Scars and Stuffies | J.JKxBTS AU

열아홉

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I should stay strong, but I'm weak and what's wrong with that?

~Weak

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~Sometime in November~

~Hoseok's POV~

"Group meeting in the living room! Everybody get in here, even you Yoongi-hyung!!" I heard Namjoon yell and I sighed as I turned my phone to sleep mode "Coming!" I yelled before I climbed off my bed and I stepped out of the room to see Jimin running down the hallway "Coming hyung!" he yelled, giving me a quick smile before he disappeared into the kitchen to probably grab some food. I looked down the hallway to see Yoongi-hyung's door opening slowly and the ghost that was once Min Yoongi slowly slumped his way down the hallway "Coming Joon.." He said, barely loud enough for Namjoon to hear while his voice cracked slightly. I noticed his eyes were puffy, but I hid my worry behind a big smile for him.

He blinked at me and I started walking with him "Wonder what he wants, what do you think he wants to talk about hyung?" I asked, trying to get him to talk. He only shrugged in response and he sped up, leaving me behind Abandoned once again huh? You deserve it. I sighed softly as the dark thoughts took over and I slowed down to a halt "You coming Hope-ah?" Seokjin-hyung poked his head out and I looked up at him, nodding as I rushed down the hall.

When I walked in there were chairs placed in a circle and I sat down next to Namjoon "Right, we got everybody" He said as Jimin walked in with a glass of water "Uhm...I wanted to apologise to all of you for everything that has happened over the past few months...I'll go person to person I guess.." Namjoon took a deep breath and he unfolded a piece of paper that was on the side. He turned to Jimin and Taehyung and gulped "Jimin, I'm sorry for yelling at you when you were little, I shouldn't have made you try to promise that. Tae, I understand completely what you told me that night and you were right, I was a horrible caregiver. Will you both forgive me?" I stiffened up when he said 'Yelled when you were in littlespace' was that why he was crying? ...wow...

"I forgive you hyung" Taehyung said, giving him a small smile. Jimin wasn't too certain and he looked down at the carpet "I...I guess I forgive you too...but you know Minnie's sensitive, please don't yell at me again.." He mumbled, barely loud enough for all of us to hear "Thank you, both of you. I promise not to yell at him, wanna pinky promise to prove it?" Jimin perked up slightly and nodded, holding his smol hand out, his minuscule pinky held out for Namjoon. I chuckled slightly, seeing the difference in hand size between them and they pinky promised, making Jimin smile softly.

"Thank you hyung.." Namjoon nodded in response and he then turned to Jin-hyung "I'm sorry for being so hard on you lately hyung, like telling you 'Why haven't you made dinner' and things like that. Your only job isn't just to make dinner, that's not true. Will you forgive me for treating you so harshly?"

Seokjin nodded and he let out a sigh "You don't really need to apologise Joon, you're kinda right. I forgive you though, so don't worry." He gave Namjoon a small smile, to which the younger responded with his own smile "Thanks hyung."

He gulped again and he turned to Yoongi and I, clutching the paper so tightly it ripped slightly "H-hyungs...I..I'm very sorry for insulting both of you, hell I'm sorry for insulting everybody. I..I wasn't thinking clearly that day, because as you observed hyung, I was going to the police station to try to help the investigation. But the day before his birthday they said since they had no leads or evidence they had to turn the case cold..." he said quietly, not making eye contact.

We all gasped in unison and I bit my lip sadly, nodding for Namjoon to continue "So I..kinda just snapped..I didn't mean anything I said that day, as a bandmate and certainly as a leader I should not have insulted you all that way.." he said, pausing to take a deep breath.

"I didn't mean to pick on you personally Yoongi-hyung, I definitely don't want you to leave the group, you bring so much to BTS, it wouldn't be the same without you..Hoseok-hyung, I didn't mean to make you angry, I disrespected you. Will you both forgive me?" He asked, trying to keep his voice stable.

I nodded and I looked over at Yoongi-hyung, who just shrugged "When someone is angry they always say the truth, so everything you've said right now is void," He said, making me frown he has a point "But fine, we shouldn't fight, it'll break the group up even more. I forgive you." He said, before standing up to leave.

"Can I go now?" Namjoon shook his head and sighed "T...there's one more thing..it's not important but I just want to tell you guys.." he said, brushing his hair back "A...at the fanmeet after Persona, there was one army..she said we should replace Jeongguk cause he didn't bring anything to the group, get one of the boys from TXT or something, or she said we should remove his role fully..What should I do?" We all frowned and Seokjin-hyung spoke up.

"One army wanting Jeongguk's role removed doesn't cancel out the millions of other army's waiting for his return. I get as a leader you need to think of these things, but don't listen to her, okay? Just tweet about that and every single army we know will shoot her idea down, so don't worry..." he said, smiling warmly at Namjoon.

"Thank you hyung..I..I'm finished now..Do you want to go do your own thing, or do you want to watch a movie together or something? We don't spend much time together as a group anymore" he asked as I covered my mouth with a yawn. Everybody shrugged "I'll watch a movie" I said. Taehyung and Seokjin-hyung agreed with me and Jin stood up "I'll get popcorn!" He said, running to the kitchen.

"I'm..gonna go to the studio for a few hours. I won't be long.." Jimin said, coughing at the mention of popcorn "Okay Jiminie, remember, no longer than 2 hours, okay?" I said, smiling at him. He smiled weakly back with a small nod and walked out the room. Yoongi was gone already and I let out a sigh.

"What movie do you guys wanna watch" Namjoon asked, turning on Netflix "Hmm, Maybe..Train to Busan?" Taehyung said, smirking at me since he knew I hated horror movies "L..let's not..besides, Jin-hyung doesn't like horror either. Let's just watch some Star Wars." I said, grabbing the remote from Namjoon, who was about to select Train to Busan.

"V-ah, can you turn the lights off?" I asked, getting comfy on the sofa next to Namjoon "Sure hyung. Hurry up Jin-hyung, the movie's ready!" He yelled down the hallway, getting a "Yeah yeah I'm coming!" As a response. I chuckled softly and I watched as Taehyung sat down "Which Star Wars are we watching? There's like 200" he said, looking at all the options.

"Okay that's an exaggeration Tae, but let's watch the third one, it's the most well-known one" Namjoon said, selecting the movie and quickly pausing it as Jin-hyung walked in with some bowls of popcorn "Help yourself, there's more in the kitchen. Ooh, Star Wars, movie marathon time!" He said, sitting down next to me.

I laughed at him and nodded "We're gonna have like no energy for practice tomorrow" I said, snuggling under a blanket "True. Probably not a good idea because Yeonseok is very strict, but oh well, Star Wars is obviously more important." I chuckled softly and nodded again "Obviously. Anyone who doesn't prioritise Star Wars is a psychopath, confirmed."