You repel me (Johnny x reader)

Midnight fun

I tapped my pen against the edge of my desk. I was trying to think of what to write to myself if I ever got amnesia. I eventually began to write dashes on the paper, becoming mesmerized by the way it came out straight. 

I turned the notebook over and began to draw x's, keeping them in order. I began to feel disoriented, beginning to bite my nails as I tried to ignore the feeling.

I gripped my hair in my hands, sighing in frustration. I stared out the window as I rested my elbow on the table, still gripping my hair. I tapped the pen violently on the edge of the table, feeling it crack. I broke out in a cold sweat, picturing my mother.

I abruptly stood up and swept my arms across the desk, knocking everything over. My lamp broke, leaving me in darkness with only the moonlight shining through my window. I breathed heavily as I stared at the mess I made. I screamed, full of rage, and began to punch the wall. 

I flipped my table over and kicked my chair out of the way. I scream as the room began to turn, causing me to grip my hair once more. I felt strands of hair come out as I began to mumble to myself. 

I was trying to pull an all-nighter tonight. I should have gone to sleep.

I crouched down, covering my head and gritting my teeth. It was as if something in my brain was telling me that I shouldn't have been born.

I grabbed my notebook and threw it at the wall. I began to breathe heavily, not being able to control my breathing. 

I heard a knock at my window and I stayed silent. I stared at the wall I threw my notebook at and tried to calm myself down but it wouldn't work. I heard the same knock so I was forced to turn around. 

I walked-no STOMPED to my window and opened it up. I put my head out the window slightly until I saw Nny covered in blood and I immediately tried pulling back, hitting my head on the window. I grabbed my head in pain as Nny started to apologize to me, grabbing my shoulder slightly and holding my hair. 

"Why are you covered in blood?"

I whispered harshly as I continued to rub my head. Nny was about to explain but I opened my eyes once more and there seemed to be more blood. I stumbled slightly before sticking my head back inside my house,

"It's for a wall."

I stared at him pretty dumbfounded. I squinted my eyes at him slightly before crossing my arms,

"Why are you painting a wall with blood?"

"There's this thing behind it. If I don't keep the wall wet with blood, it begins to push through."

I sighed, pinching the bridge of my nose,

"Let me guess, you can't sleep so you want to hang out."

I walked over to my closet, stepping over the things I threw around. I grabbed a coat and put on some shoes,

"Actually, I wanted to take a walk with you, if that's fine."

I perked my head up, turning my head around to face him. He began to lean on the window sill, as he stared at me,

"Sure, I'll go. I can't stay inside my house for longer without going insane."

I walked over to the window and hopped out of the room. I shut the window as I stood in front of Nny. We stared at each other for a couple of seconds before I turned towards the sidewalk and began walking,

"Where are we walking?"

I asked him as I heard him jog to catch up with me. 

"I don't know."

We walked side by side, staring at the moon out of boredom. There was this awkward silence between us so I really wanted to break it but I couldn't think of anything to say. I began to bite the nail on my thumb, staring down at my feet and thinking of what to say. 

I accidentally bumped my shoulder into Nny's, making him stop. I stared up at him before he smiled and pushed me back.  We began pushing each other as we laughed, trying to pull away before the other could touch the other. 

I grinned before pointing behind me and shrieked,

"That dog is following you!"

He didn't even turn around before dashing away. I laughed as I ran after him, running up next to him. I was laughing but Nny was not. He actually thought the dog was following him. I didn't plan on telling him because I found it extremely funny.

We ran up to the cliff overlooking the city, Nny resting his hands on his knees to catch his breath,

"I think we lost it."

I said as I patted his back. 

"That stupid dog can't climb up here."

I smiled at that. 

We stared at each other for a second before I walked past him and stood at the edge of the cliff. I crossed my arms and stared up at the moon.

Nny walked up next to me, also staring up at the moon. 

"It's a beautiful night."

Nny said subconsciously. 

"It truly is."

It was silent between us once more. I sat down on the grass, Nny's eyes following me. I felt the grass in between my fingers, feeling how cool it felt. Nny sat next to me after a minute of thinking, still staring at the moon. 

I looked away for a second, just to stare at Johnny's hand, seeing how he was also enjoying how the grass felt. I thought for a second, inching my hand closer to his. I hesitated before touching his hand. He tensed up but eventually relaxed, turning his hand over to hold mine.

I sighed in contentment, staring at the moon peacefully. I rested my head on his shoulder, beginning to get tired. 

We stared at the moon like that until everything faded into darkness.

I had fallen asleep.