I badly want to cry right now
But there's no tears left to shed
I'm afraid I'll just keep it all inside
Torturing myself as I feel this pain
Why do it have to be this way?
Why do I have to live like this everyday?
Why do I always feel empty and lonely?
Why do I always isolate myself to everybody?
Why am I so afraid to trust people?
Why can't I open up? So alarmed I might fall
Why does it have to be just my notes and pen?
Why? I badly want a friend, but I can't find them
Suicide is a stupid thing
Cutting myself is not my thing
I just want to keep all this painful feelings,
Until I become a living ghost, with a soul slowly dying
Will someone try to rescue me?
Will someone atleast try to listen to me?
Can someone accept me in my vulnerability?
Will someone try to hug me,
Even thorns is what I have in my body?
Can someone understand what it's like?
I want to live, sometimes I want to just die
I'm lost and I don't know where to go or why?
Why am I like this? Who really am I?
I just want to fill this emptiness
I just want to runaway from all these madness
I just want to scream to lessen the pain
I just want to listen to music without me crying
I just want freedom from all these b*llsh*ts!
But why can't I find a place where I can peacefully sleep?
I am lost in this place, buried so deep
Living in regrets, so many chances I let slip
Where should I go? Where should I begin?
Oh people! Can't you hear my scream?!
What should I do? I'm going insane!
Should I just die or live in vain?
