Can you accept me and my scars?

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                      Izuku POV
    I was carrying Kacchan to Recovery girls office. He looked awful, he had a black eye, a few bruises on his arms, his nose looked broke, I wasn't entirelysurewhat else. I kicked her door opened and brought him in. I laid him down on the bed. "Help him! I-I don't know what happened! All I know is that he's hurt and he needs help now. He was with the league and-" "Mydoria," She cut me off. "sit outside and wait. I'll take care of him." She said. I nodded my head and walked outside.

    I couldn't sit still so I got up and paced around. "I hope he's okay. I should've gotten to him sooner. No I should've went in after him when the league took him through the portal.... I-I don't know what I'd do if he...." I mumbled to myself. "Mydoria, you may come in." Recovery girl said. I ran in and went over to his bed, he asleep. "He's asleep right now, but you're welcome to sit here with him." She said. I grabbed a chair and dragged it over beside his bed and sat down. "I'll be in the conference room with the other teachers." She said as she left.

    "I'm so sorry Kacchan. If I hadn't hesitated to get you when they had you at the camp..if I hadn't been scared....." I felt tears streaming down my face. "You were right...I am a deku....I'm useless and I can't do anything right." I muttered. "It's my fault your like this....." I put my head in my hands and cried. I felt something touch my hair and head shot up. "K-Kacchan!" I yelled and jumped out of my chair. "Sit down Deku." He said weakly. I sat down and he sat up on the bed with a groan. "Are you okay? Well obviously your not okay, but I meant are you better?" I asked. "Yeah Deku." He said. He dangled his legs off the side of the bed and held his sides. "I'm sorry Kacchan." I said and looked down to the ground. "For what nerd?" He asked. "For-For not being strong enough. For not helping you, for not being able to do anything." I said and started crying again. "Deku stop your stupid crying. It wasn't your fault idiot." He said. "I was right there Kacchan. I was right freaking there! I could've done something, anything besides watch them take you!" I started yelling. I stood up and looked at him. "I'm a pathetic excuse for a future hero! You were right I'm a useless deku!" I yelled.

    He jumped up and glared at me. We were inches apart and he looked ready to murder me. "You fucking moron, I told you not to do anything. I told you to stay the hell away. So stop doing this to yourself!" He said. "Look at you Kacchan! You're hurt, badly, and I haven't got a single scratch on me! You're in pain, while all I did was sit here and worry! I didn't.....I just.....I can't....Damnit!" I yelled tripping over my words. "You stupid bastard! There was nothing you could do! Stop torturing yourself like this! Deku......Izuku....please." He said, his voice horse from yelling. I glanced back up at him and he had tears in his eyes. Was he.....crying? "Kacchan I-" I started. "Don't....just don't." He whispered. He grabbed his side and groaned. "Kacchan please sit down." I said.

    I stretched my arms out and tried to help him. He swatted at me and growled. "Leave me the fuck alone. I'm fine." He said through gritted teeth. "No you're not." I said. I tried to help again and this time he let me. "You need to rest. Recovery girl used a lot of your energy, but she still couldn't heal all your wounds. Lay down and relax." I said. He shook his head and groaned again. "I'm going to go so you can rest." I said. I stood up and went to leave, but I felt something grab my wrist. "Stay......please." He whispered, so low I almost didn't catch it. I stood there wide eyed making sure I heard right. He tugged on my arm and I walked back over to the chair and sat down. His eyes were squeezed shut and he didn't let go of me. I saw a few tears fall down his face, I reached my hand up and wiped them away. I tried to move his hand from my wrist, but his grip tightened. "It's okay Kacchan I'll stay." I whispered.

    He loosened his grip. I moved his hand from my wrist into my own. We sat there in silence just holding each other's hand. "Kacchan, are you okay?" I asked a few minutes later. He didn't answer. "Kacchan?" I asked. "Yeah Deku....I'm fine." He said. He let go of my hand and rolled over. "You can go back to your friends if you want." He muttered. I reached my hand out, but dropped it. "I'm not leaving Kacchan." I said. He scoffed. "Why the hell not?" He asked. "Cause I want to stay with you." I said. He didn't say anything, I just sat there not sure what to say. I heard his breathing hitch and sniffles. Is he crying? "Kacchan?" I stood up and got closer to the bed. "Kacchan are you okay?" I asked. He didn't answer. He started shaking. "Kacchan." I put my hand on his back, he sat up and stared at me with wide, watery, eyes. His cheeks were wet with tears and his eyes were red and puffy. "Oh Kacchan." I whispered as I brought my hand up and wiped his tears away. I pulled him into a hug and held him tight. He hugged me back, he put his head on my shoulder and cried. I haven't ever seen him cry before....it makes me want to cry, but I don't, I need to be strong for Kacchan. I rubbed his back and played with his hair till he calmed down. Once his crying subsided I tried to move, because I assumed he'd want me to, but he held me closer and tighter. "Don't go yet...please." He whispered in my ear. I wrapped my arms back around him and played with his hair again.

    We stayed like that for awhile, I didn't want to ever move, but Recovery girl came in and I had to. "Ah Bakugou you're up. Mydoria? You're still here? You can leave you know." She said. I glanced at Kacchan he was looking at the floor. I smiled and shook my head. "I'd rather stay here with Kacchan. If you don't mind ma'am." I said. She nodded. "That's fine." She said. "He'll be able to leave soon, we're just waiting on his mom to come get him." She said. I gave a confused look. "He isn't staying in the dorms?" I asked. "No, none of you are. Schools out for a while." She said. I was still confused, but I nodded. "I'll go tell the teachers you're up, I'm sure they want to talk to you." She said and headed out the door. Kacchan eyes were full of dread. "What's wrong?" I asked. "I-I don't want to talk to anyone right now....es-especially about what happened." He mumbled. I sat down in the chair and stared at him. "You need to talk to someone about it." I said. He looked at me then down at the bed. "I don't want to....not right now." He said. He looked back over at me his eyes full of sadness, fear, dread and exhaustion. It pained me to see him like this, I wish I could take away his pain.