*Hans*
I am so happy because Kha gave me the chance to explain everything to her. I am so contented because I know to myself that I still have the feelings for her. Sobra akong blessed because I know that she can't ignore me. Damn, I love that girl so much.
*calling tita Monique...*
"Hello tita, good morning." bakit kaya siya napatawag? Hmmm, seems like there is a problem.
"Hi Hans. Do you know where's Tim?" and why is she asking me that? Hindi pa ba umuwi yung gagong yun? What is his problem?
"No tita. I thought he's there."
"No. He doesn't call me yet nor text me. Please Hans. Could you help me find him? I'm worried." Do I have a choice, eh bestfriend ko yung gago na yun eh. Tsk.
"Okay tita. I will. I'll just text you if ever."
"Thanks Hans. Regards to your mom." ang sabi nalang ni tita. And then I ended the call.
The question here is where's Tim? Matawagan nga.
"dialling Tim*
he picked up the phone on the 4th ring. This is unusual.
"Hey." pambungad niya sa akin. Where is he? Hindi naman mukhang lasing ang gago. Hindi rin naman mukhang wala sa sarili.
"Dude, where are you?" I asked immediately. Wala ng paligoy-ligoy pa, may lakad pa ako mamaya.
"Why?" Damn, I asked him first and then he'll ask me to?
"Just answer my question dude."
"No I don't want to." gago siya, anong problema niya sa buhay niya? Is he not aware? Hindi ba siya aware na may mga nag-aalala sakaniya sa bahay nila? And for God's sake it is his birthday yesterday. Hindi siya umuwi sa bahay nila.
"Don't play with me Tim. I want you to text me NOW, where are you?" pagbabanta kong sabi sakaniya. Gago siya.
"Same to you, bye." ang tigas ng ulo niya. Damn Tim, why you gotta be so rude? Hindi mo ba alam na maraming nag-aalala sayo? Kinuha ko ulit ang cellphone ko and then I dial Tim's number.
*dialling Tim.."
no answer.
"dialling Tim.."
no answer still.
"dialling Tim.."
Damn! He put his cellphone off now! What the hell is his problem?! Gago siya, pati ako idadamay niya sa katarantaduhan niya. Anong drama niya?
*calling Kha*
Bakit 'to? Sinagot ko ang tawag.
"H-hans." nauutal niyang sabi, huwag mong sabihin na may problema rin siya? Damn, I had enough. Please, no.
"Kha, why?" nag-aalala kong sabi sakaniya. Dama ko sa boses niya na may problema siya, na parang hindi siya comfortable sa kung anumang ginagawa niya. Narinig ko ang mahinang paghabol niya ng hininga sa kabilang linya. Damn, what is happening?
"H-hans, I am with T-tim." ang sabi niy-- what? She is with Tim? Why? How? Since when? Where are they? Hindi ko narinig si Kha kanina, she is joking, right? It doesn't fit in the situation. No, please say no.
"You are joking baby." I said. I am trying to be calm, ayokong ipakita na nagseselos ako. Dahil may part sa akin na nagsasabing hindi ako kayang gaguhin ng kaibigan ko at ng taong mahal ko. Hindi kaya ni Kha na lokohin niya ako, hindi niya kayang gantihan ako dahil sa pag-iwan ko sakaniya dati. Hindi nila kayang dalawa na pagtaksilan ako. NO.
"No, I'm not. Hans, please let me go now. Sawa na ako. Ayoko na sayo, i-cancel mo na ang dinner. Ayoko na. Nahihirapan na ako." sinasabi niya yan ng pinipigilan ang pagsa-sob niya. I can feel it, damn! What is in the world? Magkasama silang dalawa ni Tim! And for God's sake ngayon niya sinasabi sa akin na ayaw na niya! Na sawang sawa na siya! Fuck! Damn Tim! I need to talk to him.
"Kha, no. Maybe you're just over-reacting. No please Kha. I love you. Please." pagmamakaawa ko sakaniya. Panaginip lang lahat hindi ba? Oo, isa lamang itong bangungot. Kailangan ko ng magising sa katotohanan. May lakad pa ako mamaya. Kami ni Kha, we'll have our first dinner together. Again..
"I don't love you anymore." and then she ended the call, ang sakit.. Hindi ko alam kung ano bang nangyayari. Karma ko ba ito? Sa pag-iwan sakaniya? Anong iisipin ko? Na pinagtataksilan ako ng kaibigan ko at ng taong mahal ko? Damn, sobrang bait ko na hindi nalang kinoconsider yang mga bagay na yan.
Alam kong masama ang gumawa ng sariling conclusion. Damn this feeling, i hate it. What will I do now?
