THE HANDSOME DOLL

CHAPTER XXI

Im gripping the hem of my dress hard as I sit quietly at the back of the taxi.

I hope the boss wasn't home yet.

When the taxi drop me in front of his place, I felt my hand starts to shake.

But Im not doing anything. Its not as if Im cheating. He's the one who needs to explain to me.

I shrugged the feeling off and step inside.

It was all dark so I switch on the light. I sigh, relieve. He's not home yet.

I head to the bathroom and take a short shower, wearing a simple shirt and short afterwards. My home works piled up at the sofa so I started working on it.

When I stood up and stretch, I glance at the clock. It reads 1am, he's still not home.

Where the hell is he?

I climb on the bed and check my phone. Nothing. Usually, he'll call me or send a message asking where I am because he misses me. I lie there, thinking what will I said to him if our conversation will lead to confrontation.

Its not like Im doing anything, I reminded myself.

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Its Sunday.

I think I woke up late because the window's all bright as I peer on it.

With eyes, still close, I pull myself to sit up.

"Did you had a lot of fun last night?"

I turn around and saw the boss sitting at the sofa. The full ashtray on his side suggest that he's been there the whole night. Is he watching me all along?

"Yeah.." I shrugged. "You did too.. aren't you?"

He stood up and hold my chin, forcing me to look straight at him in the eyes. When I was about to snap it, he holds my other hand to my back.

What is it? Why is he looking at me like I hurt him when the truth is he's the one hurting me.

"You care to dress up for him like that Blythe? You never for once smile at me like you smile with him. Who is he, your boyfriend?"

I look away.

"SPEAK!" he shouted.

"He's a married man for heaven's sake boss!.. He's like a big brother to us ever since I can remember and he just visits me last night!"

He was taken aback. I felt all the anger surge up and I clenched my chest because of how it hurts.

"Tell me what right do you have to make me feel like I'm guilty here!" I added. "Did you even hear anything from me asking about your girlfriend?.. You're getting married right? Do I need to pack my bags now?"

I stood to go but he pin me back to the bed.

"Don't make me angry Blythe.. are you trying to run away from me!"

"Get off!" I scream and without realizing it, I felt hot liquids flowing from my eyes. "Stop playing with me.."

He embraces me tight and softly whispered. "I'm not playing with you.."

"Then what the hell is it that you want from me?"

"I want you to stay by my side forever..."

I roll over him and kiss him. I want to know what is it Im feeling for him. But then I notice that he smells like a ladies perfume. I stood up.

"Her or me." I said sternly.

"What--"

"Her or me."