Alriet: When Love Happens

CHAPTER 26

Harriet

I do not believe. I do not believe. I do not believe. I did not stop to repeat this to me.Passeimais or but one hour trying to sleep,ficavarepetindo in my head everything whatI said the Alec. I felt me weak. - However, Iwas not waiting nothing of what it spoke to me,it had me desestruturadonovamente. Just at themoment in queeuconsegui to strengthen me.

I needed conformarde new. He could not deludeme for those words. For more moving andenervating that was they. I felt my heart to fillagain. E because me Opened more than what it would like to make. I had that to run not to commit plus no dullness.

Again I happen again that, - I do not believethat tiveacoragem of saying to everythingthatpara it, but everything what Alec said,went on about in my deeper secret, thosewords forammuito more than what I receivedfrom it these months all and I did not make ideaof how much I was desiring thataté themoment. He softened me completely.

To have it so close, touching me, saying prettywords to me e, at the same time, making mepromise. I did not have physical and emotionalstructure to support everything at the same time. He shook me excessively and he was as much that couldn't to sleep exactly that it had a little of sleep. E of this time, the culpritmy insomnia was not of mine colchãonovo.

My nervousness mixed the anxiety left mein frangalhos. Actually, I did not think a positioncomfortable and I was impatient excessively to stay in the bed. I arose and I got andandodea side for the other in quartocom aminha to cabeçaquerendoexplodir. I did not know if I ached in such a way to cry or it keep my eyesopen as much time.

Alec caught me unprepared and this night was not alone. It had other moments that Iperceived its difference, but was littleremarkable, until... It decides to accompany meuntil a yoga, to prepare something I to eat andpractically to declare itself. He was a lot for mein only one week.

I was not with a lot steady health lately to support this pressure. I closed the eyes and I took the hand until the nape of the neck. He feltpainful and I could not take remedy some for I had brightened up pain oume to help to sleep.

I looked at for my ventregigante. At least it wasthe impression that I tinhaao to look at me inthe mirror; Huge and fat. To lie down was more and more if returning uncomfortable. I was untilthe door and I took the hand in the door handle,but I did not move myself. I did not rememberto have heard Alec to go for the room. He saidsome impropérios in thoughts and he leaves theroom.

I needed to make some thing to linger. I went down the stairs slowly and had a clarityreflecting against the wall, signal of that it stillwas in the room. I continued I descend and I stopped in the last step, looking at it of coast.In the TV he passed the Hobbit, but I could notunderstand what he was happening. I came close and I stopped of the side of the sofa. Itlooked at up tranquilamente.

- Not to sleep to with you. – I took mine twohands back and I crossed them.

- It comes here. – It raised the hand for me andI held it. – Is Giovannanão leaving youdormirdessa time?

- More or less. – I better found to limit myanswer. It did not know until point could leave itpair.

- If you to speak what she is happening to me,can try to help you. – It touched some mechasof hair and played them back of myshoulder.

- Ah. – I turned the face for the TV, but I felt itsfingers to touch me in the chin and subtly itmade me to face it again.

- It counts to me. – Its dedocontinuavatocandomeu chin. It slid the finger in circles. Ifound so delicious and summon its touch thatmy eyes had burned again, but of this time it was with will to cry.