Sweetest Taste of Life

Chapter 5

Oh my my my, oh my my my🎵

You got me high so fast🎵

Ne jeonboreul hamkkehago sipeo🎵

Oh my my my, oh my my my🎵

You got me fly so fast🎵

Ije jeoguemeun na algesseo🎵

I'm here at the cafeteria. Sapphire isn't with me dahil may meeting pa sila sa dance club na sinalihan niya.

I was busy playing a song from my favorite group BTS when someone tapped my shoulder. I looked at it. It's Sparsh.

"Would you mind if I join you here?" he asked. I nodded.

I put on my headset again. He's just staring at me and it makes me feel uncomfortable.

"Why stare like that?" I asked him. He smiled and answered.

"I'm busy staring at you. I want to memorize every angle of your face." etong lalakeng ito talaga. Dire-diretso kung magsalita.

We're now close. For the first time, I have a friend na lalake. It's possible pala na magkaroon ng kaibigang lalake. Akala ko kasi noon, nakikipagkaibigan lang ang mga babae sa mga lalake para makipaglandian.

"Why? Aalis ka ba? Iiwan mo na ako? Bakit? Hindi na ba maaagapan ang sakit mo Babe? I can't live without you" pagdadrama ko. Muntik na akong mapatawa sa sarili kong drama.

"I love you Babe but I can't defeat my illness. Siguro tapos ko na ang misyon ko dito. I'm sorry. Please don't forget me babe. Goodbye" drama din niya. At kunwaring namatay na.

Tumawa ako ng tumawa sa akto niya. He also laughed with what he did. I never thought na magkakasundo rin kami sa mga bagay na ito.

"Baliw ka talaga!" at tsaka tinapik ko ang balikat niya.

"Baliw sayo!" And I found myself laughing again.

We are busy laughing when Arianne came. Kapwa kami napatigil ni Sparsh.

"I just want you to give this one" at may iniabot siyang CD at umalis agad. Hindi na kami nag-imikan ni Sparsh. I know this is because of Jared again.

Kahit na matagal na kaming off, hindi ko pa rin siya nakakalimutan. I never deleted our pictures in my phone. I still memorize his phone number.

Biglang nagseryoso ang mukha ni Sparsh when I have blank expression on my face.

"Do you know why your past keeps haunting you? It's because of the thing that keeps you not to let go and move on. You should break it now. Cut it Shanaya" he stated.

Hindi ako nagsalita. Nag-iisip ako kung ano na naman ang laman ng CD na ito. Is it going to hurt me again? To break my heart again? Unti-unti ng nabubuo pero mababasag ba ulit?

"Sparsh, let's go home?" anyaya ko sa kanya. I know he wants to know also what's the content of this CD but I should see it by myself first. Tumayo na kami at umalis na sa cafeteria.

I sent a message to Sapphire na mauuna na akong umuwi. Wala rin naman akong natanggap na reply sa kanya kaya umuwi na lang ako.

I feel so nervous. My mind keeps on telling me that I shouldn't open it. But my heart keeps beating fast.

Si Naynay lang ang nandito sa bahay. I greeted her before I proceeded to my room. I opened my laptop immediately.

I'm right. It's going to give me a heartbreak again.

"Surprise! Happy Birthday to you! Happy birthday to you, happy birthday happy birthday! Happy birthday to you! Blow your candle Hon!"

Jared blew the candle. Her model girlfriend is blogging. Jared's eyes sparkled. That's the thing na hindi ko nagawa sa kanya. I never surprised him.

"Hello everyone, this is my boyfriend's birthday. This is him. The most handsome Jared in the universe. Say hi Hon!"

Nagwave si Jared then it broke my heart the next scene I watched.

"Thank You So Much for your surprise Hon. I love it so much. To return the efforts you made, I'll give you this."

Jared stared at her for a second. Saying I love you and began planting kisses on her face from forehead to her lips. He even kissed her ears and her neck. They are both hungry with kisses.

Ayoko na! I stopped the video. Kailangan ba talaga na ipamukha nila sa akin na ako na lang ang napag-iiwanan sa mundo? Para san pa ang video na yan? I'm ripped.

I need someone to cry on. I called Sparsh. I know he will make me calm and relax. I'm comfortable kung siya ang pinagsasabihan ko ng nararamdaman ko.

"Hello Sparsh. Can we meet? " pinilit kong ibahin ang boses ko. Nag-agree naman siya. I sent him the address na pupuntahan namin.

"Are you okay?" tanong niya pagkababa ko pa lang ng taxi.

I run and hugged him. I can't be strong anymore. I'm too weak now.

He caressed my back. I just cry in his arms again. Nakakahiya na! I hate myself! I hate my life!

Umupo kami sa damuhan habang pinapanuod ang mga batang naglalaro. We're here at the park. Nawawala ang stress ko tuwing nakakakita ako ng mga ngiti at tawa sa mga bata.

Napatingin kami ni Sparsh sa bandang kaliwa ng may marinig kaming umiiyak. Agad namin siyang linapitan.

"Bakit ka umiiyak babyboy? " tanong ko. Hindi niya ako sinagot. Paano namin siya matutulungan kung ayaw namang magsalita?

"Gusto mo ng ice cream bata? " Sparsh asked. Tumango ang bata at nakita ko kung paano sumilay ang ngiti sa kanyang labi.

Mababaw lang ang kaligayahan ng mga bata. Masaya na sila sa simpleng bagay. Sana ganun din ang ibang tao.

Iniabot ni Sparsh ang ice cream sa bata. Abot langit ang ngiti ng bata ng ibinigay ni Sparsh sa kanya ang Ice cream.

Magsusubo na sana ang bata ng pigilan siya ni Sparsh. "Hephep! Ano na ang sasabihin mo? " tanong niya.

"Thank You Po Kuya Singkit at Ate Ganda." at tumakbo na siya sa amin.

I'm glad to hear that. Inaya ako ni Sparsh na pumunta sa isang lugar. It's far from the park.

"Where are we going?" tanong ko habang nagmumuni-muni sa dinadaanan namin. Wala na kami sa siyudad, I guess.

Dumadami na ang mga punong nadadaanan namin at hindi na rin patag ang kalsada.

When we reached our destination, I was so amazed. We're at a very wide field. And I can see a lighthouse! Napa wow ako sa nakikita ko.

"Let's go there! " Sparsh held my hand. We went to the lighthouse. Mataas.

"Mr. Sun is setting. It's very beautiful." I said while watching it.

Sparsh just smiled.

"Sparsh, thank you for being with me today. I owe you a lot. Thank you for making me smile and letting me see this beautiful view" Sabi ko habang nakatingin sa malayo.

"I'm glad that I made you smile Shanaya. You're right that sunset is beautiful but you're more beautiful than that. You're the most beautiful view I've ever seen" he sweetly said.

Why so sweet?
Sparsh, his words. It's making me uncomfortable.