To Hell and Back

LXXXIV.

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Calix S.
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Calix S.
Hi, Persephone. I made a dummy account because you blocked me. This is my last way of reaching out to you.

Calix S.
I've been waiting for you in school and outside your unit but apparently, you are so good in hiding that I keep on missing my chances to see you. That only means one thing, you don't want anything to do with me anymore.

Calix S.
I honestly do not know until now why you're mad. Did you finally find out about my secret? Iniisip ko baka dahil do'n pero kung hindi mo pa alam, aminin ko na rin.

Calix S.
The camera that you 'broke' is an old one. It's not functioning anymore. I only used that excuse to get close to you. The dengue? Not true. I just wanted you to miss me.

Calix S.
I understand if you got mad because of that. O kung madadagdagan pa nito ang mali na nagawa ko kaya mo 'ko iniwan. I'm sorry I lied to you. I'm sorry if you think that I am one manipulative asshole just to get you to notice me. I'm sorry.

Calix S.
Kung ano man 'yong nagawa ko na dahilan kung bakit ka tumalikod, kung bakit kita nasaktan, gusto ko pa rin itama. Araw-araw pagdudusahan ko, Persephone.

Calix S.
Ibinigay ko naman ng buo ang sarili ko para sa pagmamahal ko sayo. Hanggang ngayon ibibigay ko. Even though I know that you've always been the one who's one foot in and one foot out of this relationship. Always the one ready to leave, to run away. And I, always the one to insist my presence, always the one who stays. But between those, I knew that there was love. There still is.

Calix S.
Naalala mo... sinabi mo sa akin dati, you're scared because people outgrew love. But to be honest, people don't. One just stops fighting. One just... leaves. At sa ating dalawa, ikaw ang pumili nito.

Calix S.
Tsaka... alam mo, nasasaktan din ako. Kasi gustung-gusto kong ilaban 'to. But I can't keep forcing myself to you. I can't continue feeding you lies just to make you stay. So this is me finally walking away, not because I want to, but because I have to.

Calix S.
And if you're wondering about my truths after all the lies, I can only assure you one thing: I truly love you. I still do.

Calix S.
But it's time for me to walk away from all these. Goodbye, Persephone. I love you.

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