From me to you(Jenlisa)

Joaquin's Chapter

Joaquin’s Chapter

Joaquin De Pinili’s POV

“Iho anak, sigurado ka bang hindi ka na babalik sa Busan?(My son, are you sure you’re not really going back to Busan?)” my father asked, standing in the hospital’s doorway.

I nod while packing my things inside my bag “Wala naman akong babalikan duon Pa(I have nothing to retrun to in there anymore Pa)”

“Ibig sabihin ba nun babalik ka na sa Jeju?(So that means you’re going back to Jeju?)”

“No Pa, I will stay here in Seoul, maybe I’ll stay here for good” I folded my last shirt and put it in my bag. Today I am finally discharge from the hospital after the couple of weeks recovering my wounds, though I am already healed and can work again there is still a part of me that still aches and still wounded

It is the wound that Jennie left, and I think I can no longer be healed. The wound was stab deep into my heart, creating a scar that would forever be marked in my chest and the only woman that could make the pain go away is Jennie

But I’m probably much too late right now

She was already happy with Lisa

No let me repeat that

She was always happy with Lisa right from the very beginning

Even when she was with me, on my side, for four years

Even when it is me who’s by her side from the beginning, it was still Lisa in the end.

And I am just a nobody that came in the picture and stole her away, hoping she will return my feelings in that four years of being with me but fucking hell who am I kidding? I knew from the start that I will never be that person whom she wanted to spend her life forever with, it was Lisa.

I knew I already lost the game from the start, or maybe I already lost even before the game started.

And you know what losers do?

Cry and move on

I did, the whole heaven knows I  already did. They witnessed how I cry each night in silence when Jennie run, no not run rather came back to Lisa and decided to spend the rest of her life with her along with their daughter Lily.

And the next step? I don’t think I can do it

I don’t think I can still move on

I really love Jennie, I do

As they say there are two kinds of people who are in love: the lucky one and the unfortunate one

Well when you’re in love with somebody and they return your feelings back consider yourself lucky, congrats bro

But for me? I am one of those unfortunates, risking my heart into a person I'm not even sure if she will like me back or will love me back.

Loving someone requires a lot of risk, and I just betted my life and everything into one woman and look what I’ve got, I gain nothing and instead my heart was returned to me broken in the end

Love can make people very happy, but love can also   destroy hearts

Well people who got heartbroken will tend to fix themselves anyway

I am so sure I will forget her anytime soon

“What are we doing here Suho?” I lingered my eyes on the dancing neon lights

“We’re partying obviously, you need to loosen up man! You’ve been working two consecutive overtimes already. You need to rest!” he shouted and give me a shot of mixed drink