Scars and Stuffies | J.JKxBTS AU

열여덟

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The words that I could not bring myself to say flow down
And lingering regret crawls over my face
~Outro: Tear

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~September 1st~
~Jeongguk's POV~

"Breaking news, The boy group BTS has released a new video on their twitter account celebrating the birthday of their recently kidnapped 'Golden Maknae', Jeon Jungkook," I woke up to the sound of my group being mentioned and I leaned over to look at the TV, slightly relieved when I saw Master lying asleep on the sofa "The following video is only around a minute long, so here's the video." The screen changed to reveal a Bangtan Bomb like most of our other birthdays, but this time I wasn't there. It feels strange watching it without me there...I feel like I don't exist in the group anymore..

"Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you! happy birthday dear Jeonggukie, Happy birthday to you!!" They all sung slightly out of sync as the camera followed Jin-hyung holding a cake and I let out a small gasp when I saw Bonnie sitting on the table being propped up by a couple of books. Seokjin-hyung put the cake in front of Bonnie and everyone clapped as Tae-hyung leaned forward and blew out the candles in Bonnie's place. Seeing everyone act so happy even if I wasn't there made me smile for the first time in months.

"Gosh Jungkookie, you're quiet today!" Hoseok-hyung said, pretending to frown at Bonnie. In response Yoongi-hyung lifted Bonnie and made him dance around again, using the voice I always gave him "I'm just overwhelmed! Thank you hyungies I love you so much and I'm not a brat at all!" I let out an almost silent giggle at that and I felt my little side tugging to appear again. I quickly gulped as my hyungs all laughed on TV and I shook my head rapidly, trying to shake the feeling away.

No, I'm never slipping again. It's been tainted, the innocence is gone, I don't want to make myself worse... On the TV they all turned to the camera and they all whispered to each other as they shuffled around the table. Tae-hyung and Namjoon-hyung knelt and I let out a small gasp, realising they were making a heart " 2, 3! We love you Jeonggukie!! Happy birthday!!" They all yelled in unison with everybody wearing a huge smile other than Yoongi, who was just his apathetic self as usual. They all waved for a few seconds, and I waved weakly in return. A few moments later Hoseok-hyung started laughing for no reason and everyone joined in because his laugh is so contagious. The video stopped just as I saw a small hint of a smile on Yoongi-hyungs face and I sighed softly

"Thank you hyungs...I love you guys too..." I whispered, sighing when the news started talking about a series of murders in Daegu. I leaned back against my bed in a huff and I stared at the ceiling they kept bonnie...they even baked a cake, even if I'm not back home...They looked so happy..so healthy, like they'd just forgotten about me. Wait, now that I think about it, Jimin looked thinner than usual, and when he looked at the cake I saw disgust in his eyes. Yoongi-hyung looked horrible, he had bags under his eyes barely hidden by makeup and he was even paler than usual, he looked like a vampire...

I hope they're all okay...I hope they'll still succeed without me, I remember hearing on the news that they got loads of awards so I'm happy for them...I still miss them a lot...I wonder if they miss me as much as they say..? They don't miss you at all, they're just using your kidnapping for money and fame But they wouldn't do that...would they?

"11'oclock news, a short 15 minutes after they released the Happy birthday video, The boy group BTS and their company Bighit Entertainment have released a statement reading 'Due to the recent events that have changed the group, We have decided that BTS is going on an official hiatus until either Jeongguk returns, or when we have come up with an alternative. There is no BTS without Jeongguk, as many Army will agree with, so this is why we have made this decision. During this hiatus, no albums will be released, but if you see any of the boys in public please do not talk to them, they are under enough stress already. Thank you'. We wish good luck to the group from everyone at the studio. Now, onto the weather..."