ALL IN

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"Roxanne Roxanneeee all she wanna do is party all night!" I sung as tjay shook his head at me laughing while driving. I became more comfortable around him. Like he said before he's down for whatever with me and he's keeping his word.

"Yo ass can't sing." He laughs at me and I give him the middle finger and continue to sing.

"She think I'm a asshole she think I'm a playaaaa, she keep running back tho, only cause I pay her. Roxanne Roxanneeeee!" I basically scream now making him squint his face.

"Alright ma you odeing." He smiles at me. I turn the music down fulfilling his wish.

"Where you taking me anyway?" I ask him.

"Don't worry about it, just ride."

"Okay meanie."

"Never that."

"You wanna hear another song?" I ask him.

"Mann I don't know yo playlist a lil... how do I put this lightly... WACK!" He insults me and I playfully scoff.

"Wack? It's better than the shit you play."

"I listen to real niggas, they rap about real shit."

"All they rap about is gang banging and they mans dying. You don't get tired of that?"

"Nah cause I can relate."

"Whatchu mean you can relate, who died on you?"

"We'll talk about that later, look out your window."

I look out it and gasp. I been so focused on looking at this nigga I ain't even know he brung me out to the middle of nowhere. There was a huge land of green grass and a picnic blanket and basket waiting in the middle of the field. Daises surrounded the entire field. It looked like something out of a movie.

I turn back to face tjay  speechless with tears nearly brimming my eyes.

"Yea, figured you'd like it. Let's go." He gets out the car and rushes over to my side opening my door. He takes my hand with his and we walk into the field and onto the blanket.

"Open up the basket." He says and I obeyed. It was two handmade sandwiches and a salad and hella snacks and pickles.

Aw he remembered I love pickles. There were also a glass of champagne and two wine glasses.

"Tjay.. this is the most romantic thing anyone has ever done for me." I smile up at him.

"Ain't shit, get used to it tho."

"How'd you find this place?"

"Rather not say, but you like it?"

"Love it." I lean over the basket Puckering up my lips and he kisses them so sweetly.

About thrifty minuets went by and me and tjay are laid out on the blanket, stuffed looking up at the clouds.

"That don't look like no damn dog." He frowns and I laugh.

"Yes it do, you see the little legs in the back." I say pointing towards the sky. He went silent for a minute examining it.

"Damn I see it."

"See." I giggle sitting up and grabbing a Kit Kat. He sits up with me starting at me.

"What?" I ask my mouth full of chocolate.

"Nun, you just so beautiful." He says and I lower my head to avoid him seeing me blush.

"Shut up."

"Nah, you got me bruh, listen I ain't finna simp but I gotta let you know how I'm rockin. I like you, like really really like you bon, and this is the happiest and calmest I've been since I moved up here. I know you worried about me just trynna fuck or me treating you like JD did. I'm deadin that shit right now. I'm all for you Bonnie, I'm all in."

Well I'll be dammed. This nigga done made me cry.  He whipped my tears and kissed my lips.

"My bad I ain't mean to make you cry ma."

"No it's good tears, cause before you I was miserable and didn't even fucking know it. And I really feel stupid now for trying to suppress my feelings for you, I couldn't been had you. I was just a idiot then I'm so thankful for you tjay, I'm all in too."

"So will you officially be my girlfriend?" He asks.

"Yes tjay, I'll be your girlfriend."

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"I gotta question."

"Wassup?" He looks over at me from the drivers seat.

"Have you told yo mamma about me yet?" I ask. He hesitates to look over at me and hangs his head low smiling.

"I ain't gone lie, yeah I did."

"Aww, you are so cuteeee." I lean over and leave multiple kisses all over his face.

"Chill, and don't be telling you lil friends I did either."

"Don't be embarrassed cause you feeling the kid, you better embrace that shit."

"I'm dead." He screams laughing trying to control the wheel.

He finally pulls up to my house and puts the car in park.

"When are you gonna see her again?"

"Who?"

"Yo momma."

"Oh, shit I don't know. I miss her though but I just can't go back home right now." He explains.

"Why?"

"For starters you. And the block still hot."

"You know you never told me why you moved up here."

"I don't plan on it either."

"But whyyy!" I whine tugging at his arm.

"Cause, I just got you I don't wanna run you away."

"Aye." I grab his face and turn it towards me. "Ain't nothing you can do that can make me run away. Besides hitting me or cheating... but anything else, remember what we said, I'm all in." A smile forms on his squished face. "Now tell me." I let his face go.

"Aight. Basically I was doing the same shit I was back home that I'm doing now, except i was dealing harder shit too. Anyway we was good, Business was good, we felt untouchable. Until one day my mans got killed right in front of me. I mean he wasn't just my mans, he was like my fucking brother. We grew up together, we did everything together and for some  bum ass niggas to just off him like that in front of me  I-" he began struggling to talk and I immediately felt bad.

"It's okay we don't have to talk about it." I say rubbing his shoulder.

"Nah, it's good. Anyway I looked for the niggas who shot him and I got my revenge. Only thing was I was stupid and didn't cover myself so now niggas is looking for me all throughout the city. I didn't want to leave but my momma made me, and I understand where she was coming from. She got other kids to raise and struggling to make ends meet. So if I die then what? She's heartbroken and my family homeless. so I left and Chris and neek came with me." He finishes. The car was silent for a moment. I had to take in what he was saying to me.

"You still wanna be my girlfriend?" He turns to me.

"More then ever."