•𝓘𝓷𝓯𝓲𝓷𝓲𝓽𝔂• 𝓐𝓪𝓻𝓶𝓪𝓾 𝓐𝓤 ⚠️DISCONTINUED⚠️

•Chapter 13•

Aphmau's POV

December 11, xxxx

Dear Diary,

It's been a week since they died, and I've only been able to visit them 2 times. Even sometimes I could hear their voices...their graves are located in the Park of Main Street, all of them beside the Lady Irene statue.

Aside from their death, I've been okay. I'm still kind of pissed at Aaron and Katelyn, but I don't really blame them if I'm being honest. They were just looking out for me, but the demon in my mind said otherwise. And if you're wondering, yes I got a new job. It's only temporary though, but I work at a local McDonald's which makes things a bit better.

Mother Nature finally woke up from life auto pilot and dropped a ton of snow here, it's great but obviously very cold. Celestia has been enjoying it, though. Christmas is around the corner, but for some odd reason I'm not as excited as I would normally be for it. I'm guessing it cause a ton of my friends are going out of town before the holidays like Katelyn, Laurence, Garroth, Zane, Cadenza and Nana, which means I'd be all alone in my house with no one but Celestia. I have no idea what I should get everyone, but I'm sure I'll figure it out.

Speaking of giving, Aaron's birthday is in almost less than a week! I haven't seen him in years, I don't know what he likes anymore...I'll maybe give his sister a call, I could ask Lucinda for her number since they're really close.

It's been very quiet here on Mystreet, especially after all that's happened in the past month. Getting raped by Ein, Aaron moving in, Garroth and I getting in arguments, me having having breakdowns because of them, Garroth cheating on me, Katelyn and Nana making me work at a rip off Chuck-E-Cheese, the manager's death, me remembering Claire, Levin and Malachi from my past life, then them dying in a massive explosion.

Now that I write it all down, I realize how much has happened. I also just realized that; "Why haven't I broke up with Garroth yet?" I should probably do it during karaoke night tomorrow night...Starting a few days ago, I've been getting morning sickness, which means I probably do have Ein's child in me. I would want to abort it, but it's a baby. I can't possibly do it. Then again, I'm most definitely not ready to be a mother. I know I was a hassle as a child for my mom, and she knows discipline personally.  So how could I possibly handle a small human, who has no idea how to do anything but breath and cry? I think I might just put it up for adoption, but that would be sad for them to think: "Why did they leave me?"

My mind is messed up right now, I just need someone. I ain't looking for perfect, just a mixture, of a shoulder and a hand that I can hold...music usually helps me, I should probably try to write one. I've never done it before, but I have just a bit of confidence in myself, so I should at least try.

Ugh, I've been going all over the place with this. But, I just need this to vent. It really helps me in the long run. Anyways, I'm gonna end this entry here. My hand hurts.

-Aphmau❤️💜

I don't know why I added a red and purple heart, I guess it just spoke to me.

In my weird ass mind, it's saying it believes it symbolizes: "The Two Lovers Of Shad And Irene." , whatever that means.