The Defiance Of A Pair Of Lilies

1 «Rebirth, and straight into Action»

Where am I?

I began asking myself. Currently, I had no idea of the situation. I tried moving, but to no avail. I was left with only my mind to think. No sight, touch, hearing, smell, nor taste.

What's happening?

My consciousness was the only thing left. I was unable to assess my current situation due to my lack of senses at the moment. I could only think to myself.

Wait, am I dead?

Everything's fuzzy, I can't remember…

If it wasn't just my consciousness left right now, I would've already scratched the back of my head trying to remember everything prior to this "predicament" I'm in right now.

I was at the mall with Naomi…

Then something... happened?

Then it clicked. Almost all the things that happened at the mall were suddenly brought back to me in vivid detail. There was something missing though…

Who...killed me again?

Wait, who am I?

Who's that girl? I know I thought of her name earlier! But I can't recall!

I panicked, even though I had no idea who that girl was. I wanted to know. No, I needed to know. I couldn't let myself forget.

But as I tried scavenging for that single memory of her name, all went blank as if something rejected the thought of me knowing. I now had no memory of her name and most of my memories of her went and disappeared. I couldn't remember a majority of my past memories. All that was left were memories of past knowledge, things about myself, and a small amount of experience in life. But I can't remember my name though, strangely enough.

I remained silent. Confused by my current situation and the fact that I had little memories left. I was a bit...depressed to say the least.

What's going to happen to me now?

I thought of all the logical things that would become of me since I've already died. It was sort of easy to deduce since I already had all the clues right here in my head.

If this is the afterlife, what's the purpose of wiping majority of my memories clean? Right, there's none. And if I am going to hell, then shouldn't I know everything at least? To increase the pain I would have to suffer knowing that all that was my fault?

Right, I know what's going to happen now.

But the conclusion I arrived at, was so conventional that even I could just stand there, unfazed and somewhat disappointed at whoever the hell made this a thing.

I'm going to get reincarnated...I guess?

I was still completely unsure if such a thing would happen since for all I knew, there already was magic in the world I once lived in. Like, what the hell did God think? But now that I think about it, God wouldn't like to be repetitive since he made us humans uniquely. Or did he? I don't think I was that religious so let's not dwell on it and just wait.

A few moments or so, my senses seemed to return ever so slowly. But there was something unusual as I tried using my body.

My movement seems to be restricted. It's also surprisingly small compared to my past body.

There was also something I haven't felt before dripping on my face. And the wind was pretty warm and blew in succession like the panting of a hairy beast like a bear. Also, there was this horrible smell akin to a dog's breath.

And just because of that horrible smell, my eyelids jerked open, letting me see everything around in blurry vision.

Then and there, I knew that there was something about to eat me. I had no time to sink in whatever the things in my surroundings are. And even though the light was so dim, I could see the outline of my predator. It was definitely a bear. A very grisly and big one in fact, bigger than any bear I've encountered up until now.