Lost In My Imperfections

Chapter 8 - Here We Go Again

I awoke with a blanket covering me , and the soft purring of Ginger. I sat up rubbing my eyes , letting out a soft yawn. Ginger stood up , stretching her legs before jumping off the couch , heading towards her little ball of milk. I pulled the blanket off me , before standing up , stretching my hands above my head. I walked into the kitchen , looking out the window as the sun started to rise. I was guessing it was still early morning. I decided I'd have a shower , an then finish getting ready for school later.

Hopping into the shower , It felt nice with the warm water gliding across my skin , the warmth heating my body up. I washed my hair , and shaved my legs before hopping out , wrapping a towl around my slim body. Exiting the bathroom , I grabbed my bag and carried it into the spare bedroom , closing the door behind me. I got changed into a tight black dress , adding stockings and my black canvas shoes matching my black hoodie. I did my make up light today , and added a purple lipstick to add a brighter effect to my lips. When I exited the room , I discovered that Josh had also woking up. In which I got a pleasant surprise when I walked into the kitchen. Josh stood shirtless at the bench , eating a bowl of fruit loops. He obviously hadn't heard me in the shower , and was completely taken back when he finally noticed I was there. His instant reaction was to try and cover himself but obviously that failed miserably. In which he eventually gave up , plodding to his room , later coming back out in a shirt.

" Good morning to you, how'd you sleep?" He asked in a joyful tone , " I slept well , thanks aha" I replied smiling softly , " Well I'm going to go get ready for...um..school" He said before putting his bowl in the sink , and returning to his room. I sat at the bench waiting for him to finish , and sure was it worth it. As soon as he walked out I was practically drooling , he wore a black button down dress shirt , blue jeans , black hightops and a blue hoodie. He had his glasses on , and his black beanie. He looked absolutely adorable. " Can I wear your beanie?" I asked excitedly , " Sure" He said smiling softly , looking at the ground before handing it to me. I put it on , trying to fit it into the right spot when Josh moved it into the right spot.. " Thanks" I mumbled softly , embaressed by my fail at putting the beanie on.

We left his apartment together. We didn't really talk much on the way to school , but it didn't really matter to me. I just enjoyed his company. In the end I figured out what we had in common. We were both imperfect. Both had messed up lives , both were scared to be ourselves and to scared to speak out. He hated himself for not being perfect enough for his parents , I hated everything about myself because I was always called ugly , unintelligent or a slut. Maybe it was fate, or just luck but I know theirs something about him that's never been there with anyone else.

Entering the school we parted ways , Josh said he had some work he had to finish up so I decided to just wonder around the school grounds. As I was walking I felt someones hands clamp down onto my shoulders , before I could figure out what was going on I was slammed into the wall. I fell to the ground , pain shooting through my whole body. " You dirty whore!" A girl screamed. I looked up to see the girl from the night at Kyle's and a bunch of her barbie friends. "Me the dirty whore? Look in the mirror sweetheart" I replied , earning me a kick to the head. I started to feel dizzy , and a little tired but before I could black out the girl grabbed my hair , swinging my head into the wall. Giving out the last blow , before walking away as I slipped into the soft darkness.

When I woke up , I had an extreme headache , and I hadn't been moved from my spot. Standing up , I leant against the wall for support only to fall back to the ground again. I tried again , finally being able to hold myself up , I started to walk for the girls bathrooms. Making it into the stall , I pulled out my phone , ripping the razor out of the case. I cut into my arms , so numbed out from the attack that the pain was only minium. By the time I was finished , I had pretty much cute every inch of my arm , and blood was spilling from my arm. I couldn't feel anything but it didn't worry me. They'd all see. They'd all see the pain I was going through. I walked out of the bathroom , into the main hallway. Blood trailing behind me. I got half way up the hallway before collapsing onto the floor. I couldn't move anymore. I was guessing that by now I had lost a lot of blood , and I'd probably die today but I didn't even care. I was so out of everything that I didn't care about death , I didn't care about the promise I made to stay alive and I didn't care about stupid people and their stupid oppinions.

I heard footsteps walking towards me slowly , the pace picking up as they got closer. " Skyler! Skyler can you hear me!" It was Percy. Percy was talking to me. " I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry Skyler. I didn't mean for people to hurt you this much , I didn't mean to make you feel this way, please don't die on my Sky " He pleaded , I heard a ripping sound , and before I knew it I had part of Percy's shirt wrapped around my arm. "Come on, I need to get you to a hospital" He said , lifting me up into a bridal style hold. I lay limp in his arms as he carried me towards his car. Just as he was about to put me in his car , I blacked out.

****(XoX)****

When I opened my eyes , the bright light of the hospital room envaded my vision. My head was pounding and I was hooked up to a tone of wires. I looked around the room , I found Kyle , Percy and Josh all on either side of my bed , sound asleep. Then I remembered. Percy saved me. Percy stired before finally waking up , letting out a soft yawn. " Morning sleepy head" I murmed , as Percy's eyes shot towards me. Percy lept from his chair , practically bear hugging me. " Your awake!" He yelled , causing the other two boys to wake up. " Yeah I am." I replied softly. They all wore worried expressions on their faces. I laughed , and they all just gave me weird looks. " Guys I'm ok now! No need to give me the looks as if I just died" I said chuckling. They all just shook their heads , offering me a small smile before questioning me on what happened.

****(XoX)****

It had been a few days since I had been back home from the hospital. They told Josh a bunch of guidelines he has to keep me under otherwise he will be in big trouble. I now lay on the couch, eating a bunch of fruit loops while the boys went to school. Strangly enough it was as if they were friends......