poem #208

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"I want to feel the hate in my veins when I see you walking in the halls
I want to despise you with everything in me
you tore my heart out, stepped on it and made me watch
you shoved me into a box and left me there to crumble
so I want to watch you fall apart and feel happy about it
I want to look at you through the glass door and have my eyes scream "fuck off"
I need to loath you with everything in me

but I don't

I hear your name and my heart softens and I look around to find you
I see you in your class, watching how you work diligently and a longing for you starts up in my chest
I start remembering how you wrote your e's and curved your y's
I watch you skip down the stairs and smile , even though it breaks my heart to not be walking next to you anymore
when I get cold at night, it's your jacket I reach for, not even hesitating

tell me why I let you help my life go up in flames, but adore you for the fire you started inside of me anyways"
-r.b
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Sorry for the profanity🙊
-your very own broken girl❤️

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