Is This What You Call Love?

Chapter Eighteen

"Luhan no! Stop!" I hear a familiar voice crying out to me, causing me to stop and look up to who was screaming at me, preventing me from leaving this fucking hell.

I drop the blade, causing more blood to drip onto my bed as it splatters off the once before silver, shiny, but now crimson red covered blade. I feel my head starting to go dizzy as the room begins to spin around me, my vision blurring through my eyes. I feel myself slowly fading away, disappearing from earth, slowly dying and I couldn't be happier about that. I will no longer have to live with the regret, the pain, watching everyone happily live their lives while I sit here living mine miserably dying, broken and just slowly falling apart. I'll be away from it all. I'll finally be set free.

Through my blurred vision I watch as Sehun runs over to me. "What have you done!?" he screams in utter shock at what I've done to myself. "I- I-I'm so sorry, goodbye" I whisper as Sehun sits next to me on the bed, pulling me onto his lap as the life drains from me with the blood spilling out of me.

•| Sehun's POV |•

(wowiez this is a change!)

"Hey where's Luhan?" I question looking around the living room to find Luhan nowhere in sight. "His room, he's been locked in there all day and hasn't eaten anything either. Go tell him he needs to eat something and come down here for a bit" Kris says sounding as if he was in charge of Luhan, but he's just being the sweet, caring person he actually is when he's not trying to act 'cool' or whatever for the cameras or fans.

Great of course he's in there.

I walk up the stairs, down the hall and towards Luhan's room, swinging the door open to find Luhan sitting on his bed, with a small, shiny, but covered in blood blade in his blood covered hands, watching as he holds it against his skin beginning to press into it.

My eyes instantly slowly avert the the wrist that's lies under the blade to see like the blade it's covered in blood as well, from the few cuts he had placed going down his arm.

I watch, fear running through me as he pulls the blade across the top of his wrist, slashing his own skin open, leaving an indent between two pieces of skin. Looking closely I watch as a lot of blood begins to pour out of this one small wound.

Why is he doing this to himself?

My eyes quickly follow the older males bloody hand that still hold the blade as he presses it against his neck, his hand shaking like mad as if he was scared and hesitant to it.

"LUHAN NO! STOP!" I yell causing the baby faced boy to look up at me and drop the bloody blade.

I quickly run over to him "WHAT HAVE YOU DONE!?" I scream at him in shock. "I-I-I'm sorry goodbye" he whisper as I sit on the bed, pulling him on to my lap. I feel around his bloody wrist looking for a pulse which I surprisingly find somewhere underneath all the blood that covers and drips down his arm. It's a slow beat though and if I don't get him help now he'll quickly die. I can't let that happen.

I set Luhan down on the bed and run downstairs, panic covering every inch of me. "Someone dial an ambulance and quick!" I yell as I get halfway down the small staircase.

"Why what's happened?" Kris asks fear and panic rising in his voice and showing in his face as it is with everyone else.

"We have no time to waste or to explain just please do this. Luhan's hurts and he needs help immediately or he could die!" I run back upstairs as fast as I can when I finally hear someone dialing and calling for help for our hyung, I honestly don't care who as long as it's one of the guys I'm fine. Pushing the door open I find Luhan in the exact same position I had left him in as expected. Except now the faint breath that still lingered in him seemed to be gone and it doesn't look like he's breathing at all.

Fucking fuck.

I run over to him and feel around his bloody arm for a pulse, sadly not finding one.

"Please come back. Don't leave us just yet Lu. We need you more than you think" I whisper as tears begin filling my eyes, not wanting to lose the sandy blonde haired boy that I cared so much for.

To my luck I then hear an ambulance just outside the dorm and as another minute passes there are people carrying Luhan away from me.

((Authors Note))

Okay well this story is now all over the place with POV's and such and I honestly really don't like it but I'm hoping you're not too confused through all this and that I'm explaining everything well enough for you. If not tell me and I'll clear it up for you, or at least try to.

Sorry this chapters so short I kinda like leaving you with cliffhangers (im mean I know) and such and I also just pretty much end a chapter based on how I'm gonna carry it on from there and how much I like it at the moment.

Oh also how many of you guys knew it was gonna be Sehun who walked in on him? I wanted to make it Xiumin but yeah no. I'm not letting them forgive each other that soon. ((once again rude author))

But um that's it for now I hope you're enjoying this so far.