Make It Home (Sequel to Breakin' All The Rules)

Chapter 27

Jewel

August left this morning, I'm a little upset that he left while we are still on bad terms. All I got was the dueces from him, and he said he'll be back for my grandmother's funeral. The funeral is Friday and I'm not ready to fly back to NOLA thursday morning, it's way to many memories there. I admit I do miss Chandra, mama Sheila, and the girls. I also miss my mom, so I'm torn. Either way it doesn't matter, I have to go..I have to kiss my grandmother goodbye. I'm not ready to, but I have too. I've decided I'm not going to open the letter until after the funeral.

I sat on the bar stool and watched Ciara eat her burrito. After Ciara took a big bite out of her burrito she gave me a blank stare.

"Jewel, what's up? You haven't said anything all morning and that's unlike you."

I poked my bottom lip out, and rested my head on my fist. "Nothing Ci." I let out a fake chuckle. "I'm good girl."

Ciara picked a cherry tomato off her burrito and threw it at me. "You a damn lie, it's about August huh? I peeped y'all two this morning. Usually y'all would be all lovey dovey like the other night." She coughed and smirked at me. "Now what's up with y'all two?"

I ran my fingers through my hair. "Fuck you! I wasn't that loud!" I covered my face from embarrassment. "Or was I?"

Ciara gave me a duck type of look. "You were." She chuckled. "You lil nasties."

I felt my cheeks getting warm, I know they are turning red. It's all August fault for making us do it in a house full of people.

"Don't change the subject though. What's going on? You know I hate to see my best friend mope around."

I nervously played with the ends of my hair. "Yesterday Aug brung up the marriage convo."

Ciara jaws dropped, and a huge smile appeared on her face. "Oh my god, Didn't I tell you y'all was going to get married." She playfully slapped my arm. Ciara's smile faded away once she seen that I wasn't smiling with her. "Pause. Shouldn't you be happy?"

I shook my head. "Yes I should be, but I'm not. It's not that I don't want to marry August it's just that I don't think I'm ready for another marriage. Omari kind of fucked me up, you know?" I sighed.

Ciara folded her arms and side eyed me. "If I wasn't your friend right now I would slap some sense in your head. Omari is your past girl, August is nothing like Omari. I didn't personally know Omari, but from what you have told me about him he's an asshole. Don't get me wrong August have his moments, but I know he'll never cheat on you and break your heart like Omari have. I think you should give him a chance."

I gulped as I thought about what Ciara just told me. "You're right, I just wasn't expecting him to come out the blue and say that to me."

"Chandra and I been told your ass that y'all were going to get married, don't try to act brand new to this shit. I better be the bridesmaid." Ciara patted my shoulder and I chuckled.

"Slow your roll miss thing, who said I was getting married?"

"Jewel quit playin' hard, you know damn well you're marrying Aug. You ain't gon let that man go for shit." Ciara finished eating her burrito.

Ciara's right I'll be damned if I let August go, we have came so far in our relationship. August and I have our ups and downs, what relationship doesn't? August is my everything, I do want to marry August..I can see myself with him for the rest of our lives. I'm just not ready to get married yet, but one day I will be ready to remarry.

August

"See I gotta keep it real with you baby
'Cause the shit I used to do is what made me
And I'm hoping I ain't gotta go back to the trap
'Cause we really know that we don't want that."

My manager stopped me from singing. "Yo Aug, what the fuck is going on?"

I ran my hand down my face. "What you mean Tray?"

"You never sing like that, that whole verse was off. I don't know what's up man, but whatever is going on you gotta get it together before the show tonight."

I sighed. I never stress over a relationship, usually I can brush shit off and keep it moving but with Jewel that shit different. So many thoughts been going through my head since yesterday like what if Jewel don't want to marry a nigga? Then that means I spent three whole years with a chick that don't even want me. Then again I understand where Jewel coming from she has been hurt in past relationships, and I'm being real selfish right na' I'm suppose to be there for her not pressure her into something she ain't ready for.

"I know what I gotta do man, Just give me a break from rehearsal. I have a phone call I have to make."

Tray nodded his head. "Aight man."

I grabbed my cell phone out my hoodie pocket and called Jewel. Jewel answered on the last ring, real shit I was about to hang up, I don't leave messages. If you see a missed call from me that should be enough sense to return the phone call ya' feel me?

"Hey Aug you made it safely? I've been worried sick about you."

I chuckled. That's one thing about Jewel, no matter how mad we're at eachother she's always still worried about a nigga and his whereabouts.

"Yeah, I been made it. That was my fault I should've manned up and called you, or either shot you a text."

Jewel sucked her teeth. "Why do you do this shit to me? Stubborn ass."

I played with my goatee as I thought of how I was going to apologize to Jewel. "Aye baby, I'm sorry though. I truly apologize fa' trying to rush you into marrying me. I'm still young a nigga still tryna figure out who the fuck I really am." I cleared my throat. "I understand you had a fucked up past with relationships, so I'll wait fa' you whenever you ready. Now if I'm turning old and gray a nigga gon have to chuck up the dueces." I joked at the end causing Jewel to bust out laughing.

"I accept your apology babe, I'm glad you understand. It's not that I don't want to marry you because I do. August you know I'm in love with you. Just give me some time to think this over, it's a big step."

I smiled, hearing her say she love me always make me smile for some reason. I paused as I thought about what she just said. Jewel didn't say she love me she said she's in love with me. That's a first.

"You in love with me?"

Jewel chuckled. "Yes August Anthony Alsina Jr., I'm in love with you."

I licked my lips as I smirked. "Word? Jewel Brooklyn Jones I'm in love with you too." I bit my bottom lip. "I hope you let me change your lastname."

Jewel got quiet and I know that means her ass over there tearing up. "Baby." I broke the silence.

"Yes babe?"  Jewel sniffled.

"Stop crying, Aye listen imma hit chu up later. I gotta finish up rehearsal, I couldn't focus without knowing if we good or not."

Jewel giggled. "I love you so much August, and you have no idea."

"I love you too baby gir'."

I ended the phone call. Now that I straightened shit out with my girl, I can focus on rehearsal.