Lost In My Imperfections

Chapter 16 - My Very First Hangover

My head pounded against my skull , memories from the night before spun through my head and before I knew it I was kneeling over the toilet , emptying my stomach. Thankfully since I didn't live with my mother, I wouldn't have to deal with an hour long lecture about why drinking wasn't good for you. Which honestly wasn't what I needed right now - I needed a nice warm bath and some green tea - I wiped my mouth on the small towel that hung by the door , before getting up.

I shuffled down the stairs , making my way into the kitchen where Josh sat at the bench , reading the paper with a cup of tea next to him.

"Morning , How'd you sleep?" He asks politely as I grab a mug from the cupboard. I groan in response , " I will take that as not very well" Josh says chuckling as stands up , taking the mug from my hand and starts to make me a cup of tea.

" You didn't have to do that" I say still half asleep , I yawn as I sit down at the bench. A knock is heard from the front door, "I will get it" I say , shuffling towards the front door.

" Hey , sorry about last night " Kyle says as I open the door.

"It's okay , we were both drunk , it couldn't be helped" I say sitting back down on my stool as he sits down next to me.

"So how are you feeling ?" He asks as Josh hands me the cup of tea.

" I've been better" I reply chuckling slightly , taking a sip of the steaming beverage.

" Just take it easy today , okay?" Josh says kissing my forehead before seating down on the couch , flicking through the channels.

I continued to drink my cup of tea as Kyle sits awkwardly beside me , we don't talk but I know he feels bad about the night before. It couldn't have been helped though. Like I said , we were drunk. Eventually Kyle got up and left. He didn't say good-bye but I didn't mind. He was just trying to figure everything out and I doubt talking to me was helping.

I sighed. Everything had just started to well again , and now it seemed as if it was all just going to go down hill once more. Josh appears behind me , wrapping his arms around my waist. 

" You know I am okay with what happened at the party right? I know you were drunk and atleast you left before you did anything stupid" He mumbled into my shoulder , his breath playing across my skin.

" Yeah I know , but I still feel guilty about it and he doesn't seem to be accepting it very well" I say nodding my head in agreement with myself. 

Truth is that I wanted to run up to Kyle and wrap my arms around him. I just wanted to tell him it was okay , that he didn't  do anything wrong. I knew their was no point doing that though because Kyle had feelings for me , and what we did that night would have felt right to him but wrong at the same time knowing that he was doing this to Josh.  My head was spining with thoughts , it was somewhat overwhelming.

" I think i'm just gonna go have a shower and go out today" I say softly , getting up from where I sat before jogging up the stairs. 

****>XOX<****

Josh didn't ask me where I was going , or what I was doing but he trusted me. Honestly I didn't know what I was doing but I was now sitting by my fathers bed , holding his hand with a few stray tears along my cheek. The doctors told me he didn't have long to live, and I hadn't had a lot of time to spend with him lately. The cancer had spred rapidly , consuming most of his body. To be honest I didn't know how I was going to react when he finally left , I was assuming that it wouldn't be very well though.

My phone vibrated on my lap , the screen flashing up at me. I had a text from Kyle.

Hey... We need to talk. ~ K 

I didn't really know how to reply to the message so I just left it , before saying good-bye to my father. Kyle had texted me again telling me to meet him at a treehouse that was nearby. This family that had moved awhile ago had built it in the secluded forest behind there house. It was an iconic spot for teens now , nearly everyone went there. Their was even a booking sheet on the tree outside the forest. 

I made my way outside the hospital and onto the footpath. I only had to walk for about ten minutes before I found the dense forest that the treehouse was hidden in. Making my way through the dense bush , I soon found my self standing at the base of the treehouse. I started climbing , the planks nailed to the tree barely held my weight - they'd have to be replaced soon - till eventually I made it too the top. Kyle stood leaning over the balcony , a glass of what looked like apple juice in his hand. Although knowing Kyle it wasn't apple juice. 

" Hey" I say softly as I approached him ,

" Hey...We need to talk" He says turning to face me. My mouth formed a perfect 'o' shape as I saw his face. He had dark bags under his eyes , blood shot eyes and pale skin.

" Yeah we do. About your health" I say , grabbing his hands in mine , " You need to look after yourself" I continue.

" Yeah I know. That's not that main thing we need talk about" He says , pulling me into a hug." I know you are having a hard time dealing with your father , and the thing that happened last night but it's okay. I'm okay , and I will support you through this all and so will Josh" He says rubbing my back . 

" Thanks Kyle" I say resting my head in the crook of his neck , breathing in the familiar smell of strawberries aha. " Well I should be getting back , it's getting late" I continue looking up as the sun slowly starts to fade behind the mountains. I hadn't realised how fast time had gone. 

" Oh yeah. It has gotten a bit late. Well cya" He replies giving me a peck on the cheek before I decend down the wobbly planks .

I made my way towards my car. It had been nice to talk to Kyle about it all. He really needed to look after himself though, he didn't look to good. I sighed in defeat. I had been sighing a lot lately to be honest. What do you know , it might become like a second languge for me. 

As I jumped in my car , I drove home silently. Not wanting to think of all the problems that floated around the back of my mind, but the shrill thought of laying down next to Josh on the couch watching Adventure Time...