Scars and Stuffies | J.JKxBTS AU

스물 하나

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I feel something so right doing the wrong things, and I feel something so wrong doing the right things.

~Counting Stars

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~Sometime in March~

~Hoseok's POV~

"Alright, we need to go shopping. Hope, Joon and Tae you're coming with me! Jimin, take care of Yoongi." I looked up from my phone to Jin-Hyung, sighing softly It may have been nearly a year, but I felt a pit of guilt in my stomach every time someone mentioned our group without Jeongguk name, it was like he didn't exist anymore "Fine, I'm coming hyung." I said, standing up and walking over to the front door. Taehyung was already waiting and he gave me a small smile, before looking at Namjoon "Oh, hey hyung." Wait, don't I get a hello? ...am I not worth at least a wave..? "Okay, let's go!" Seokjin said, opening the door and walking out to the car.

We all followed behind him and climbed into the car, Namjoon sitting in the front while Seokjin drove, with Taehyung sitting next to me. I pretended to yawn and I closed my eyes, leaning against him. I could feel him shift slightly and he gently rested his arm over my shoulder, gently twirling my hair in his fingers I was only pretending to fall asleep, but at this rate, he's gonna actually make me fall asleep.

I opened my eyes after about half an hour and I watched us park, putting the mask on that Namjoon was holding out "Okay, let's go." He said once we had made sure we wouldn't get recognised and we all got out of the car, heading inside the store. I scratched at my red hair and I looked around, unknowingly staring at a certain finger painting paint set. I kept my gaze on it as we walked and I felt someone tap my shoulder, turning to see Taehyung standing there with a knowing smile.

"Do you want the paints..?" He asked softly, tilting his head a little. I bit my lip and I nodded slightly, breaking eye contact to look at the ground "Okay. Seokjin hyung? Hope wants the  paints." I realised he had dropped the honorifics for me and I felt myself start to smile as I worked out what he was doing. Seokjin-hyung seemed to catch on too and he nodded, smiling at me warmly.

"You can go get them, It's okay." My smile grew and I quickly grabbed the set of paints, holding onto them tightly "Good boy." Namjoon praised, making my cheeks heat up, but I felt myself slowly start slipping so I didn't say anything, I just giggled, continuing to walk with the others. Taehyung took my free hand and he intertwined our fingers, watching me.

I looked around at everything and Namjoon watched me too "Do you remember the rules, Hobi?" I felt myself slip fully as I heard the nickname and I nodded "uhuh, ask Nammie or Appa if I wan' buy something, then they decide if I deserve it or not." I said, smiling widely when I realised I remembered everything "Well done for remembering! Gosh, you're such a big boy for remembering so much" Appa said, making me blush slightly and nod quickly.

"I'ma big boy! Oh, Appa, can I have the Cat toy, please?" I asked, pointing to said toy "Maybe later, okay? We can come to pick it up later if you're a good boy for the rest of the trip" Appa suggested, making me pout, but I nodded since I knew he wouldn't change his mind "Good boy. Now, let's keep going, We need more 불고기"

The rest of the shopping trip went okay, but I didn't get the cat toy in the end, which made me kinda sad, but Appa promised to do some painting with me so that cheered me up a little. As Appa was loading up the bags I ran around the car to get inside, ignoring Tata's yell of "Hobi, don't run!". I let out a yelp as Nammie wrapped his hand around my waist to pull me back, just in time to see a car drive by past us, the driver giving me a glare.

"Hobi! What were you doing, we told you not to run!" I looked down at the ground, flinching slightly and I bit my lip "We'll talk about this later." Nammie said angrily, making my eyes widen as he got in the car. I slowly climbed into the car next to Tata and everyone was frowning, which made me feel even worse. I stared at the rear view mirror as I felt the pit in my stomach grow so much I felt like I was gonna throw up and I found myself not able to think straight, brain feeling fuzzier and fuzzier.

The rest of the ride back was in silence as I tried to keep myself calm, including the walk into the dorm. I heard a soft "Be easy on him Joon, he's stressed." as Appa opened the door and I stepped inside, before I took a shaky breath as the door shut, cutting off Nammie who was about to speak with a sob "I-I'm sorry! F-for everything! For making yous all mad, a-and for making Ggukie goes away!" I sobbed, voice cracking as it went a pitch higher than usual.

The others looked confused and I kept sobbing, tears rolling down my cheeks onto the floor "Making Gggukie go away..? Oh bub, that's not your fault.." Tata comforted, making me shake my head "W-W-Was meant to be pranks! Was suppose to makes you laugh!" I yelled, wiping my snotty nose. "Prank..?" I turned my head to the soft voice of Jimin and I ran towards him, wrapping my arms around him in a hug "D-D-Daddy I'm sorry!" I cried into his neck, taking a shaky breath as I heard multiple gasps. I never called Jimin 'Daddy', I always claimed it was too babyish.

"It's okay cub, calm down. Come with me, okay?" Daddy comforted, slowly walking me into our shared bedroom. He sat me down on the bed and he pulled me onto his lap, moving my hair out of my eyes "Shh, just breathe cub, okay..?" I nodded slightly and I tried my hardest to breathe normally, slowly calming down a few minutes later "Good boy..you're such a brave boy." he praised, making me smile slightly and nod slowly.

"Can I ask you a few questions? Take as long as you need to answer.." I nodded again and I wiped my snotty nose again, sniffling softly "Why...no, here's a better one...How old are you feeling, cub?" I thought for a moment and I held up three fingers, making Daddy raise his eyebrows slightly and kiss my cheek "Aw, are you a little boy now, huh?" I giggled softly and nodded, leaning against Daddy "Okay, thank you bub. Next question, what were you apologising about? I heard something about Ggukie..?" he asked quietly, rubbing his hand in circles on my back to comfort me.

"...I-I-It was all my fault....I-I-I-I took Bonnie for fun, a-and I thought I could prank Ggukie for a while..I-I hid him in Appa's bedroom and th-then I ran off to plays games.." I admitted, feeling more tears roll down my face "Oh honey..It's not your fault, don't beat yourself up, okay..?" he whispered, gently wiping my tears away "O-Okay Daddy.." I mumbled softly, nodding. Daddy smiled and he kissed my forehead "Good boy. Now, I don't know what happened, but why don't you go talk to Joonie?" I quickly shook my head and I gulped, making him look concerned

"Why not..?" "H-H-He gon' be real mads, D-Don't wanna get yelled ats.." I mumbled, making Daddy sigh and nod slowly "..Would you like me to carry you cub?" I wrapped my arms around Daddy's neck and I nodded. He slowly lifted me up as I clung to him. He groaned softly as he walked and we went into the living room, hearing a discussion which fell silent as we entered. I felt Tata, Appa and Nammie look at me and I whimpered softly, hiding my face in Daddy's neck.

"He's feeling a little younger today, I think he'd appreciate it if you didn't yell at him." Daddy explained to the others "Oh, really? How old are you Hobi?" Appa asked and in response I held up three fingers, before pouting slightly "N..Nammie..? 'm sorrys.." Nammie shook his head, giving me a soft smile and I felt a little more relieved "Can you explain what you meant about a 'prank' Hope..?" I felt my eyes water again and I shook my head, nuzzling closer to Daddy.

Daddy glanced at me and he looked at everyone else, explaining what I had said. I had phased out since Daddy was talking so much and I stared at a coffee cup on the table, not even focusing as Daddy tapped my shoulder "Baby..?" I heard Appa say, suddenly sitting next to us. I blinked and I looked at him a little confused, tilting my head slightly "Mh, I think you need a nap." Daddy said, ruffling my hair "C'mon bub, I'll give you my blanket, how does that sound?" I nodded quickly and Daddy lifted me up again, taking me to our bedroom.

My eyes fell closed as Daddy laid me down on the bed and I nuzzled against the pillow, smiling softly as Daddy gently placed his starry blanket over me "T-thank yous Daddy.." I mumbled sleepily "..it was no problem cub, sleep well." was the last thing I heard before I drifted off to sleep, dreaming about rabbits and painting.