The Soul's Liberation [Mr. Hot Billionaire](Completed)

Chapter 13

Fliory

In a week, a lot has change between us. We never officially talk about it, we just went with the flow. We didn't need to tell each other the words, we just felt it. His gestures are enough for me to know that he indeed has feelings for me, and that he sees me more than just a friend. I really don't need anymore confrontation, we just do it. Actions speaks louder than words.

He's became more clingy. He loves hugs and kisses, and his amazing skill in bed. We're on our way to better connection, I guess.

Pagkapatapos kong maghugas ay nagtungo ako sa kwarto ko para magpalit na ng damit. Jax is really playful, mas marami pa siyang nabasag kaysa sa akin. Patay to kay Rein.

Habang nagsusuot ng damit, saktong bumukas ang pinto and my first instinct is, if my hand's scar is visible and gladly it isn't. Binaba ko ang shirt ko mula sa ulo ko at tumingin kay Magnus na mukhang natutuwa sa nakikita niya kaya nginisian ko siya.

"Loving the view?" I asked him. Agad namang tumango ang loko.

"You never let me enjoy your body's view, it's always light off," he compained. Lumapit ako sa kan'ya at pinitik ang noo niya.

"Shut up, tara na matulog. Pagod na ako. I think I'm gonna have my period soon." Hinila ko siya palabas ng kwarto ko dahil ayaw naman niyang matulog ako malayo sa kan'ya.

Ewan ko, he always mumble words I can't hear clearly but sometimes I think it is someone's name. He also groans like he's in pain.

I notice a lot since I've been having flash back dream about a lot of things from my past.

The sex triggers it. As I was told, there will be effects within me that won't go away or at least needs more time to be heard. I'm managing it very well. It feels really different. If I were my old self I'd feel shit for the whole day if I dreamed about it, but now, it's just a memory, something that's part of me that I really can't erase.

"Why would you cut yourself?!" sigaw ni mommy.

At the age of 14 I learned how to cut myself without dying, and it's sad. Now I'm 15 and mom discovered about my cuts.

I look my mom, I din't feel alive but I feel alive too. It's so mess up.

"You said he won't do it again."

She didn't answer. She cried. I don't need her tears though.

"I know it's hard honey. But you don't have to do that," sabi niya at lumuhod. "Please don't do that baby."

Her voice cracked and tears falling from her eyes made me wanna throw up.

"You disgust me." I glared at her. "I was thirteen.You didn't do nothing! DID NOTHING AND NOW! NOW HE'S DONE IT AGAIN! YOU NEBER DO ANYTHING! YOU'RE JUST THERE WATCHING! YOU FUCKINH DISGUST ME! YOU'RE PEACE OF SHIT!!!" my heart felt so heavy, my thoart started to feel dry, my eyes becoming blurry. I'm just a child. I didn't want any of this.

Why me?! Why do I have to suffer like this? Did I do something wrong?

I cried in the corner of my room and held my blade. This is the only way.

Minulat ko ang mata ko only to see that I'm still alive.

Bumuntong hininga ako.

It's 4 am and I'm in magnus' bed. Nakayakap siya sa'kin at nakasiksik ang mukha niya sa leeg ko.

This dreams doesn't affect me in any emotional way, but it scares me. What if I keep dreaming about it enough that it brings back something-no, someone, the old me.