Her Heart's Whisper

CHAPTER 17

Hi, my Royal Readers. I sincerely apologise for the really really long wait for this chapter. I was experiencing quite a bit so I didn't write much and when I did write then I didn't like it and so I deleted it. And then I had writer's block. But I'm so so happy to be back. I hope you guys enjoy this chapter. Lots of love.

If you are to make me yours and bear my mark then now is the time to do it. My heart burns with the desire , the one painful whisper. Please, I beg. I have a right over you so just hand it over to me. The Goddess herself has graciously handed you to me. I am tainted in every possible way. Wrapped in my own wounds. Bathed in my own filth. In my own agonising misery. And yet it all calls out to you. You hold my fate in your hands. You hold our fate in your hands.

Or at least what can be if we just try. Just hold my hand and put in a little bit of effort with me. For once, just be the person who wants to try and understand me. The person who chooses me. Chooses me over them. Choose the painful truth. My truth. With you by my side I can do anything. I know it. I just need your support. You’ll support me,won’t you? I know that you deserve more. You deserve chasticity. You deserve a stainless, unblemished young lady who wants nothing more from the Goddess but to care for you and cherish you. But I can do that too, right? I am far from that but I deserve a chance, don’t I?

You’ll give me a chance, won’t you?

Can’t you see the hope that I hold in my eyes? Can’t you see the hope that I’ve been constantly carrying in my heart? It’s inscribed on my soul. It was born in the depths of my heartache. It was waiting for you. For you. And now you’re here right in front of me in all your glory. Yet now my hope is no longer the bright, confident light that it once was . It’s slowly losing to the darkness, gradually giving a piece of itself away.

Maybe you can rekindle and intensify whatever is left of it or just lend me your shoulder in the dark; where we’ll blend in with each other.

I know that it’s going to be a hard, unrelenting path. A long struggle on an unforgiving road that seems to go on forever. But even forever has a limit. And I am willing to walk a billion forevers if you are by my side. Holding my hand with no intention of letting go if you are my journey and my destination. And if it turns out that there is no limit on this forever then I will hold your hand and walk with you till the end of my time.

But it’s all in your hands now. You decide. I have already decided.

I have wanted this for as long as I can remember. All those years of torture that I have endured was just paving my way to you. And it has finally led you to me. I will not betray my path. Nor will I betray our Goddess.

You can be my healing. Or you can be my anguish. You can be the soothing ointment or you can be the excruciating salt to my wounds. It’s your turn to make your choice. You decide.

All I know is that you are my quest.

So tell me…

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Can you hand your heart to someone like me?

KEITH’S POV

The drive to one of the most highly acclaimed packs is long and boring. Yet there is still an unusual, underlying excitement. I need to see this pack for myself. I have heard enough of their success stories and prestigious accomplishments. I need to know my competition. I need to keep them close.

Are they really all that?

Well whatever they are, they’re strong. They would make a beneficial ally. I need to stop seeing them as our competition for now. First we need to become just as developed in every sense, as they are. Then we can think of dominating them.

If the Blue Moon pack is connected with the them then we can become more accomplished than we already are, sooner. So focus, Keith. Focus.

Alpha David is getting old so very soon a new leadership will reign. If I can pull off our masterstroke then the game will be in our hands. Our pack will have the upper hand and will rule all the other packs.

And what about us?

I feel his strength surface. Always trying to find out his markings in all of this. We will have the chance to prove ourselves. And if everything works in our favour then we might just be dominating not just our pack but all the other packs surrounding us. We will have them in our powerful paws.

The thought of it all is overpowering. Almost seducing.

My wolf starting to shake with power. With intense emotions running through us. It’s an effort to calm him down. With each growing moment, his emotions intensify. His demeanor demanding. Even to me. It takes every deep ounce of strength to calm him down but as time drags along, his emotions start to speed up again. If he doesn’t control himself now then every dream of ours will be crushed under our very own paw. If Alpha David feels this intense shift of emotions , he is sure to take it as disrespect from his Beta.

Calm down, Keith. Don’t spoil it! Please Goddess, I pray. Please.

Thankfully before I even realise it, we’re faced with a long, paved driveway. It doesn’t look all that amazing from here.

Our journey continues.

With every little distance we eat up, the more stronger our emotions grow. Becoming more and more intense. Blood surging viciously through veins that are quickly starting to swell. Roughly pushing towards the skin, rising to the surface, starting to pop out. More vigorously than ever before. I have never experienced this before. It sparks something inside of me. It feels like pure power. Intense strength. 

I can feel everything tighten in my chest. Around my heart. It feels as though everything is closing in on me. Giving out. It feels like I’m starting to suffocate with every thing but still it electrifies something in me. It makes me feel strong. Dominating.

The car comes to a halt in front of what looks like the back of the pack house. I am almost left confused for a second but slowly I start to understand why we’re at the back. The pack house is a few stories high and that too situated on a steep hilltop. To say the least, I'm impressed.

Once again I'm thrown into myself. The war rages on.

The tsunami of emotions leaves me unable to move. I am battling my own heightened emotions and my own need to shift. The sea of overwheming emotions drowns me. I can’t breathe but I still fight. It pulls me in deeper and deeper with no other way to save myself. No way to make it out.

So I let it all just consume me.

And just like the last wave before a tsunami, I finally begin to understand as I am given a moment to attempt to save myself. She’s here. And once again I am engulfed by a tsunami. Suffocated by my reality…

Where do I go from here?