really gone mad to be doing this? Ugh!
Jimin's words kept playing on my head, and it kept making my heart flutter. It made me want to see him again..... so badly.
I stared at the concert tickets on the coffee table for the millionth time. Should I go and see him for the last time and consider all of this as one of those memories that you would recall someday and wonder if it really happened or not? One of those stories that when you tell people, they would laugh at how wild your imagination has gone? Like, really, who would believe that you get to have this close encounter with the most popular group of this time? Not even I myself can believe it.
  .                       As well as I know myself, I know I am not somebody who likes to live my life with what-ifs. I am willing to take risks. I would rather do things and be sorry if it doesn't work out well than be regretful for not even trying or not giving myself a chance.
They may be the most popular celebrities in the world and the most sought after men of this time, but that's not who they are to me. They are real people, who, in a brief period of time have become special to me in some way. It wouldn't be right to just ignore them and deny myself the chance to be friends with such awesome people. I don't want to find myself in the future regretting and wondering what if I went that night? What if I saw him? What if I told him I also felt the same way he did? Would my life be happier?
                     As I have expected, the concert venue has already started to fill up with fans even if it was still a few hours before the concert. It still amazed me how these people come up with many creative things to show their support for the group.
                    As I was trying to find my way to the entrance, I can't help but overhear one group of girls talking about some Twitter post that they were reading. They were all staring at their phones and crazily scrolling through some pictures.
                "Ugh!  Who could this girl be? Is she really dating Tae? She literally had her arms around Tae! Oh! my heart is broken into pieces right now! How can Tae do this? Why?" one of them said so dramatically.
                      "Well, he didn't say she was his girlfriend... He said she's a person he met here. That's what he said on the radio." another one said.
                       I quietly and quickly walked away from them. I put on my big sunglasses to cover my face, just in case somebody would recognize me from the pictures. Now I know why those boys always wear a hoodie, a cap, sunglasses or anything to cover their faces just to attempt to keep some privacy.
                        "Hello everyone!!!!!!!" one of the members' voice boomed from the huge speakers that are spread around the venue. The screams and cheers from the crowd were as loud as the music that has started to play. I hear the crowd singing along to what I presume was one of their popular songs. At this point, I wish I knew more about them, their music and their story.
I finally got inside and found the seat indicated on the ticket I was holding. It was right beside the extended stage.
                            " I see some familiar faces here! Thank you for coming!"  Jhope said as he gave a quick acknowledging smile at me. When he did that, I now realize that they also try their hardest to not show the rest of the crowd if they personally know somebody among the audience.
                          Jimin and Tae were the last ones to come out from backstage. It was Tae who saw me first and waved at me as a bright smile emerged from his already handsome face. The girls around me screamed with delight thinking Tae was actually waving at them. I could sense that he, too was being careful of showing me attention, which is what I would have really preferred. One thing that I have come to like about Tae is his ability to sense what I think and feel without having to say anything. That is his gift. Empathy.
                          Jimin slowed down his strides when he spotted me among the audience. He looked surprised but definitely pleased. A delightful smile spread across his face as he started dancing to the beat of their song.
                         "It's a lovely day everyone! Let's have some fun!" He yelled out loud causing the crowd to get hyped up.
                         I probably looked so out of place among the crowd because I was the only one who was not singing an dancing along. I did enjoy the music though, I clapped to the beat and bobbed my head a little. I just felt embarrassed to act foolishly because I know all of them can see my reaction and that they could be making fun of me later on.
                          Everyone had fun during soundcheck, both the audience and the artists as well. It was good to see Jimin being able to dance and perform without any limitation. I do hope that he could be like this all the time. Happy. Happiness looks good on him.
                           A few minutes after they went backstage, my phone buzzed. Jimin sent a text message.  " You have no idea how happy I am right now." My heart fluttered as I read it. "And you have no idea how I anxiously feel the same. Jimin" I thought.
                            "Tae wanted to see you, but because of what came up today on the radio and Twitter, he was advised not to communicate with you for now, for your protection too. He extends his apology to you. " was the next message Jimin sent me. I replied with a thumbs-up emoticon.
                             I then sent a message to Tae telling him that there's no need for apologies. There was no reply as I expected, but it was already understood.
                             The concert starts in an hour and the place is already half-full of people. Fans filled up that venue to the last available seat. The power these guys have is really impressive.
                              As the skies got darker, the bright spotlights turned on hinting that the show has finally begun. The whole venue screamed in excited anticipation, and as expected, BTS never disappoints.

                            Every performance was executed with precision, power, and artistry. That quality of performance could only be brought by many hours of hard work, passion, and extraordinary talent, no wonder why people go understandably insane over these guys. I can't help but feel some sense of pride knowing that I am somehow acquainted with them personally more than most of these people around me. I may not know many things about them as every avid fan does, but that's okay, I'd rather get to know them better as their real selves.
                          The realization that tonight could be the last time that I would be seeing them suddenly came to mind. It brought some feeling of sadness and emptiness in my heart. The thought gave me a sense of sadness that actually made me tear up. Why was I given a chance to meet them like this when it can only be so short-lived? One more day. That's what's left. They will soon be headed home, off to their next scheduled work, ready to forget about an insignificant person like me.
                           The spotlight turned on again. I assumed that it will be a solo performance, as the bright lights were focused in the middle of the stage. The crowd started chanting Jimin's name. I was nervously anticipating his performance as he was slowly lifted up from the bottom of the stage. He glanced at where I was seated as if silently telling me that this performance was for me. The music came on, then he got lost in his dance, taking me to that beautiful moment with him. I clearly heard what he was telling me. It was in the lyrics of his song.
" Just let me love you"

SERENDIPITY
All this is no coincidence
Just, just, by my feeling
The whole world is different from yesterday
Just, just, with your joy

When you called me
I became your flower
As if we were waiting
We bloom until we ache

Maybe it's the providence of the universe
It just had to be that
U know, I know
You are me, I am you

As much as my heart flutters, I'm worried
The destiny is jealous of us
Just like you I'm so scared
When you see me, when you touch me

The universe has moved for us
Without missing a single thing
Our happiness was meant to be
Cuz you love me, and I love you

You're my penicillium, saving me, saving me
My angel, my world
I'm your Calico cat, here to see you
Love me now, touch me now

Just let me love you (let me love, let me love you)
Just let me love you (let me love, let me love you)
Since the creation of the universe
Everything was destined
Just let me love you (let me love, let me love you)
Just let me love you (let me love, let me love you)

You're my penicillium, saving me, saving me
My angel, my world
I'm your Calico cat, here to see you
Love me now, touch me now

Just let me love you (let me love, let me love you)
Just let me love you (let me love, let me love you)
Since the creation of the universe
Everything was destined
Just let me love you (let me love, let me love you)
Just let me love you (let me love, let me love you)

Come to my side now
So we can become one
I don't want to let go- no
Do I just have to treasure it
Although you say nothing I feel it

There are many more stars
Together we're flying
It's never over
Don't be nervous and grab my hand
Cause now we are one
Let me love you

Just let me love you (let me love, let me love you)
Just let me love you (let me love, let me love you)
Since the creation of the universe
Everything was destined
Just let me love you (let me love, let me love you)
Just let me love you (let me love, let me love you)

Let me love, let me love you
Let me love, let me love you