Watashi no ai: Raifusākuru

35. Disease

|Deku's POV|

It's been three hours since I came to to hospital with Katsuki. Doctors were doing experiments on him, test, or whatever.

Three hours went fast for me. I didn't realize how time flies by when you are panicking and worrying like shit. It's true. I was scared. The love of my life might have disaess that have no cure. I really just hope this is all big stupid misunderstanding.

Doctor came to me with results. I almost broke. He didn't bother reading it or saying it to me. I am a doctor so I knew how to read them, very well.

"We can prepare treatment for him."

"That won't be necessary. I'm taking Katsuki to my hospital."

"Keep the results then. And good luck." I nooded.

This is not good. This is not good at all. Why now? Why now when everything is fine? Why now when he caries our baby? Why now when I funnaly find him. Why now when I almost make him one, again. Why now? Why now?

Thousand questions were running through my head like cheetah through savanna. The one question that stuck in my head is:"Why him?". Why is God punishing me like this? I'm a horrible person, I get that. But why is God doing this to Katsuki? I don't want Katsuki to suffer.

I want him to be happy. Next to me. I want to be happy with him. I want to be happy with Katsuki. And my chdren. And unborn child.

...

I... I... Can you... Can you fucking believe this?!? Because.. Because I can't. I fucking can't........ I.... I just want....

"Idiot ? Are you okey?"

That voice... That voice.

|Katsuki's POV|

"Idiot ? Are you okey?" I asked Deku who was currently bidding his face with his hands. I could see he is crying. Wait... He is crying? What a weirdo.

He lowed his look to meet with me. I hate being fucking shorter one!!!

"Katsuki..." His voice is low and is cracking. Did something serious happened? Is something wrong?

He hugged me tightly. Really tightly. But it wasn't aggressive... Just.... tight.

"Promise me.... You won't die..."

HOLY FUCKING SHIT!!! ALL OF A SUDDEN!! HEY, PROMISE ME YOU WON'T DIE! WHAT KIND OF SHITTY PERSON SAYS THAT!!!

"WHAT!?"

Deku didn't answer. He looked me deeply in the eyes. He just stared. Not a single word. Nothing. Not even a single move. Nothing at all. It creeped me out.

"Katsuki... You.... You-....."

He broke again. Low words. Tears on his face. Sweaty hands. Shaking body. Yep. Something its going on. And I won't like it.

"just say it."

He took a deep breath and started talking:"I'm... You are.....No!-" he stopped there. He wasn't looking me in the eyes anymore. He looked at his feet and completely ignored eye contact with me.

"Me what?!" he is making me anxious.

"You have leukemia."

"What?! I don't have leukemia!!Deku, IM HEALTHY!!!"

"You see, cancer affects approximately 1 in 1,000 pregnant omegas. The most common cancers found during pregnancy are the same as the most common cancers found in non-pregnant omega during childbearing ages: breast cancer, cervical cancer, leukemia, lymphoma, melanoma, ovarian cancer and colorectal cancer."

|Dekus POV|

Katsuki looked so lost. So innocent. I dont wanna do this to him. Not to him.

" Let's go home. I will try to explain it to you there"

He just gave tired and anxious look. First I thought he is going to yell at me. But he is probably shocked. Probably...

~time skips~

I didn't took Katsuki to home. I took him in my hospital. The ride was quiet though. It's not like Katsuki or me had will or strenght to say anything. Anything at all.

I showed him his room and invited Shoto, Iida and Momo, three best doctors I know, to help me explain to Katsuki what's going on. Cause alone, I couldn't.

"Katsuki we are really sorry..." Momo started. On which Katsuki didn't respond well.

"Sorry!?! For what?!? Just fucking tell me how this happened!!!"

"ah, diagnosing a new cancer in a pregnant omega is difficult, in part because any symptoms are commonly assumed to be a normal discomfort associated with pregnancy. As a result, cancer is typically discovered at a somewhat later stage than average. Some imaging procedures, such as MRI, mean magnetic resonance imaging, CT scans ultrasounds and mammogramswith fetal shielding are considered safe during pregnancy; some others, such as PET scans are not."Iida explained.

On which Shoto sighed and continued:"Treatment is generally the same as for non-pregnant omega. However, radiation and radioactive drugs are normally avoided during pregnancy, especially if the fetal dose might exceed 100 cGy. In some cases, some or all treatments are postponed until after birth if the cancer is diagnosed late in the pregnancy. Early deliveries are often used to advance the start of treatment. Surgery is generally safe, but pelvic surgeries during the first trimester may cause miscarriage. Some treatments, especially certain chemotherapy drugs given during the first thremester increase the risk of birth decects and pregnancy loss."

"That generally means you will have to have surgery soon." I added myself.

"But, elective abortions are not required and, for the most common forms and stages of cancer, do not improve the mother's survival. In a few instances, such as advanced uterine cancer, the pregnancy cannot be continued and in others, the patient may end the pregnancy so that she can begin aggressive chemotherapy."

" I ain't killing my child, Momo. "

Abortion. Why did it become like this?