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4

The past two weeks has been a complete blur. All I remember is Jd taking me back to the school so I can drive home and me crying in my mother's arms. After that it's like I've been a zombie, I'm moving and eating  and doing work, but I'm dead inside.

I haven't spoke to anyone, I don't know if they know or not, they probably do and is just giving me my space. I hate this feeling I feel like I just wanna die.

My alarm clock went off, but I was already up staring at my ceiling. Another fucking day seeing JD fucking face. I snatch my covers off and start to get ready. The house been quiet ever since my melt down with my mom. I feel like she told all of them  and they are also trying to give me my space.

I didn't even bother to put on an outfit, I put on my brothers sweatpants and a sweatshirt, laid my hair back and put on a hat and called it a day. I didn't feel like talking so I texted chase.

Bon bon❤️✨:
I'm ready let's go.

Chase❤️👨‍❤️‍💋‍👨:
Ok

He met me downstairs and I could see he didn't care what he was dressed like either.

"What the hell is going on with my damn kids!" My mom yelled from the kitchen looking at both me and chase clothes.

"Nothing." We simultaneously say.

"Okay, so where is my fashionistas, why are y'all both dressed like yo parents don't live y'all?"

"I'm dressed like JD don't love me." I mummerd

"Okay, no baby come here." She orders and I follow.

"Let me explain something to you, JD is not the love of your life, he never was. Only reason you feel like this because he was your first boyfriend, JD is a little boy that couldn't handle you, your real love will be able to handle and love every single thing about you."

"I get what your saying, but mom I loved him."

"Oh all that will go away, when you meet the next cute boy, trust me." She kisses my cheek and sends me off.

"I love you both." She yelled from inside the house as we walk to the car.

"You too." We yell back.

"So why are you dressed depressed?" I ask chase as I pull out the driveway.

"Eighth grade is just draining." He sighs laying his head on the window. I drop him off and head to hell.

Like the past two weeks I walk past everyone and their sorrow eyes and just head to my classes. In the mist of me putting my books away my locker slams shut and I'm faced with Cassie and Leah.

"Bitch you need to talk to us." Cassie snaps.

"I don't need to do anything."

"Yes you do, this shit is getting ridiculous now, I know you ain't love that nigga enough that you stop caring what you look." Cassie argues.

"I did."

"Bonnie your too pretty to be this pathetic."

"I think what she's trying to say is.. we miss you and JD isn't worth all this pain, Bonnie your so fucking beautiful and you can literally pull any nigga at this school, and we're just so confused as to why your stuck on JD." Leah weighs in.

"I don't know, I don't wanna be. I wanna forget about him so bad, I just can't."

"Let us help you." Cassie pleads. She latches onto my arms tugging at it like a little child.