Every single night I wake up gasping for air from the same dream and every time Shawn is there by my side. I can tell he is losing sleep over me and I hate that I wish I could just be fine so he could be fine and I know all he wants is me to tell him what I'm dreaming about but those dreams aren't dreams they are more like nightmares from the darkest parts of my imagination. I think Danny is starting to catch on that there is something wrong but he doesn't ask because he doesn't want to over step but I know it's killing him inside and I hate how my demons are affecting the people that surround me.
We get on the plane to Dublin Ireland having 3 days there before the concert. I loved Ireland when I was there after I graduated. When we land Shawn takes photo's with fans before heading to the hotel. We catch up on some sleep before looking around town. We get stopped many times but I love seeing Shawn with his fans to see how much he cares for them and appreciates them. We end up watching some buskers and they convince Shawn to join in with them. A huge crowd forms and once the song is over we realise we have to get out of there fast before someone gets hurt we start running but since my foot still isn't 100% better Shawn has to give me a piggy back ride as me run through the crowds on the street.
We run into a huge shop called Arnotts. We look around and when we come across the Calvin Klein section we find photos from the shoot he did with them. We go down the stairs to where there is an FAO Schwarz toy shop and they have the big piano like the one in the move Big which is one of my favourite movies. Shawn and I start playing songs on it before people start to recognise Shawn and we have to leave again.
We end up hiding out in an Ireland souvenirs shop. We have a look around and I want to buy everything I see.
"You okay Alex?" Shawn asks as he notices my limp.
"I'm fine really," I say going to the counter and buying some things.
We stop at a few more shops before heading back to the hotel. I lay down on the bed as Shawn goes to the bathroom. I pull of my shoes to see that my foot has bleed through my sock. I quickly look around the room to try find something to stop the bleeding before Shawn comes out of the bathroom but it's to late and he looks straight down at my foot.
"Oh my god Alex your foot," Shawn says crouching down and taking off my sock, "You over did it, we should have just stayed here," Shawn says walking into the bathroom to get the first aid kit.
"I don't want to just sit around the next few weeks while my foot heels I don't want to miss having an adventure while being in all these beautiful faces. My foot will be fine but I'm not sitting in hotel rooms and tour buses when the world is there to be seen," I say as he cleans up my foot and puts on a new bandage.
"I just don't want it to get worse and you to be in pain," Shawn says sitting up on the bed beside me.
"I know," I say putting my head on his sholder, "Thank you."
"Just promise me that you won't go to over board and if you need to stop or to slow down that you will tell me," Shawn says.
"I promise," I smile.
The others come over after a bit and we watch Big and order room serves. I get sent lodes of links to articles about Shawn and I in town today but I don't bother reading them. I end up falling asleep cuddled up to Shawn but as all the nights before I wake up gasping for air. Shawn is there by my side looking more and more worried. He ends up getting me to fall back asleep.
"Wake up you lot we're going to the zoo," Alessia says throwing a pillow at us.
"I hate you," I say sitting up and rubbing my eyes.
"Love you too, lobby 15 minuets," Alessia smiles.
"How about 30," I say pushing Shawn off the bed since he wont get out of bed. I didn't mean to push him all the way but it just kind of happened.
"Oww what was that for," Shawn said.
"Fine 30," Alessia says completely ignoring Shawn.
"Thank you," I smile.
"So we are just going to ignore the fact that Alex pushed me off the bed," Shawn says standing up.
"Go get ready," I say and Alessia leaves the room.
I jump in the shower trying not to get my bandages wet. I then dry my hair and I put on a yellow hoodie, black ripped jeans, a denim jacket white convers and a white beanie. I put on some light make up and I put back on the necklace Shawn gave me at Christmas which I only take off for Showering or swimming.
I head down to the lobby to meet the others and then we head to the Zoo. I love seeing all the animals and when we get to the elephants they are all playing in the water which I have never seen before. We stop for lunch and after lunch we get slushies and we drink them as we walk around a bit more.
"Is my tongue blue?" I ask Shawn while sticking it out.
"Yep, how about mine?" Shawn asks.
"Extremely," I laugh.
Once we get back from the zoo we lounge around the hotel room because Shawn wants me to rest my foot after all the walking even though he gave me two piggy back rides. Because I have nothing to do I decide to go on Instagram and I put a photo of my foot on Shawn's lap saying 'Doing nothing in a hotel room while in Ireland because someone thinks I need to rest my foot'
A few minuets later I see Shawn had put a photo on his story of me saying 'Someone is cranky because they hurt their foot'
"I hate you," I say looking at Shawn.
"You started it," Shawn says putting his hands up in defense.
"I want to do something," I moan.
"Fine what do you want to do?" Shawn asks.
"Lets go to the pub," I say sitting up excitedly.
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The long way home || Shawn Mendes||
Fanfiction(Sequel to Bad Reputation) It has been 3 years since Alex has seen Shawn and now he is suddenly back in her life. Will he be in it forever this time or will it just end as badly as last time? Started: 2nd October 2019 Finished: 2nd July 2020
