Lost In My Imperfections

Chapter 17 ~ May I Ask A Question?

I flew through the door , my mood evidently better. Josh sat on the couch - hands in his lap - not speaking a word. He looked up as I entered , keeping silent as he stood. He looked over to where the kitchen was , giving me a curt nod - telling me to go over there- so I walked around the corner and into the kitchen , where instantly my breath hitched...

There stood my mother, her eyes glassy and arms held behind her back. I was sure their was something she clung to , but I couldn't exactly see whatever it was. All I knew was her being here had to be about something god damn important.

" Hello Skyler" She says softly , something flashing in her eyes. An emotion that I couldn't quite read.

" Hello Mother" I mumble , my eyes gazing towards her arms.

" I need to do something that your boy toy might not like..." She cooed , chuckling softly to herself as she pulled a knife from behind her.

I stepped foreward ," You touch him and you will be dealing with me" I say sternly as a smile creeps upon her lips.

" Too...Late" She says , plunging the knife into Josh's side , blood splattering to the ground.

" Josh!" I scream as I ran towards his falling body, catching him in my arms.

I was about to reach for the phone when I was suddenly being tied up with a rope , my mother chuckling at my pittyful attempts to escape. I watched as Josh lay unconcious in front of me ,his breathing starting to slow.

" Why are you doing this?" I wail as tears streamed down my face.

" This is revenge for what you did to your father! Your the one who's killing him" She laughed , eyes filled with sadistic flames , her veins popping out of her neck. This Woman. My Mother had lost it. She had snapped. I heard sirens as she began to work on my feet , someone must have heard my scream. Her eyes filled with fear as the sirens neared , she knew they were after her...she had no escape.

In one fatal leap , she lept through the window. Josh's apartment was on the third floor...so I guess you already know what happened next. Of coarse it wasn't my fault that my father had contracted cancer , or the fact that my mother had lost the battle with grief and depression causing her to loose control but I was technically an orphan now. Which is why I was lucky to be old enough to live alone.

The police came up a few minutes later to cut my ropes and carry Josh down to the ambulance but they didn't say a word about my mother. I knew they were probably trying to "protect" me but for god sakes I just watched her stab my friend. I cared about Josh more then just a friend but we haven't become a couple just yet. It was too soon but now it seemed too late. I just hoped that Josh would pull through.

****(XOX)****

I sat on the couch in Kyle's living room. The hospital had sent me home , and the police had decided that it would be better to not reveal how fatal the attack towards Josh was and if he was okay. Now that annoyed the hell out of me. I was already fighting mental battles with myself about my mother but now I had to wonder wether or not the one person I had allowed myself to get romantic feelings towards would still be alive by dawn. It wasn't the most pleasent of situations I will give you that.

" He will be okay. Trust me" Kyle says rubbing my back as he attempted to comfort me. Yet nothing had been able to do that just yet.

" Yeah. Hopefully" I reply bluntly , chewing on the frankfurt I had pinched from his fridge. I hadn't bothered to cook it. Just wasn't that fussed at this point.

" Look...I know this is all a lot for you to take in but it's not that bad, it will be okay" Kyle mumbled into my ear as my anger started to rise.

" Not so bad? Not that bad you say? My mother just died , my mother just stabbed the one guy I cared about romantically , and my father is dying of cancer in the hospital ! Now try telling me it's not that bad again and I swear to you it will be that bad" I say sternly standing up , with clenched fists by my side.

" So you didn't even like me? You just used me so you could figure out how to act with Josh? I was just your puppet? Listen to yourself Sky ! You are going to loose it if you keep forcing yourself to loose control" He reasoned but I was already too far gone. My mind was blank , my heart was empty and I wasn't going to be getting any better until I saw that Josh was okay so Kyle could stop trying now before I killed him...