THE HANDSOME DOLL

CHAPTER XXXI

I took the taxi heading back to the apartment.

Bliss and Crystal posted a letter on the refrigerator door saying he'll call me when they arrive and that Mr. Jayden left earlier. The place of his runabouts? he never indicate anything about it. Overseas, I suppose. He wants me to know that he's ever gorgeous brother is fine and I should not worry about him. Under his signature he says that he knows Im smart enough to know what I'll do after hearing the details from the dinner and that he wishes me well.

We both know that as much as we want to avenge our Family, we don't have enough power to do such, and after hearing Boss Cheston's parents, I realize there is nothing left for vengeance. They were right, the Gesseron Family had vanish many years ago leaving only the Ligneri-Blanc Family in control of this town. Their bosses were murdered after the ambush of a famous movie actress who seems to be the mistress of a politician. Its a whole bloody scandal.

Bliss and I knows that our mentor works hard condemning assassination request when he's changing the rules of our clan back then and he wouldn't like it if we stain our innocent hands with blood. Revenge to the boss parents is never possible not because they're powerful but because it will dishonor the legacy he left for us.

I hate it but it can't be help.

When I finally regain my composure I change my clothes into my comfortable ones and leave money at the table for the landlady. I also left my phone at the bedroom. I will not be needing of it from now on.

In case Boss Cheston came here, he will find no one, but I still owe him a letter.

I told him its not his fault but things just couldn't work between us. I left my keys, instructing him to sell my house since it will cost the amount of money to compensate for our remaining million dollar dept. I was tempted to lie and said that I never really love him at all like those romantic movies so he can forget me easily but I don't have the courage to do it.

"I will always cherish the time we had together, my moon and stars. I wish you well." it ended and I sign it below.

When I close the door behind me I felt an intense sadness threatening to consume me. But I need to be brave. Brave enough to walk away.

Its been a long hell of twelve years and I'm glad I will be able to sleep with those faces no longer blurred and hidden to shadows. I gained what I'm always wishing for--answers.

The last train is headed for the countryside, where our hot springs are located and its a half day travel. I use cash to buy ticket and will be using cash from then. I couldn't afford to leave a trace for him to find me.

When I look above, I can't help but wonder what he's doing at this moment. Its a starless sky. Will it be a starless sky for me as the days gone by?

I took the seat near the window feeling all empty.

Gregory, I thought. Help me start over. Help me stand on my feet again.