Breathe Me // n.horan au *Completed*

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1st of December, 2014

My own bed felt like a stranger to me. For forty days, I was in an unfamiliar house, living with new people. Since yesterday night, I was at home, my home, in my own bed. It felt odd.

I couldn't sleep at all from the moment I lay under the covers to the moment my alarm went off. Everything felt off. Maybe it was because I left behind my two new friends or that the girl of my dreams wasn't wrapped up in my arms.

My eyes burned from tiredness but wouldn't dare to get a wink of sleep. I turned my head to look at the clock. 7:56AM. The sticky note I had placed on it the night before glared back at me. Surgery Day. I sighed and pushed myself up so I could sit straight. My fingers pushed through my messy hair before I forced myself to shower.

I made my way into the bathroom and stood under the hot jets of water. Greg said that I should be the one taking Kerrigan today because she hasn't been with me for the longest time and because she's more attached to me than she is to him. Which isn't true. Her attachment to the both of us is expressed differently but it's definitely equal.

I tried to wash myself raw of all stress of today. My sister needed me at my strongest and I wasn't going to fail her. I just wished I didn't feel like crap so I could fully pull through with that plan.

I stepped onto bathroom floor mat a dried my body before putting on my clothes. It had begun to snow and I needed to be dressed appropriately for the weather, seeing as I got cold really fast.

I exited my bedroom and headed to the kitchen, where more voices than usual were heard. My jaw dropped when I saw almost everyone that was here. Denise was at the stove with Eleanor, cooking breakfast. Greg was starting up the coffee machine. Louis, Zayn, and Irena was sitting around Kerrigan as she showed them the doll I bought for her before I came home last night.

Not everyone was here.

"Hey, guys. Good morning." I smiled, giving each of them a tight hug.

"Hey, Nialler!" Louis said, a smirk on his lips, "good to know you didn't forget me at the Fitzgerald mansion. Seeing as you called me all the time, yeah?"

"Lou, I know I should've called more but I was actually working and getting to know Zayn and Irena."

"You know I'm always messing with you, mate. Don't need to get so serious." He got up and put his arms tightly around me. I felt his lips hover over my ear so I waited for him to speak. "Please don't stress out about the surgery today, she'll be fine. And as for the depressed look on your face, Zayn told me that she was forced to help her mother with wedding things."

"How'd you know?" I chuckled lightly.

"I'm your best friend. I know everything." He smiled.

We all took our seats at the table as soon as breakfast was done, Kerrigan jumping onto my lap. Her arms went around my neck and she snuggled her face to my chest. My cheek rested on her forehead as I hugged her close to me.

"Please don't go away for so many days, NiNi. I missed you so much. I never got to read my bedtime story with you. Greg never read it right." She mumbled.

"Hey! I tried my best, you little monkey!" Greg laughed, pretending to be slightly offended.

"I'm so sorry, princess. I promise I won't ever leave you for that long ever again, okay? I was so upset that I had to stay away from you. I love you."