Forever (Phan)

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Phil's POV-

Dan and I got married over a year ago now. Things have been going pretty well ever since, if I could say one thing I'm not too sure about it'd be the fact that we have a lot of little pointless arguments. Like when something pisses one of us off a little bit we'll have a silly argument about it. I hate getting cross at Dan or Dan getting cross at me. I love that man more than I've ever loved anyone and it's always unpleasant when you fight with someone you love. Dan's also been stressed about adopting ever since we agreed to adopt. That was a happy day. We were at our friend's wedding and we were playing with their baby. Dan turned to me and said 'I want one', to which I said 'then let's get one'.
I just had no idea how serious he'd take it! I mean I'm taking it very seriously but he can't stop going on about it. I guess in a way it shows how much he wants to have a family with me, but still, the cuddle we had this morning was the first cuddle we'd had in a week. And we usually cuddle all the time. I hear the sound of bacon sizzling and go into the kitchen. Dan's making bacon and eggs. I wrap my arms around him from behind. I expect him to lean back into me like he usually does but instead he turns around and wraps his arms around my waist.
"What's this for?" I ask.
"We really don't cuddle enough and I miss your cuddles." He says against my shoulder. I kiss his cheek.
"It's ok, you've been busy." I shrug. He sighs against my chest.
"I could never be too busy for you, Phil." He tells me. I run my fingers through his hair.
"Thanks, Dan."

Later on, Dan comes into the living room after browsing the internet to relax.
"Hi Dan." I smile at him.
"For fucks sake what's taking them so long?" He hisses.
"Dan, they'll call soon enough, just come and sit down." I tell him.
"How can you tell me to sit down, like everything is supposed to be calm?" He raises his voice.
"Dan, you keep losing your head over this, I know you're stressed, I am too, but if we're going to adopt we're going to need to communicate without getting frustrated." I try to reason.
"For god's sake, Phil! You always tell me to calm down, it's like you don't care! You're gonna have to change that once we adopt!" He gets pissed.
"You know how much I care! Stop getting so pissed all the time!" I sigh.
"You're getting pissed at me!" he shoots back.
"Yeah, maybe because you're being such a baby!" I raise my voice.
"I'm being a baby?!" he questions angrily.
"Yes!" I snap. I feel it happening. We both lose our heads completely and before we know it, we're having a massive argument. He storms off to our room and I slump into the sofa, sighing. I feel guilty about what I said to him... I should and apologise... I need to calm down first though. My phone rings loudly. I answer it.
"Hello, is this Phil Lester?" a woman's voice asks.
"Speaking." I answer.
"Brilliant. I'm calling to inform you that a woman named Sylvia Mason has chosen you and Mr Howell to possibly give her baby to." my heart skips a beat and I feel like jumping for joy.
"I- thank you for informing me." I try to say coolly.
"She will meet with you at the adoption centre at noon tomorrow if you're free at that point." she explains.
"That's perfect, thank you." I say.
"You're very welcome." she says before hanging up. I put my phone down and walk into Dan's room. He looks up at me with sad eyes.
"Dan... the adoption centre just called." I announce. His eyes go wide.
"And?" he asks quickly.
"This woman named Sylvia wants to meet us tomorrow." I tell him. His face lights up.
"Really?" He gasps. I press my lips together and nod.
"Oh my god!" He squeals, before jumping up and hugging me tightly. I hug him back and he holds my cheeks, pressing a big kiss to my lips. I tilt my head and kiss him back, gripping his waist.
"I'm sorry." he says between kisses.
"I'm sorry too." I tell him, before bringing him back in for a passionate kiss. Our lips part and we rest our foreheads together. We sit down on the bed.
"Dan," I implore.
"Yeah?" he asks.
"I'm really sorry for getting angry." I tell him. He holds my cheek, stroking it with his thumb.
"Me too, I've been so stupid, you didn't deserve it." he sighs.
"I wasn't considerate enough about your stressing. We both did something wrong... how about, next time we feel like this, let's try and talk it out instead of getting angry at each other." I suggest. He smiles at me.
"Can we go back to being loving husbands?" He asks. I laugh.
"I could never not love you, Dan." I say truthfully. He leans toward me so our foreheads are touching. I feel his breath on my lips and he looks into my eyes.
"Well good, because I'm fully in love with you." he whispers before kissing my lips softly. I kiss him back equally as softly, weaving my fingers into his hair.