THE HANDSOME DOLL

CHAPTER XXXIV

He march closer and wrap me around his arms the moment our eyes met. He hold me so tight, afraid of letting me go. When I hug him back I notice that he lose weight.

"I miss you.." he whispers under my neck.

Am I dreaming?

No. I don't think so.

He's really here.

Boss Cheston.

The love of my life.

"Boss.." I began. "How do you know?"

No answer.

I push him away gently.

"Im sorry." I said and took a few step backwards so I can run away whenever he starts grabbing me.

"Sorry? Is that all your going to say! You ran off without a word! Im going crazy Blythe. You're not anywhere in town!" he yelled.

"Why are you yelling at me?"

He ran his hand on his face. He looks tired, probably lacks sleep again.

"Come, I'll take you home.." he said and grab me by the wrist.

I snap his hand away. "This is my home."

"You want me to believe that? Your home is anywhere with me."

For heaven's sake! After everything that happens. He's still as stubborn, as confident and as stupid as ever.

"I can't. I don't want to. Everytime I see you--"

"Everytime you see me what? Im not their murderer Blythe!"

"But your parents are!!" I shouted back. "You heard them, they lead those murderers right in front of our home, do you think I can just go back, live a life with you and pretend nothing happened? No matter how you defend them, they still conspire to kill my Family. My mentor and the guys I considered my brothers. I can't just forget that."

There was a long pause between the two of us. He's breathing heavily and I hold his glaring eyes though Im the first to look away.

"What about me Blythe? Don't you have any concern for me? How long are you going to hold to your grudge? You really think I can let you go just like that and move on?" he starts walking towards me as I continue stepping backwards but he still manages to grab my arm and shout to my face. "You're too insensitive little doll! Do you think Im that tough?! That I never break and get hurt? That because I have power, men and money I can go on living my fucking life without you? Don't make me laugh."

He starts dragging me to his car park at the street.

"Boss wait! wait! let me go! DAMN IT!!" I struggle not noticing that Im already crying, when he glance on me I saw the surprise look on his eyes seeing me like that then he slowly let go of my arm. "I can't.. I don't have the courage to forget everything.." I murmur between the sobs. "I spend that twelve years bearing the anger for the people who did horrible things to us only to realize that I cannot have them avenge and now because I found the answers I need I can just walk away and be happy?"

He let out a long tired exhale.

I came here to watch the long sunset but I ended up watching this person go soft and gentle. Begging me not to leave him. Me. That is me.

"I understand it all, believe me. But if you really love Mr. Hendrick and he loves you, do you think he'll be happy seeing you like this? Your semester's ongoing and you didn't enroll on it. You told me once that your education is your outmost priority and that your mentor consider its importance too. Look how miserable you are, I bet you're not eating and sleeping well. You don't have the courage huh? " He pause. "Then could my love for you be the source of your courage to move on?"