*Tim*
Hello. My POV again. Am I too handsome? I'm very exposed. Okay. Let me start this. I am here at the gate of the Academy where in my friend's property. The great Hans. I am waiting for him to come since he said to me that I'll wait for him here.
Hindi dapat ako pinapahintay. Lagot sa akin mamaya yun. Ako kasi yung tipo ng lalaking hindi makapaghintay, I don't wanna wait anymore, I do not like making efforts much more surprises. I hate loving. I hate sacrificing. I hate crying. I hate all that are related to love.
I am not bitter. I am just stating the fact that I am not fond with those things. I hate those. I'll never do those things. EVER. Okay? Where's Hans? Nakakainis. Masasapak ko talaga yung gagong yun mamaya lang.
While I am leaning in my car with my headset in my ears, I suddenly notice some girls who's coming near me. Tsk. Nagwapuhan nanaman sila sa akin. Well, I can't blame them, I know. I know. I am hot. Hotter than hotter baby. But, I hate it when someone's pushing herself to me. Like what the hell? Desperate much? Can't live without me? Just shut your mouth up.
They're coming nearer. What should I do? I ran as fast as I could. Hindi ko na namalayan kung saan man ako dalhin ng mga paa ko. Then suddenly, I bumped a girl. Nakayuko siya. She's looking on the ground.
"S-sorry po."
She said, and then looked at me unconciously. Then she was amazed by my presence. Ow. This girl. She's crying again. When will I see this girl not crying? Nakatadhana ba na lagi kapag nakikita ko siya dapat na umiiyak siya?
Mahina pa naman din ako kapag nakakakita ako ng umiiyak. There's this urge that I wanna comfort her. I want to touch her back slowly up and down so that she'll feel good. But I just can't. Once is enough. It will never ever happen to me again. I've changed.
This girl's driving me crazy. Nung una sa park the same day when Sundae and I broke up, then another is sa park nanaman iyon. Then, eto nanaman? Ghawd. I am sick seeing her crying infront of my handsome face & hot body. I got my handkerchief and handed it to her. I don't know why am I doing this. Maybe because I am weak when it comes to this kind of situation.
A girl crying for help, no one dares to help her. Plus a boy who's trying to cheer up the girl. I hate this scenario.
"Shh, don't cry anymore. You're super ugly. And it's not normal anymore."
I am not use in comforting. Hindi ko na kasi nagagawa yun nung nawala siya. For what? I forgot all the efforts I've made for her. I am not the old Tim anymore. I am the fiercer & stronger Tim. Tama naman diba? You need to change. For the better. Kasi kung patuloy kang aasa, wala kang mapapala. Parang sa paghihintay na tumila ang ulan eh alam mong normal lang naman ang lagay ng panahon. It's like you know what'll going to happen but you can't just accept the fact that it's happening. Sometimes acceptance is the best way to ease the pain, to forget all the sad memories. Be happy & turn the sad into happy memories.
"G-grabe ka naman. Oo na. Pangit na ako."
Ibang klase rin siya. Nagawa niya pa akong sang-ayunan. Naalala ko rin, nung una kaming nagkakilala ni Sundae. She was crying. I accompanied her until she felt okay. Marunong akong mag-comfort. Pero ang sabi ko nga diba? Ayoko na muling gawin ang mga bagay na makakapagpaalala pa sakaniya.
"Okay. Bye. I'll leave now. When I see you again, hindi ka na dapat umiiyak ha! It's scaring me!"
Tumatakbo ako habang winewave ko yung kamay ko sakaniya habang sinasabi ko iyon. All of a sudden, a curve formed on my lips. The first unfaked smile my lips had formed. Thanks to that girl. Ngumiti ako ng hindi pilit, maybe because naasar ko siya. Maybe because I've fight my urge to help that stupid girl. What's her problem? I didn't bother asking her, because I don't care n'way. And the hell, I will never care.
