You repel me (Johnny x reader)

Are you all right?

I got off of work early since a part-timer offered to take over. I threw my things on the couch and pulled out my phone. I looked at Devi's profile and she hasn't seen my text messages.

I sighed and laid my head back, closing my eyes slightly.

I heard my window start to open and I looked up quickly. Johnny was climbing through my window as I stood up quickly,

"Johnny, what are you doing?"

I asked him as he looked up. He jumped down from the window sill and closed it.

"I really need someone to talk to."

I walked over to him, grabbing onto his shoulders. I looked into his eyes and they began to water,

"What happened, Nny?"

I began to forget about how he climbed in through my window as I guided him to the couch. He sat down and began to curl into a ball,

"I tried to kill myself."

I widened my eyes and held his hands,

"Wait, why?!"

I asked him in surprise.

"I just hate the need for things and I began to have a crisis. I'm tired."

He said as he rested his eyes slightly,

"Wait, Nny!"

I slapped his face slightly and he got up,

"I didn't want to be alone."

He squeezed my hands slightly and I squeezed Back,

"Johnny, you have to get better, don't do things like that!"

He leaned his face into my shoulder and I wrapped my arms around him. I tightened my grip around him and he began to sob into my shoulder.

"I hate showing physical vulnerability."

He said into my shoulder, which caused him to sob more,

"But you needed it."

I said to him as I tangled my hand in his hair. For some odd reason, this felt almost comforting to me. His back rose and fell with every sob and it just wouldn't stop. 

"God, I hate everything."

He said into my shoulder. I hugged him tighter every time he quieted down a bit. He was in need of comfort and I was here to give it to him. 

He finally pulled away and wiped his eyes,

"Sorry about that. I really didn't want to be alone tonight."

I smiled at him, holding his shoulder,

"You know I'm here for you if you need it."

He smiled back, touching the hand on his shoulder. 

"Hey, you're not gonna tell anyone about this, right?"

I smiled

"Of course not, what kind of person would I be to do that."

I brought my pinky out and he looked at it. He caught my drift and wrapped his pinky around mine. I pulled away and stared at my black TV.

"Now that you're here, do you want to watch a movie?"

He shrugged, smiling,

"Sure."

I showed him three movies which were a horror movie, a comedy, and a drama. He, of course, chose the horror movie. 

I popped it inside of the DVD player and went to the kitchen. I made some popcorn and I grabbed some fizwhiz for both of us. 

I sat next to him, handing him his snacks as I brought my legs up on the couch. I snuggled up next to him and grabbed some popcorn from our shared bowl. 

I actually really enjoyed his company. I don't know what it was but I was completely drawn to him. 

God, I hope I'm making the right choice of moving fast.