Sweetest Taste of Life

Chapter 11

I can't sleep early these past few days because of what Arianne's trying to say.

She's hiding something that will break me. I know she knows everything but she just can't tell it directly to me, at some point, I feel like she still wants to protect me from brokenness.

I'm on my way now to university.
I put my headset on when My phone vibrated.

Fr: Senior Sparsh
"Goodmorning Lady Shanaya! Have a nice day ahead! Keep safe"

I found myself smiling at his Goodmorning message.

Months have passed when I met Sparsh. In the middle of my chaos, there was him. He can't give me goosebumps and butterflies in my stomach but I feel something strange when I'm with him.

I stopped with the thoughts of having an attractive feeling for him because it's just making me confuse.

Tagu-taguan🎵

Maliwanag ang buwan🎵

Masarap magmahal pag hindi iniwan🎵

Pagbilang ng tatlo 🎵

Nakatago na ako🎵

Ibalik ako sa nakaraan🎵

Ng di pa naiwan🎵

What's with the world? I don't like the lyrics of the song. Para kasing ako ang kinakantahan ni Moira. So, I changed the song to Jungkook's song Euphoria.

Nakarating na ako sa university ng hinarang ni Arriane ang kamay ko.

She asked me kung nakita ko na ba. Ano bang dapat kong makita?
Umiling ako.

"Open your phone and see what's going on" she exclaimed at iniwan na naman niya ako.

I opened my phone as what she told me. I opened my mobile data then I saw it with my two eyes.

"Runway Model Yzsabelle Reyes and Jared Mendoza's Break-Up"

Iyan ang unang nagpakita sa feed ko. It was posted 14 hours ago, so it's possible kahapon sila naghiwalay.

It gathered thousands of comments and shares.

"I'm crying now:( My favorite couple:("

"Bakit kayo naghiwalay RedBelle? Wala na ang kinakikiligan ko sa mga vlog. Omoo, my heart"("

"Mabuti nga sa kanila, naghiwalay na! Ang landi kasi ng lalake. Kaya dapat lang na naghiwalay na sila"

"Stay Strong our Yzsabelle. He don't deserve you. Just accept that it's the end and move on"

My heart skipped dahil sa mga nabasa ko. Hindi dahil sa saya o sakit man. Bakit para akong kinakabahan?

"Have you seen it?" Bigla bigla na lang sumulpot si Sapphire ng hindi ko man lang namamalayan.  He's with Prince Chua again.

Tumango ako at nakisabay na lang ng lakad sa kanila papunta sa building namin.

Lumipas ang oras na wala akong imik. Natutulala ako sa nangyayari. Is there a connection with what Arianne adviced me?

"Hey, bakit ka nakatulala diyan? Kanina pa" Si Sparsh.

"Just thinking about you" biro ko saka ngumiti.

"Nakahubad ba ako diyan sa imagination mo? Baka pinagnanasaan mo ako Shanaya ha!" tawa niyang sabi while sipping his juice.

Napatawa na lang din ako sa sinabi. He never failed to make me smile in this kind of situation.

"Ang kapal ng mukha mo! Paano kita mapagnanasaan sa imagination ko kung hindi ko pa nakita ang katawan mo!" patawa ko pang sabi sa kanya.

Biglang nagseryoso ang mukha niya at lumitaw ang nakakalokong ngiti sa kanyang labi.

"Do you want to see my sexy body, Baby?" he said with his seductive voice again.

"Sexy Body? Nabubuhay na naman ang pagiging flirty mo! Ang manyak mo talaga Sparsh!" sigaw ko sa kanya.

Tinawanan lang niya ako sa sinabi ko. Nawala ang ngiti sa kanyang labi at biglang nagseryoso ang mukha niya.

"Punta tayo sa rooftop? I have something to tell you" hindi pa ako nakaka-oo, hinila na niya ang kamay ko.

Ang higpit ng hawak ni Sparsh sa kamay ko na akala mo'y iiwan ko siya sa higpit. Hanggang sa makarating na kami sa rooftop, hindi pa rin niya binitawan.

Tinignan ko ang kamay ko kaya napatingin din siya doon.

"My Hand" sabi ko kaya binitawan na niya.

"What are you going to tell me?" I asked ng nakaupo na kami sa dati naming pwesto.

"Shanaya, what if Jared will ask you to be with him again, would you say yes? What if you're still the one he love? Babalik ka pa ba sa kanya Shan?" sunod-sunod niyang tanong.

I guess he already knew the news about Jared and his girlfriend's Break Up kaya ganyan siya magtanong.

Hindi na muna ako sumagot sa kanya, instead I look down, constructing the thoughts in my mind.

"I can't say yes nor no. There's no possibility that he'll come back to me, anyway. He's in pain right now" sabi ko habang nakatingin sa malayo.

"You still love him? Are you ready to open your heart again?" bakit ba siya tanong ng tanong ngayon?

"I don't know. My heart is happy right now, but there's emptiness in my heart. My mind keeps telling me that I've moved on but my heart contrast. Kanina ng makita ko ang link, hindi ako masaya na naghiwalay na sila. If I still love him, I should be happy now right? I don't know Sparsh. And I don't know if I'm ready to open my heart again because I'm afraid I might end up being unloved and alone again" I asked him honestly.

"Sometimes Shanaya, our heart is not always right and trust me, there's someone out there waiting for you to get healed and be ready again." he muttered while looking far.

I feel that there's something he wants to tell me.

"Tandaan mong Hindi lahat ng mahal mo ay iiwan ka. You deserve to be love. That's Life Aya, Some people come and go."

Napapangiti na lang ako sa mga pinagsasabi niya. Madami akong napupulot na thoughts from him. Sana noon ko pa siya nakilala.

"Tell me Sparsh, do you like me?" diretsahan kong tanong sa kanya. Noon pa man, gusto ko na siyang tanungin dahil sa mga kilos niya towards me.

"I like you? Don't assume to much coz' it will hurt you. Well, Love doesn't hurt they say, expectations do. We expect for something and we will just end up in pain" Kalmado niyang sagot.

Saan ba niya kinukuha ang mga salitang iyan? Hindi pa naman siya nagmahal ng todo. At hindi pala niya sinagot ang tanong ko.

"You didn't answer my question. Tell me Sparsh, do you like me?" I asked him again.

I stared at his face. His smile makes me calm and his eyes, there's sadness and happiness. I can't tell what he truly feels.

"If you want to hear the answer, be with me tomorrow. Prepare your heart Shanaya" and then he smiled. How I love looking at his angelic face.

"You aren't even mine but I'm so afraid to lose you,Shanaya" he stated as he caressed my cheek.

Wala na bang mas igugulo pa ang mga kilos ng tao ngayon?