I swore to god I was going to change, and this is it.

cold

Cold, shivering
With tears streaming down my face
I whispered to myself,
"Me? Again?! This is bullshit. My life is a joke. Fuck this."
I turn my light off and lay down and continue to drown myself in a puddle of tears that could have drowned you in I love yous.
You chose the hard route.
The route that fucked me up, inside and out.
The I love yous turned into I hate yous and jealousy rose from me
Everyone around me probably felt it.
I just wish you would understand.
I've given so many chances.
Chances I should've given myself.
I'm cold, still shivering.