From me to you(Jenlisa)

Chapter 12

Chapter 12

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Tell me I’m only dreaming

It’s been one hour since Lisa left me, she didn’t come back and it’s also been one hour since I’m lying while crying here on her bed. My eyes are tired and I’m still so weak to move but I have to, I needed to get out of here, I don’t belong here in the first place.

Now that my mission is finally over, I don’t see any reason to stay here anymore. But my heart wants to, it does. It wanted to be with Lisa but who am I anyway? I’m just her nobody, I don’t have the right I know. After all I’ve done to her, she might despite me with all of her being now.

Tiredly I stand up and wore her shirt she threw at me since mine was ripped harshly into pieces. As I’m wearing the shirt, the check fell down and I pick it up.

There was Lisa’s name and her bold signature, beside her name was 30 million dollar worth of amount! I sniffed for the last time before I grab her pen on her bed side table, I ripped the check into pieces and gets another one from her drawer

I wrote down in the lines

I’m sorry. I know no equivalent amount of money can repay all the pain I’ve caused you. I’m really sorry and I hope you can still be happy –Jennie Kim

I sighed as I also removed the ring on my ring finger and placed it above the check. I took a final glance in Lisa’s whole room, familiarizing its ambiance and remembering Lisa’s smell before I finally step outside her room. The pain in my fingers are still stinging but I ignored it as I walk to my room. Silently with a heavy heart, I pack all of my things in my luggage, preparing myself to get out of here and vanished permanently in their lives.

I was about to carry all my things when my door suddenly opened, it revealed Irene looking all so concern and worried. Immediately she run towards me and pulled me into her arms

“Jennie I’m really sorry, I didn’t know mom would find out! I-I was panicking and I-I didn’t know what to do! Oh my god Jen I’m so sorry”

I slowly pushes her away and caressed her cheek, I suppressed a smile “It’s not your fault Irene, don’t blame yourself. It was my choice to pretend I’m you and I need to face the consequences. It’s over now and” I stopped and looked away as I felt one single tear flow from my eyes, damn it.  I can’t bring myself to give Lisa to her, she was mine, I wanted her to be mine.

I can’t.

I took a deep breath and stared at Irene’s confused face “It’s not hard to love Lisa if you will give her a chance Irene, you won’t regret it and you’ll be happy forever. I promise you that” another tear left my eye again and I harshly wiped it away using my hand.

Irene’s expression soften as she stared at my eyes, she held my both arms, softly, like she  was finally getting what I am trying to say to her

This is what I’m talking about, I should’ve never fall in love with Lisa,  she is Irene’s fiancée. I’m only hurting myself in the end. I don’t have any right to her at all, even to talk to her right now I know I’m not even allowed to.  She hates me so much and now what? Will I just pretend I didn’t know her and move on with my life? Because I don’t think I can, I fell in love really hard that I know I can’t forget her no matter how hard I will try.

“Be happy Irene, please make Lisa happy for me” I smiled and my friend in return, closed her eyes shut and wiped the tears that flowed from her cheeks. “Oh my god Jen I'm sorry, I didn’t know…I didn’t know, I was so selfish I didn’t think about your feelings, I’m really sorry!” she cried hard now