From me to you(Jenlisa)

Chapter 17

Chapter 17

Marry me

“Lisa..” I tried to held her arm, but she just step away and motioned her hand on my face

“Don’t..” she shook her head “Explaining to me is useless anymore, I know you will lie to me again, just don’t Jennie, don’t” she already cried, she looked up and sniffed, then wiped her tears.

“Aren’t you tired of hiding things from me? First your identity, you made me believe you are my fiancée, the woman I will marry and spend the rest of my life. You feed me with your lies just for the sake of fucking money, money Jennie!” she already shouted, I step back in an instinct, already scared when I saw that familiar anger that flashed in her pair of brown eyes

“Because of god damn money my whole family was murdered baby, can you believe that?” she moved closer and I step back, her eyes never left me and the next thing I knew was she is now trapping me again with both of her hands beside me with the table behind my back, she bends and level her eyes with mine

It flashed different kinds of emotions, anger, pain, sadness and longing, and I wanted to punch myself when I saw those endless tears running down in her pretty face, oh my god

“I wanted to hate you for being  the daughter of that fucking murderer, I wanted to loathe you for all the things you’ve done to me, for lying to me! I wanted you out of my life but you know what I hate the most?” she asked, I remembered she asked me the same question the night she took me to the bridge.

I didn’t answer, how can I when I’m seeing for the first time her sad expression?

“I hated myself even more than I want to hate you” she looked away, she licks her lower lip as another single tear left her eyes before she looked at me again “You know why?”

“Li-sa..” I tried to speak, but then again it didn’t even produce a single sound coming from my mouth, it was more like a dead word for me

She suddenly chuckled “Why? Because I can’t bring myself to hate you..” she then gritted her teeth. “Unfair isn’t? Because I really fell in love with you so bad that even you only loved me for money, pretend you love me for months for money, kiss me for money, give yourself to me for money I still loved you you know that? I love you so damn bad that even your father took everything away from me, I still loved you” she sobs

My tears are now endlessly flowing from my eyes, hurt at the sight of Lisa’s dejected brown eyes  staring at me “You know how much I suffered Jennie? I suffered for a long time when you’re just there constantly running away from me and hiding with those money in exchange for hurting me . And I am so idiot for still looking for you in those four fucking long years Jennie, four years! ” she cried now , making me hate myself  for all the dumb choices I made, for running away, for hiding away when she’s just there, suffering,  alone.

“And now what? You’re now hiding my daughter from me? For what Jennie? For yourself?! Did it not cross your mind she’s the only family I have?! That I – oh fuck, I cannot believe this” she took another deep breath and moved away from me.

While I remained stunned, still leaning on the table with my chest  aching and tears flowing in my eyes.

I heard her took a deep breath, I watch how she wiped her remaining tears before she faced me, now her expression is showing only anger, pure anger that it made me scared when she suddenly made her way to me again and bangs the picture in the table,  causing me to jump off

“Where is she?” she gritted. I tried to open my mouth to say she’s with Joaquin but the burning of her eyes made me freaking speechless and cannot say a single damn word