Lost In My Imperfections

Chapter 7 - Being The Visitor

I arrived home , to find Kyle making out with some girl in the lounge room. My eyes started to water. I slammed the door , Kyle looking up to find me standing there. He quickly jumped off the lounge , " It's not what you th-" He started but I cut him off , " It doesn't matter does it! I'm not your girlfriend , you can do what you want but don't expect me to be coming back here after school, I'm taking the few pieces of property I own here and going to Josh's" I stated bluntly , even though I didn't even know if Josh would let me stay at his. If he had his own place. 

I started rushing up the stairs , Kyle following close behind. " It's not what you think. Casey knocked on the door , ambushing me when I opened it." He stated nodding his head , " And you somehow ended up on top of her , on the couch , passionatly kissing her?" I replied looking at him , with one eyebrow raised. I think he thought I was stupid. " Okay. Maybe I enjoyed it a little but who's saying that I'm the only guy who would enjoy making out with some hot girl?" He stated looking at me with his head held high , which really wasn't helping. " Josh wouldn't" I stated looking at him as his expression went from cocky to angry. " Why is this Josh kid so important anyways? He's gay. Plus he's a total weirdo , he never talks to anyone." Kyle said cocking his head to the left , before I knew it I had raised my hand and slapped Kyle. A crackling sound echoing through the house. Kyle raised his hand up to his cheek , hurt written in his eyes. " How dare you! It's because he gets me! He's like me Kyle! He cares about me more then you atleast!"  I scream as I start to shove clothes into my bag , grabbing my toletries , as tears ran down my face. I thought he cared , but obviously he didn't. I thought he understood , but I guess that wasn't the case either. I ran down the stairs , taking two by two , then out the door. I didn't live far away , but the last place I wanted to be was home. I decided i'd go to the one place , where maybe I could get some peace of mind. 

****(XoX)****

I sat in the hospital room , staring contently at my father as he lay in a coma. A couple of tears had made their way down my face , but I just wiped them away. I placed my hand in his , closing my eyes , taking a deep breath in. " Why? Why do you have to leave me now? Why couldn't you just acknowledge me as your daughter , and listen to what I had to say. Why couldn't you take me to movies and have daddy daughter camping trips like normal familys , why couldn't you just love me" I whispered , tears starting to roll down my face more consistantly. I didn't want him to die. I didn't care that he practically forgot I existed over the past 2 years , I just wanted him to live. Just so I could see him , and remember the good memories we had before everything went down hill. I felt a hand rest on my shoulder. I looked behind me to find Josh standing there. Concern written on his face. " Has he gotten any better?" Josh asked softly. I shook my head. They were doing cemo but apparently nothing was changing. He sighed softly , " Are you gonna go back to Kyle's" He questioned rubbing my back. I shook my head again , " Why not?" He pushed , "because he said some harsh things , and was making out with this girl when I got home." I replied bluntly , " Do  you have anywhere to stay?" He asked softly, I shook my head again. " Would you like to stay with me in my apartment for a little while?" He asked a little louder this time. I nodded , I looked up at him, " Let's go" I said softly before picking up my bags , following him out the door.

****(XoX)****
I arrived at Josh's little apartment , I entered my eyes scanning the house. Their was two bedrooms , one bathroom , a little kitchen , a lounge room and a very small dining room. I also noticed a massive bookshelf , stacked with all my favorite authors. Even a few comic books were there , which made me excited. I loved comic books. I also loved cats , or well all animals in general but mainly cats. As if the world read my mind , a little kitten jumped out from underneath the couch , it was a gingery colour so when I heard it's name it was no surprise. " Her names Ginger" Josh said smiling softly. I picked her up , cuddling her against my body. She was incredible soft , I was already in love. 

I sat on the couch with Ginger , watching the episode of season 6 in Supernatural that I was up to. Ginger was curled into a ball on my lap , as we waited for Josh to tell us when dinner was ready. About 20minutes later Josh called out . I walked into the kitchen , watching as he placed a small dish of tuna on the floor for Ginger and carried out two plates to the dinner table. He had cooked chicken snitzel , mash potato and vegtables. It looked amazing. He placed the plates on the table , Smiling before sitting down on one side of the table. I sat down , whispering a thank-you before starting to eat.

****(XoX)****

After dinner , I curled into a little ball with Ginger next to me , watching 'Into The Nether' The Metallica concert movie. It  was amazing and I couldn't help but stare at Trip , who I happened to find attractive. As the movie was coming to an end I was starting to doze off. Until eventually everything went black.