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11

I don't even feel I like getting up today. It's like when one thing goes right in my life another things just breaks apart. I can't catch a break. The group has been blowing up my phone trying to figure out what happened between me and Cassie and of course I ignored them. I've also been ignoring tjay. Ever since he confessed his feelings for me I've been trying to avoid him. Regardless of Cassie new feelings towards him it's wrong. But it also hurts because I miss him.

I laid in bed literally all day, occasionally getting up to pee and reup on snacks and then get back into my bed to watch movies. It was around 5 o'clock when my door opened revealing the gang minus Cassie.

"Hey girl." Leah smile at me getting into bed with me. Mosey and kk sit at the edge of the bed playing with my blanket.

"I thought y'all hated me why y'all here?" I ask.

"Why would we hate you?" Mosey ask. I look at him like he was stupid. I just know Cassie told them.

"Oh the tjay thing who cares." He answers himself as he shrug his shoulders.

"I do, me and tjay were barely even friends. I miss Cassie I wish she'd let me explain." I sigh sinking down into my bed more. Leah takes me into her arms and kisses my head.

All of a sudden I hear yelling and I  see Cassie running into my room. She jumps onto my bed and then  onto me laying kisses all over me.

"Mmmm oh my bon bon I could never be mad at you." She mushes my face with her hands. I wipe them off and just stare at her. I'm honestly confused now.

"What- I- I thought you hated me- what's going on?" I ask, as the whole group laugh.

"She was never mad at you bon." Kk tells me and I turn to her as she nods her head agreeing.

"Tell her yo dumbass plan." Mosey nudged her.

"Okay so look, after I fucked tjay, It didn't feel right, and everything I said before was true. He treated me like shit but I noticed how he was with you. I noticed everything, the way he'd stare at you and smile. Whenever we'd walk in the hallways he was always behind you, close enough to guard you but far enough so he won't see you. I noticed he liked you the day he sat in front of you."

"Cass-"

"Aht aht.. lemme finish. Anyway one day I looked at Chris and noticed he was really cute."

"The Chris y'all tried to set me up with?"

"Yeah, so we started talking a couple weeks ago and we clicked instantly, he's a total sweetheart, So last week he asked me to be his girl, and I told him technically I'm still dealing with tjay, that's when we came up with the plan to have me "find out" About you and tjay so he can feel bad and not be mad at Chris for dating me." She smiles.

"Okay so why didn't you just tell me the plan idiot?"

"Oh we needed your reaction to be real, we needed tears and all, and I had a feeling that outburst was gonna make him confess his feelings for you."

"So lemme get this straight, in order to officially date around tjay, y'all staged a plan to make it look like tjay has been cheating on you with me?"

"Yes ma'am."

"That's the most evil thing you've ever done to me, I thought I lost you." I whine as she pull me into another hug.

"Girl it hurted me seeing you cry no cap, when I left out the school I was bawling so much Chris couldn't get me to stop."

"Your such a bitch." I push her off me, she kisses me and falls back into the bed.

"So you and tjay what's up with that?" Leah asks

"Nothing." I say.

"Why nothing, he likes you."

"so he say, but I know tjay he just wanna fuck probably."

"If you Weren't so stuck over JD he'd probably be able to hit." Kk says.

"Oh my god Kk shut up!" Cassie pinches him.

"Idiot." Leahs throws a pillow his face. And mosey simply slaps him behind his head.

"I mean.. I'm not gonna sit up here and say I'm not attracted to him."

"You don't gotta fuck him, just give him a chance." Mosey says.

"I don't know I don't like how he treated you cass."

"Cause he thought I was a thooter bop and he's semi right, but has he treated you like he treated me?"

"Not at all."

"Okay so boom. Call him he seems like a good guy." Kk says and mosey agrees.

"All in favor of Bonnie calling tjay say I." Cassie starts.

"I." They simultaneously sing. I smile looking down at my phone.

"I Have to say I do miss him."

"Aw." Leah and Cassie both coo.

"We're gonna go, call him right now and we'll see you tomorrow we're going bowling okay?"

"Sounds like a plan, bye you .. fucking weirdos."

I was left with silence as I stare at my phone. I'm so afraid to unlock it. What if he's mad at me now? I fight through my thoughts and unlock it instantly finding Tjays number. I pause and eventually click it. After the third ring he answers.

"Hello?" His voice was so deep, he must've just woken up.

"You just waking up or sum?"

"Yeah."

"Oh, I'll let you get back to it." I say about to hang up.

"Nah don't hang up, I'm up now."

God his voice.

"Okay."

"Wassup witchu?" He begins.

"I missed you tjay." I blurt out and he smiles.

"I missed you too."

"And I wanna be honest with you."

"Go'head."

"I don't know how I feel about you, whenever I'm with you, I'm happy. You explore me and I like that because I never had that, but your also a closed book I know nothing about you, and I find it weird how you treated me and Cassie totally different, and to be completely honest with you I feel deep down  like your just tryna fuck and then leave me which will suck cause  I just feel like I can really like you." I say all in one breath. The line goes silent for a couple of seconds.

"The way I treat Cassie is the way I regularly treat bitches, but when I saw you my first day here I knew I wanted you. You were gonna be my peace and god knows I need that right now.  Bonnie My only intention with you was to just be around you and eventually make you my girl. I'm not a stupid nigga though, I know the other reason why you don't like me yet."

"Why?"

"That JD nigga, and it's cool. It took me a while to get over my first love too. So imma give you this space to figure out what you want."

"I don't want space."

"We need it, I can't be with you if I can't hold you the way that I want. Or even kiss you."

"So we're not hanging out anymore?"

"Not like I don't want to, we just need a minute, find our right timing that's all."

"That's not how I thought this conversation was gonna end." I pout and he chuckles on the other end. Some voice spoke in his background and he lifts up in his bed. "Imma see you later, i got some stuff to take care of." He say and before I can say bye he hangs up the phone .