Sweet but Psycho (Lloyd x Reader)

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Y/n's POV

Sigh, my head really hurts. Am I still in the dream? Am I awake? Am I unconscious? There's just black surrounding me in every corner I look. I'm so confused. Should I walk? Maybe I should walk...

And so I did. I picked one foot up after the other in a random direction. Each step felt like a huge weight tugging on my ankles, reducing my ability to walk faster and further. I didn't know what was holding onto me, but I'm too scared to find out.

With all this slow walking and dark void covering every nook and cranny, I started thinking. I thought of Lloyd and if he knows what has happened to me. I thought of Ivy and if she even knows that I didn't make it home. I wondered if B/f/n is no longer sick and heard any news about me. I wondered if anyone even knew where I was or what happened. Is the ninja team looking for me? Do they even remember me? Does the Green Ninja remember me? How much time has passed? A week? A day? An hour? Time is really slow when you're dreaming, that's why you never know. Am I near my waking moment? All these questions, and I don't know the answer to any of them.

I hope Lloyd is okay...whatever is going through his mind. Or if he even knows I'm gone. Probably not, I'm not that important. Plus the "accident" happened on an isolated road. There's no way anyone could've known...unless dad actually called the police. Which I doubt, because he's my father. But then again, he did save me and show me my childhood bedroom. Then again, he hit me in the head with a bat to knock me out. Just so that I don't "reveal his secret hideout". I rolled my eyes at myself. Idiot.

What confuses me more is, how the hell did my mom contact me through memory? Or dreams? I don't know how, but she did. And she said she was alive and well. I wonder what that means...what will happen when I die? She said I'll become like her and fall under her curse, was it her that tried to kill me??? Is dad trying to trigger his curse within me while at the same time protecting me? I wish there was a wall so I could lean against it and think, but I don't think there are any walls nearby. Not even a dim of light in this black hole of space. Am I dead? Is this what being dead feels like?

I heard that when you die, your brain plays back your whole life. But that's not happening, at least I don't think it is...

I don't see any memories of my childhood flying by, so I must still be somewhat alive. Honestly, the only thing taking up my thoughts are my mother, father, Ivy, and Lloyd. Especially Lloyd. I feel like complete utter shit for not being able to talk to him about any of this... I wish he was here...I wish I was home, I wish my family wasn't insane, I wish I didn't have a fear of losing my marbles, I wish my dad didn't threaten to kill Lloyd...I really want to be with Lloyd. There is no one else I want to save me or listen to my problems. I wish he could read my thoughts...

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Lloyd's POV

I followed the dot on the radar. I really hope they're there...I made sure my dragon was ready to go extra fast. I had to get there as soon as possible. With alot of thinking and debating, this was the best option. I just hope it's the right choice...