The long way home || Shawn Mendes||

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"I knew I would find you here," Someone says and I turn my head to see Jeremy.

"What are you doing here?" I ask.

"You are meant to be resting so I came to make sure you were okay, you know you are meant to be taking it easy for the baby's sake," Jeremy says.

"I know, I just need to escape, just be a normal girl for once, not some pregnant girl who is in the limelight because she happened to fall in love with a boy who happened to be a famous popstar, but then reality kicks in and I have to face the truth that, that is my life and I can't change it and I have to be strong for squid," I say tears in my eyes.

"I know it's hard, and I know we broke up because you were, are still in love with him, but I will always be there for you when you need me," he says wrapping his arm around me and pulling me in for a hug.

"Thanks Jer, and I'm so sorry I hurt you I just didn't want to lead you on, you know I will always love you," I say wiping away my tears.

"I love you too Al," Jeremy says kissing my forehead, "Come on let's get you home."

"Didn't you drive here?" I ask as we stand up.

"No I got a cab my car is out of gas," Jeremy says, "You really shouldn't be walking this much, here, get on my back," Jeremy says and I get instant flash backs from when I fell of the rock and twisted my ankle and Shawn gave me a piggy back ride down the trail.

"You sure you can carry a pregnant women?" I ask.

"I carried you inside last night, I've been working out," Jeremy laughs as I get on his back.

Jeremy drives my car back to my apartment. He give's me a hug and then he drives off. I go upstairs and I see Shawn waiting outside my door.

"What do you want Shawn," I say walking closer to him.

"Please can we talk?" Shawn says.

"I have nothing to say to you Shawn," I say taking out my keys.

"Then just let me talk," Shawn begs.

"Fine, you have one minuet," I say walking into the kitchen.

"Since, that night that stupid night I had with Maya I haven't been answering her calls or texts, I felt so bad, she showed up last night to make sure I was okay because she's my friend, but I sent her away and I came looking for you," Shawn says.

"But it wasn't just that one night, it wasn't just one drunken mistake I've seen the photo's, and I hate that she can just show up at any time, I felt as if I had been stabbed in the back I hate seeing her with you because you chose her over me and that will be the only thing I ever think about her, that she slept with you," I yell.

"Don't you get that I feel the same way with you and Jeremy, you use to date and you still hang out together because you are friends and that hurts me knowing you two slept together, that he will always be in your life, and when I came looking for you last night and I saw him, that you called him to come get you I was crushed," Shawn yells back.

"That is not the same at all, Jeremy and I never slept together, and I broke up with him because I was still in love with you but because he's my friend he was fine with it because he wanted the best for me, you went and slept with her while I went to look after my injured mother, you cheated on me, I would never do that to you, ever, so don't compare my heartbreak to your jealousy," I yell at him.

"I'm sorry Alex but you can't ignore what we have together that kiss yesterday meant something to me please don't throw this away," Shawn says walking over to me and putting his had on my arm.

"I think you should leave Shawn," Ollie says walking in the front door.

"But," Shawn says.

"I need time Shawn, just go," I say pulling my arm away.

"Alex please," Shawn begs.

"Go," I yell.

Shawn looks as if he is going to say something else but then he leaves. I slowly fall to the ground crying and Ollie runs over hugging me. I rip off my necklace and I throw it across the room. She helps me to the couch but the tears don't stop rolling.

"What happened?" Taz asks walking into the room.

Ollie walks over and whispers something to Taz and then they both come over and hug me.

"It's going to be okay," Taz says stroking my back.

I wipe away my tears and I sit up straight.

"I'm sick of being sad, I'm done crying over him, he doesn't deserve this," I stand up and I walk into my room.

"What are you doing?" Ollie asks leaning in my door frame.

"I have to get out of here, but I need clothes," I say.

"Where are you going to go?" Taz asks.

"The mall," I say fixing my hair.

"That's not what I meant and you know it," Taz says as grab my bag and head for the door.

"I don't know, I'll figure it out," I say, "Well are you coming?"