Is Being Adopted... Fishy?

Chapter 30: Gone For A Beginning

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-Brianna
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It's been two weeks of absolute depression and loneliness for me. I haven't left the empty apartment for anything, considering I didn't eat very much in those weeks. I had trouble talking to June and Ocean over the phone, so I agreed to just not speak for as long as I can; I read the same book over and over, "The Fault In Our Stars." Yeah, it's gotten a bit mainstream, but Zayn and I both enjoyed it and kept it in the bookshelf.

  Nobody came to check on me. I only received two calls from Niall, and three from Liam, but no visits. I knew they were probably a bit busy, being part of a world-wide famous boy band, but it would've been nice if one of them would come and talk to me for a bit. Preferably Niall, because be is my legal guardian, so I know I can trust him with anything. Or maybe Brianna or Liam, they're very loving and caring. But, what I hate the most is not being able to sleep. For the past nights now, I've had eleven nightmares continuously. And they all had someone I cared about deeply in each.

  Zayn was in the first one. We were in the apartment. I was listening to him sing as we sat on the couch, enjoying the sounds of outside from the window. It was great, until suddenly it all went dark. Everything was black as I tried so very hard to reach Zayn. I finally found him, clutching to his arm as whistling noises pierced our ears. I said something on the line of, "I give up" or, "I've tried everything." Right after, Zayn seemed to disappear, the lights came back, only not as bright, and everything was almost back to normal. Birds continued chirping. The sun continued shining. But I didn't continue happy.

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"Allison."

I looked up from my journal to see a familiar blond boy, holding a bag and the extra key to the apartment.

"Niall? What are you doing here?" I asked, setting my journal aside, placing the pen on it carefully. I bounced up, dizzy from sitting too long, and slowly walked over to Niall in the kitchen area. He set the bag down and gave me a hug.

"How are you, Ally?" he asked, his voice muffled by my hair.

"I'm fine," I lied. I bit my tongue, reminding myself that I should stop speaking.

"I've heard that from a girl before; You're lying." He poured a cup of hot tea into a mug and told me to sit, handing me the mug and wrapping a blanket around me.

"I'm fine, Niall." I looked down, playing with the ring of the mug. I grasped it and took a sip.

"Seriously, tell me," he urged. I wish he would stop and leave me alone, but I knew he wouldn't. So, I came out and said it.

"I'm just tired, that's all."

...almost.

Niall studied my face for a minute then shook his head.

"You'll tell me eventually. In the meantime, you should get some rest. You look a bit... exhausted."

He lead me up to mine and Zayn's room and I positioned myself under the soft comforter and onto a decent pillow. Curling up into a ball, I listened to Niall sing softly from behind me, rubbing small circles in my back. I knew the song we was singing by heart, so I sang quietly along, very broken and softly.

Drove by all the places we used to hang out getting wasted,

Thought about our last kiss how it felt, the way it tasted.

And even though your friends tell me you're doing fine,

are you somewhere feeling lonely even though he's right beside you?

When he says those words that hurt you, do you read the ones I wrote you?

Sometimes I start to wonder, Was it just a lie? If what we had was real, how could you be fine? 'Cause, I'm not fine at all...

I fell asleep slowly, and then suddenly all at once.

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  I woke up again the next morning at nine, if my clock beside the bed was right. Niall was gone and I suddenly felt like the old depressed Allison.

  Before I did anything else, I quickly brushed my teeth and slipped on my white and pink polka dot bikini, which I purchased after I was taken again. After I had gotten that on, I found a clean beach towel and beaded to the back.

  Our back yard wasn't really a "Backyard." It was a large patio two stories off the ground. We lived on the third floor of the apartment building, and got the top view. It was really like our roof, but not.

  I set the towel next to the pool and set my phone on the table after making sure no one was around. Since Dr. Major and Ky happened, I've been extremely cautious about that.

    I slowly eased into the pool until I was completely underwater. It took five seconds to transform from legs, to a shining blue tail and my rainbow hair. It felt nice to swim around for a while, but not as nice as the freedom of the ocean...

  Maybe I should go back. Just for a while. I could see old friends, and visit the palace one more time. That would be great, but how would I convince Niall to let me go?

Then, it hit me...

Just don't tell him.

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  I quickly found my small medallion necklace, a token my dad had given me before I left, and put it around my neck. I slipped off the promise ring Zayn had given me and put it on the counter so it wouldn't have a chance of getting lost. I hated not wearing it, but it would only get caught in a current and be lost forever.

   I made my way out to my car and started it. It roared to life as June walked out of her apartment to see what I was doing.

"Allison? Where are you going?" She asked. I looked at her and decided whether or not to trust her.

"To the ocean to see old friends," I said. She edged closer to my car as I tried to back out.

"Niall didn't approve of this, did he?"

I stopped and said in a low voice, "Don't tell him I did this."

"Don't tell him? He's sure to find out before I even have a chance to!" She was getting pretty upset, since she was ordered to look after me by Zayn.

"He'll be devastated," I said.

"Yeah he will, when he sees your car gone."

She had a point there. So, I parked my car back into the parking spot and got out, preparing to walk.

  I struggled along the sidewalk until I heard June yell, "What on Earth are you doing?"

"I'm walking to the shore," I said loudly, continuing on.

I heard her footsteps come to a stop.

"Fine, but when Niall comes back and hires a search crew to find you, nothing's on me. I'm gonna tell him, 'I tried to warn her."

  I continued walking even though I wanted to turn around and slap the living fish out of her. I wanted to freeze her exactly where she was, letting her collect frostbite and chill bumps from the coldness. At the same time, I wanted to sting her with a heat ray. I wanted her to almost melt from the heat. But I kept walking.

  Temptations are a huge part of life. Ignoring them could cause success, or could result in consequences. Either one isn't going to stop me. But, they won't build me either. I am who I make myself.

  And I want to make myself happy.