Stuck as kid Delirious

Am I being cruel?

Delirious/Jonathan POV

Evan sighed softly hugged me close as he went back to his breakfast. I sat there feeling my heart sink as Evans words hit me. Just how shitty am I for playing with Evans feelings? 'Does Evan really want a pup? It doesn't really have to be me right?' I never once heard Evan say he wanted a family or pups but that doesn't mean he doesn't want them. And I'm here using the fact that wants a pup against him. 'I may not be asking or taking things from Evan but I'll be lying if I say I'm not using his affection to heal my broken heart.' I frown more as I look down. "Whats wrong little guy? Not going to finish your eggs?" Brian asked as he taps my hand to get me to look at him. Brian looks to Evan with worried eyes then looks back to me sighing out. I look to him but look back down feeling ashamed with myself. 'I really shouldn't be here. I should leave and go back home as soon as I can.'

I feel Evan move me picking me up a bit laying me over his shoulder. Evan turns his head to have a better look at me. Evan frowns worried as he see's me look away from him. "Peanut is something wrong?" Evan said as he pats my back to help me feel better. The worried look Evan had for me made me feel even guiltier. 'He shouldn't have to worry over me. I shouldn't be here or with him any longer.' I look over to Brock with a frown wanting to leave and figure things out. Brock seemed to understand that I didn't want to be with Evan anymore. "Evan I think he wants to be with me... For now." Brock said as he looked to Evan judging his movements.

Evan pulled me closer as he turned to look at Brock. "N-no. He's just restless. He just wants to play, Right peanut?" Evan said to Brock then turned back to me with a smile. I frowned and looked away. "Hey peanut." Evan said in a sweet voice and turned my head to look at him. "Cartoons?" Evan asked me but I shook my head and looked to Brock pushing away from Evan a bit. "Okay no cartoons how about we play with teddy?" Evan asked in a more worried tone. I shook my head not even turning to look to Evan.

Brock got up and walked past Brian to get to Evan and I. Evan turned away from Brock holding me closer. "Evan let Brock hold him for a little you'll get him back." Brian said it as a promise. Brian stood up next to Brock just in case and looked to Evan the look of hurt and confusion in his eyes. Evan turn to Brock looking to him with a sad look. "When will I get him back?" Evan said softly hugging me close once more. "Maybe in an hour or two?" Brock said unsure as he reached for me and softly grabbed a hold of me. Evan slowly let go of me with a whimper as Brock pulled and hugged me to his chest. "That long?" Evan asked in a hurt voice as he looked to me. I moved and hidden my face in Brock's shirt not liking the hurt look Evan had. "Sorry." I hear Brock say softly to Evan as I feel Brock turn and start walking away. "Where ar-" Evan started to say but Brian stopped him and told him I'll be fine and to finish eating. 

I feel Brock walk for a bit then stop closing a door and placing me down. I look down not wanting to look Brock in his eyes. "John?" Brock said wanting to know what was wrong. I frown and look to the side seeing that we're in Brock's room. "Brock, I think I shouldn't be here anymore. I should leave." I said softly taking a deep breath. Brock stays quiet for a bit. "Where would you go?" Brock asked I looked to him with a confused frown knowing the only place I could go is home. "You know where. I just can't do this anymore." I said looking back down. Brock pulls me close hugging me. "You think you're hurting Evan right? I don't know why he's acting this way or why he so attached to you but its a bit scary.... And cute." Brock said now looking to me as he lets out a small laugh and a soft smile.

I smile back to him but frown looking back down. "I'm tricking him. I'm tricking everyone. I'm not a kid or pup. I'm the guy they kicked out. The guy Evan wants nothing to do with." I say sighing out and stopping myself from tearing up. "I bet if you told them the truth Evan would tell me to leave." I say feeling my heart sink and my throat close. "Evan hates me Brock h-he hates me. No matter how much I tell myself he doesn't." I sniffle and take a deep breath as I feel my eyes tear up. "But I can't bring myself to hate him I just can't." I say as I cover my face so Brock couldn't see. "I'm so stupid. Why did I come back here?" I cover my face more knowing why Evan hates me. "Why did I have to freeze up at that moment Brock? If I just..." I groan letting my tears fall thinking back to that day. I bite down on my lip hating the memory.

I then feel Brock hug me close and I lay my head onto his chest. "John no one can change the past. I for one don't blame you for what happened nor do I hate you. And I think Evan isn't mad anymore ether." Brock said patting my back as I lean in closer. I frown as I remember how Evan looked and acted when he was talking to Brock about me. "You see how he is when you bring me up. You don't know how Evan feels at all. What makes you think he isn't mad anymore." I say as I grip onto Brock's shirt with hope that Evan really isn't mad at me anymore.

Brock hugged me close as he sighed out. "He wouldn't be so protective of you if he was." Brock said as he pulled away to look down at me with a smile. I look to him with a frown shaking my head. "That has nothing to do with ME." I say as I look down at my small body. Brock shook his head looking back to me. "Evan.. No Everyone see's you as the pup of this pack even with the short time you've been here and Evan is caring for you like his own. So to me that shows that Evan still thinks of you as a member of this pack." Brock said with a small smile as he looked to me.

I look down not believing any of it. "Everyone, Evan included. Just sees me as a pup that needs to be looked after nothing more. There is no pack bonding that could happen with in such short time. What has it been like 12 hours? Don't sugar coat it they're just dealing with me for now." I say as I pull away wiping my tears away and sighing out. Brock looks to me then down with a sigh. "There's no point in me telling you otherwise if you wont listen or won't believe me." Brock sighed standing up looking around his room then back to me. "You know I care for you right?" Brock said which made me smile as tears filled my eyes. "I know."

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"Do you want your laptop?" Brock asked seeing me looking over to my work bag. I shake my head glad that we're not talking about Evan.

I look back to my bag with a frown then look to Brock. "I guess. Works work right?" I said sighing hating the fact that I still had to work that shitty job but it would get my mind off things. Brock looked to me then to the work bag walking over to it. Brock hands me my laptop and I sign into my work email and see a new message from work saying I need to work faster and other things that imply how I'm shit but I can't sue them over it. But it piss me off just the same. I sigh trying to calm myself and get over it as I do with every email they send me. 'One thing after the other.'

I look down and type an apology as I do before getting back to work. Not even 10 minutes later I got a reply saying roughly that a stupid omega like me should stop causing  problems for them and that I'm replaceable as they dump more work on me. I look at the email with a blank stare as I reread it. I sigh and turn to Brock who was looking through his phone. "Brock." I call and see him look up from his phone to me. "Can you call Craig over." Brock nodded going back to his phone. I went back to work till Craig got here.

Craig knocked and Brock let him in. "I'm telling you guy's this now I'm not in the mood to 'talk' about Tyler or anything about him." Craig said as he walked in looking away pissed as Brock closed and locked the door. I looked to Craig my face holding a frown. I do want to know whats up with him and Tyler but right now I just want to get pay back at this fucked up job. "That's fine cause I called you here to see if you want to rob my work. You know just the 3 of us. It may help with any money problems we may run into as we find away to turn me back anyway. We don't want the guys wondering why money is missing. Plus I'm tired of them thinking they can walk all over me just cause I'm an omega. They pissed me off." I said with a pissed off smile as I look at both of the emails. I look up and laugh as I see Craig smile wide. "Yes! That's the John I know and love! Just what I needed! Time way from the Alphas. Plus lab/research funding!" Craig laughed as he throw's his fist in the air jumping up and down.