*Tim*
Kaya ko siya niyaya para makapagmuni-muni siya, at dahil na rin sa nag-aalala ako para sakanilang dalawa ni Hans. Hindi pa nakakamove-on si Hans sakaniya. Ang lakas talaga ng dating ng babaeng 'to sa kaibigan ko. Tsk.
Lahat ng sinabi ko sakaniya totoo, they were all came from me. I don't know why am I too kind this time, maybe because I have this feeling that Lyx's situation happened to me. Am I right? Yes, I am. Remember what I've just narrated to you? That how Sundae and I broke up was the same as Lyx and Hans set-up. Lahat ba talaga ng yun ay sadya? But, why? To set our minds to the things that we can't do? To the things that can make us feel that we're empty? That we lose hope? What's the common purpose?
We did our best for our relationship to work, we did all. But what happened? It is true, that time changes love a lot. And it is up to you to surpass the effect of time in your love. But whatever may happen, love will change no matter what.
Flashback
"Ang saya! Whooo!" sigaw ni Sundae, ang saya saya namin that time. But why suddenly gone?
"Sundae, I love you." ang sabi ko sakaniya hindi ko kaya noon na wala siya sa tabi ko, hindi ko kaya noon na mabuhay kung wala siya. But I came to realize that it does not just end there. Ang hulihan ay yung Tim na malakas, yung Tim na matapang. Hindi na yung mahina na dati ay hindi siya kayang mawala. Hinding hindi na... Maybe because I've learned a lesson, na dapat hindi ko naibibigay ang lahat lahat. Maybe at the right time w/ the right person.
"I love you ka diyan, sino yung nakita o na babaeng kasama mo kanina?" tanong niya ng nakasimangot. She's like Kha, she's childish. Isa yan sa mga bagay na nagustuhan ko sakaniya. Kahit na mayaman siya, she stays simple. Damn, I really love her that time.
"P.A ko lang yun. Huwag na selos Dae." pang-aasar ko sakaniya. Pikunin 'to eh, sakaniya ko lang pinapakita ang ganitong side ko, yung masayahin at pilyong Tim. Sakaniya lang kasi ako komportable maliban kay Hans and my family.
"P.A? Eh bakit mas sexy pa sa akin?" mas sexy ba yun sakaniya? Sarreh, I didn't saw the girl's body.
"Bahala ka." pagpapalambing ako. Para lambingin niya ako hindi ako matitiis neto.
"Tim, galit ka na ba? Sorry na." pagkatapos ay gagalawin niya yung cheek ko gamit yung point finger niya. She's cute.
"Hmmm." tignan nga natin kung hanggang saan kaya niya akong tiisin.
"Tim naman. Tatalon ako rito." pagmamakaawa niya sa akin, as if she will do that.
"Go ahead." pang-iinsulto ko nanaman sakaniya.
Nagulat ako sa ginawa niya, she kissed me. A passionate one. Pagkatapos ay ngumiti siya sa akin, damn. I love this girl.
"Alam ko yang ngiti na yan ha, sorry na ah?" sabay yakap niya sa baywang ko. Oo na nga, 'di ko to matitiis eh.
"I love you Dae, just trust me. You're the only one." assurance
Nandito parin kami sa park kung saan unang beses ko siyang nakitang umiiyak, dahil pala dati ay nag-break din sila ng araw na yun ng kaibigan ko. Coincidence huh? At nung araw din na yun, dito rin ako pumunta dahil eto lang ang alam ko na peace place.
Walang tao, walang mga bahay. Kaunti lamang ang ilaw na nagbibigay liwanag sa park. Halos lahat ay galing sa mga bituin. They're beautiful.
"Lyx, andami mong binago sa sarili mo." ang sabi ko sakaniya, her head is lifting high as she is memorizing the position of the stars, childish girl. Itong babaeng to ang nagpabago kay Hans, hindi ko alam kung paano ko siya pasasalamatan. Basagulero si Hans noon, babaero. Isang babae lang ang nakapagbago sakaniya. Si Kha yun. It was like Sundae and I. Sundae made me change all of my bad hobbies, she always wanted what's good for me. She wanted me to act as her prince charming. A loving, caring, charming, and will complete her fairy tale love story. Everything in this world is not permanent, that's why that fairy tale love story just turn into a dream that will never ever happen.
"What makes you change that easily?" nagtataka kasi ako, do we really need to change just to cope up with our past? Why can't we just sit back and relax? Why can't we just forget all of that and have our new life? Maybe because feelings can't fade away, it can fade away but the memories still remain. Kagaya ng alalang naibigay sa akin ni Sundae, she's my first love. I am badly inlove with her that time. Nagbago na
"Para hindi na ako masaktan." ang sagot niya, she put down her head, and now she is looking in her hands. Nasasaktan talaga siya. Pero kailangan ba talagang baguhin ang mga bagay bagay just to ease the pain? We just have to let go that person and then ka-boom we're done. She left me dumbfounded that time, all of the laughters we've shared to each other. Lahat ng yun hindi ako naniniwalang totoo. If that were true, how could she left me that easily? How could she just gave up on me that easily, right?
"Kaya ka nagbago? Why can't you just stay like you? Is it that hard for you to surpass your past Lyx?" ang tanong ko. Mahirap ba talagang tanggapin ang mga bagay na nangyari na? I know that everything happens for a reason, but why change yourself, right? It's not necessary for me.
"Hindi naman ako nagbago. Alam mo yung term na dapat ginamit mo? Hindi nagbago, dapat sinabi mong bulag ako. Alam ko na dapat hindi ko na siya minamahal, pero minamahal ko parin siya kasi bulag ako. Bulag ako sa katotohanan na siya ang nang-iwan hindi ako. Bakit ikaw ha? Iniwan ka rin naman, why do you still manage to keep those burdens in you? Come on, tell me." pangongontra niya sa huling sabi ko sakaniya. Iba ang tono niya, naghahamon siya. She's tough huh, hindi niya alam lahat ng pinagdaanan ko dahil kay Sundae, and she'll just tell me to burst all emotions I am feeling right now? Hell no, for what? It's useless 'nway.
"Is there really a need to make all the people see my weaknesses? Is there really a reason why people just go and will leave you without saying goodbyes? I think there's such reason, you know what's the reason? It is because they want to, and they ought to leave you and make your life miserable. That' all. Are you already satisfied?" pagtatanong ko sakaniya, tama naman ako. Hindi mo naman talaga mapipigilan ang pagtakbo ng oras, but why let time affect you? Be strong, stand bravely. If she really loves me, she'll now leave me. She'll do everything for me. Pero bakit hindi nalang niya ako binalikan, right? It is because she wanted to, and she intended to.
"Lahat ng bagay may dahilan, kaya nila tayo iniwan dahil wala pa tayong alam dati sa relasyon. Ngayong bumalik na si Hans, mature na siya. Siguro ay ready na rin siya. May pagkakataong baka mas magiging matatag ang relasyon namin. It is true that time changes love a lot, but will you let that time changes yours? Siguro ay hindi pa tayo nakatadhana noon para sakanila. This is the time, all we need to do is to do it all once again; just for love." sabi niya sa akin. Hindi na ako kumontra pa dahil alam kong mauuwi nanaman to sa mahaba habang usapan. Kaya naman ay nagbalak na akong ihatid siya sakanila. Maayos naman ang lahat, kahit papaano ay nakatulong ako sakanila. Huli na siguro na makakasama ko pa si Lyx, kaya naman kinuha ko na ang susi ko sa and drive safely.
Bukas, magkikita na sila. Ano kayang mangyayari?
