Scars and Stuffies | J.JKxBTS AU

스물 여덟

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Friends don't understand me, understand me anymore

-Can't You See Me?

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~Hoseok's POV~

"..Hyung..? where..am I..?" I heard a soft voice next to me ask. I opened my eyes and I looked at Jimin with a small, sad smile "..the hospital. You got alcohol poisoning...they're..feeding you through a drip because you haven't eaten properly in so long.." I explained slowly, looking over Jimin's face. He looked confused for a moment before it morphed to an unreadable one, slowly putting his face in his hands "...shouldn't have been so obvious, could've lasted longer..gotten thinner.." I heard him whisper to himself, making my eyes widen and pull his hands away.

"No, no Jiminie..you're thin as a twig, you can't get thinner.." I said quietly, leaning forward to gently press our lips together. Jimin pulled away after a moment and he looked away in shame "...I'm sorry..d-didn't want to worry you guys..t-tried to be discreet.." he stammered out softly, his voice cracking a little. I gently moved onto Jimin's bed and I put my arms around him, holding him close "Shh, shh...It's okay Minnie...You're okay now, you don't need to hide it anymore..we'll get you some help.."

I comforted quietly as Jimin buried his face in my shoulder "W..why did you relapse Jimin..? w..we were doing so well.." I asked quietly, keeping my voice as calm as possible. Jimin didn't reply and he moved away from me, not looking at me. I looked concerned and I gently turned his head to look at me "Tell me, please..I want to help you.." I mumbled, trying to get him to reply to me. Jimin took a deep breath and he made eye contact with me "..I-It was Hobi.."

My eyes widened and I dropped my hand in shock, looking down as I racked my brain in hope of finding out what he had said "H..he said that I messed up my dance even if I knew and he giggled...t-t-then..he said dirt was ugly when we were playing Minecraft, a-a-and he compared it to me..." My face morphed to one of guilt and I felt the urge to throw up, my hand going to my mouth "F-Fuck, I'm so so so sorry Minnie..." I choked out, pulling Jimin as close as possible as I buried my face in his soft hair.

"S-S-Should've known.." I mumbled, annoyed at Hobi, or really myself as I pulled away and slapped my wrist "..it's okay Hope..please, don't hurt yourself.." he whispered, clinging to me like a koala. I let out a shaky sigh and I didn't reply, I just held onto Jimin as if my life depended on it. "..Mr Park?" I heard a nurse say, making me quickly pull away from him to look at her "..Oh, hello sir. Just thought I'd tell you that tomorrow you should have enough nutrition to get out of bed, so you're progressing well. We've pumped the alcohol out of your system for now, but can we ask how long you've been..neglecting meals..?"

I turned my head to Jimin and he looked down, biting his lip "...I..don't remember." he mumbled, looking guilty. My face morphed into one of sadness and he hid his face in his hands "I'm sorry." He whispered, barely audible. The nurse sighed and she wrote something down "it's okay, don't apologise. We just need to get you back on your feet." she said as she looked at Jimin with a sad smile.

"I'll leave you two to talk things over." she said, promptly leaving the room "...Remember that me and the rest of the boys will always love you no matter what, fat or thin, we don't care. We will never think less of you. You know that, right?" I said softly, trying to hold back my emotions to stay strong for Jimin "...I try to remind myself that hyung, don't worry.." he whispered, slowly pulling his hands away to make eye contact with me.

"Don't forget I love you too, okay? Big or small, I love you for who you are. I'm so sorry about what Hobi said, but I hope you'll forgive me. Next time I say something off in headspace, tell me off, okay? I can take it, you shouldn't have to live with it, especially since you're...relapsing now." Jimin nodded a little and I gently sat on the bed next to him, laying down and putting my arms around him. He relaxed in my hold and he sighed softly "I love you hyung..tha..thank you for sticking with me today.."

I saw his eyes water again and I cooed softly, leaning forward to gently peck his lips "No need to thank me, I'd stick with you through hell as long as we stay together. How..are you feeling?" I asked, gently moving his hair out of his eyes "Groggy, tired. Hungry. Kinda hungover..What was I doing when you found me? I don't remember.." he said quietly, gently closing his eyes "You were...dancing to Lie. You had obviously drunk all the soju, so you decided to do dancing I guess..You..were really uncoordinated obviously, but I could still see the moves past your drunkenness.."

"I..was so scared Minnie..you had drunk so much I..I thought..we might not get to the hospital in time." I whispered, holding Jimin close to me as he clung to me too "But..you did. And I'm here. So..don't worry hyung, I'm still alive." he whispered in my ear, sounding a little tired "Yes, you're here..Sleep Min, you need it..I feel sleeping would be better than staying awake around here..I'll stay, I won't leave you." I said quietly as I looked at Jimin. He nodded a little and he nuzzled closer to me, careful not to affect his drip in any way.

He soon relaxed and he let out a soft sigh, his breathing soon evening out and slowing down as he fell asleep. I smiled sadly and I gently tapped his nose, kissing his cheek "G'night Jiminie, have sweet dreams.." I muttered, before closing my eyes and sighing too, soon drifting off into a dreamland of my own as I held Jimin close to me, protective of him even when asleep.