ALL HAIL THE SMUTS~! {SLOW UPDATES}

Soothing? [fluff]

So this lil fluff was something I thought of while chatting with piperwolf94 and AngelGirl768 but since angel isn't writing MCYT anymore and I brought it up Piper encouraged me to write this... XDDD I suck at fluff.... but hope y'all enjoy.

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XEEN'S POV:

I blankly stare up at the ceiling above me in the dark cabin. I forgot my phone charger. Jordan was nice enough to text my family real quick and let them know it would be a week, but I couldn't ask for anything else from him after that. I'd feel pitiful asking him to do me another favor. So I watch as the fan slowly spins overhead, my mind racing and my fingers fidgeting slightly as I shift in the bed I had got since Jordy claimed the other one in the actual bedroom. I can make it a week with no sleep! I'm a manager and I've pulled all nighters before! I roll over, groaning as my eyes start to feel sore. Even if I shut them it's no use though, I'm painfully awake and aware... Embarrassingly enough, it's not like it's a hard problem to fix that's gotten my anxiety ridden insomnia acting up for the first time in years. I just, need to hear Jordan's voice. But that's weird... we've only been actually dating for a month now and there's absolutely no way he won't be weirded out by my sickening fanboy obsession. But I really want to hear him, his voice is so soothing and if I let myself relax it lulls me into a secure sleep. Unlike the stillness and chirping crickets and cicadas of nature as the fan creaks faintly. I always listen to his videos before I sleep, as long as he doesn't start screaming I drift off easily. It's nice, but I know it's really weird. And in the horrible quiet hours of the night, I want to scream as thoughts cram into my head and a mixture of daydreams and anxieties claw for my attention. Instead, I try to focus on softly humming Fallen kingdom, thinking the lyrics to one of Jordy's most popular songs. It'll be fine it's just one week.

-4 days later, Jordan's POV:-

I watch as Xeen grumbles angrily, once again pissed off at the stove because he's not paying attention to it. His hand is forking covered in burns and his eyes are bloodshot, the bags under his eyes darker than before. So I sigh, walking over to my clearly miserable boyfriend and gently directing him onto the couch next to me. "What's wrong Xeen? You've been acting weird and clearly haven't gotten enough sleep." I ask. He suddenly turns a dark red and looks horribly embarrassed. "It's that obvious...?" He slowly drawls out, not meeting my eyes and glancing about the room's floor. I slowly nod. Xeen groans, dropping to lay across the couch placing his head on my lap with barely any pushing from me. "I hate it because it's so weird and embarrassing... but see I uh... I have a kind of anxiety caused insomnia and listening to your voice calms me down enough for me to actually relax and sleep. I normally just play some of your videos on repeat in a playlist until I uh pass out..." He says, voice barely more than a mumble. I sigh. "I don't know if I should take that as a compliment or insult but here. Relax I'll talk you to sleep today since you're all grumpy after so long of no sleep~!" I chirp out, patting his head. He looks up at me gaping at me as if I had said something super surprising and unexpected. "I-I thought you'd be disgusted!! Isn't it like weird and concerning?!" He exclaims, looking up at me like he wanted me to be mad at him. I just can't bring myself to be though. He's absolutely pitiful like this. He's so big and strong and a sexy ass survivalist businessman to me! But now he's like a scared and tired child asking for a lullaby. I gently run my fingers through his hair, sighing. "It's a little bit of both, but not disgusting just surprisingly cute and childish. I don't mind it at all." He gapes for a moment before closing his mouth and curling up a little as he shifts to get comfortable on my thighs. "T-thanks Jordy... L-love you." I chuckle "I love you too Xeenie~. Now let me talk you to sleep, okay babe?" He hums in agreeal and his eyes slip closed. I smile and run my fingers through his hair as I slowly start talking about cars and plans for videos, he doesn't even respond, and after only 5 minutes of me rambling I hear the soft snoring of my boyfriend. I just fondly smile and run my fingers through his hair "You're so silly Xeen... I love you hun, so it's a given that I'd be willing to help you get to sleep~.. Next time I'll have to get you a tiny recording device with changeable batteries that's just me rambling, I'll get one on amazon after we get back to the house. But first I think I'll look up what it means when someone's voice is soothing enough to be a lullaby." I manage ya say with a small giggle as I pull out my phone and type into google. After altering my words a few times all that it tells me is that my voice is like ASMR for Xeen... And this means he's in a constant state of tension without my voice... Oh, that's no good. No wonder he's content to simply listen to me and crack jokes the whole time! I guess I oughtta just babble about stuff to him more... I'll let him know I won't hold it against him if he doesn't even register words so he can just ask about it when he zones back in. He's so cute like this~.