Lost In My Imperfections

Chapter 9 - Would Being Cool Make Me Happier?

I sat in class , my legs crossed and resting on the chair. It had only been a few days since I had been back , since the accident. I was looking out the window , in a daze till a book slammed down on the desk in front of me. I looked up to find the bleach blonde barbie from the other day standing near my desk with a pile of text books , I scoffed and she snickered before walking away. Stupid barbie. Then I thought about it. If I was cool would that solve all my problems. I mean i'd have friends, possibly a cute boyfriend , no more Percy bullying me or Barbie doll girls staring and snickering at me , wouldn't that be everything I could ever want? I sighed , yeah but it would be the hardest thing to get right now. I layed my head down on my desk , not wanting to pay anymore attention to science , my head was still sore from when that girl attacked me. Casey I think her name was, must be because that's what Kyle called her. Kyle. I hadn't spoken to him or Percy since the accident. I didn't want to speak to Kyle because I was still hurt from what he said and Percy because he always bullied me so I didn't get why he saved me. I was talking to Josh though. It was nice to have someone understand , someone who gets me. Now I could talk to him about all my problems , all my emotions running through my head and my....dad. He still hadn't woken up , apparently the cancer had started to consume most of his body and their was nothing they could do about it.
A single tear escaped my eye . I quickly wiped it away , as the bell went , packing my stuff into my back pack and leaving the school. I couldn't stay there any longer. I needed air. I texted Josh telling him I'd get home my own way before putting my phone back in my pocket.
I walked down the pathway , towards the hospital. Strangely enough I thought that maybe , just maybe , my dad would be awake.
Entering the hospital , I asked the lady for my fathers room key and headed down the hall towards it. I went to open the door when I heard a familiar voice. " It drives me insane you know Mr May. I just hope eventually she will understand." The all so familiar voice of Percy spoke. What did he mean by she will understand? Does he mean me ? I was so confused. In my daze , I hadn't noticed that Percy had walked out of the room and now stood bug eyed in front of me. " How much did you hear?" He asked his voice soft , " Hear what?" I replied trying to sound dumbfounded. It must have worked because Percy nodded his head slowly , before mumbling a gruff good-bye and walking off. I entered the room. My father was obviously still in coma , but I still felt the fatherly comfort that his presence gave off. "Dad. If only you could actually reply. I need your comfort more then ever but I know it's not your fault you can't be here for me, just know I don't blame you" I said , my hand closing in around his , a single tear escaping my eyes. It was hard to see someone who was always a strong minded , and passionate person being so...lifeless. I held back the rest of the tears that threatened to escape. Taking a deep breath , I squeezed his hand. I would be here for him , through this fight, no matter how long.
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I placed my key into the lock of Josh's apartment, opening it , then stepping in. What I came to find surprised me. I couldn't believe the site in front of me. Their in the lounge room say Kyle and Josh having what looked like a civil convosation. What it was about , I didn't find out because as I entered all eyes were now on me....