Bataille De La Magia (Auregon Trilogy Book 2) - UNDER REVISION

Chapter 15: Within (Revised)

Angela

The ground grumbled and the water vibrated. I sensed a strange aura resembling mine. It was dark with a hinch of light. Cool and eerie, and I found myself in awe. I turned facing the direction where the strange aura is coming from. I saw myself, a reflection perhap. But she wore a black linen dress from top to bottom, almost like a nightgown.

I reached out my hand to feel if there's a mirror in front of me. Nang wala akong naramdaman, hinawi ko ang mga braso ko sa ere pero wala pa rin. Then, who is this person in front of me? Tokwa, patay na ba ako?

Bumalik ang tingin ko sa sarili ko na nakatayo lamang. Her hands clasped in front of her and a half-smile written across her face. She was still, calm, but had an eerie atmosphere around her that made me tighten my guard. She looked exactly like me without any flaws.

"Where am I?" I asked. I know asking myself is weird but what do you know, she might know the answer I'm looking for. I need to know if I'm alive or dead.

"We're inside of your mind." She answered.

Inside my mind? Is this the same thing that Shiro does when talking to Shira? Is this that same place in my mind?

"Let me explain the situation to you. Your body is unconscious and is being treated as of this moment. You are in between life or death." Paliwanag niya.

"I'm about to die?" I exclaimed.

"I don't know. Our mother and Hya are doing everything they can to save us." Dagdag niya.

I sulked down into my knees. I pressed my body together, my hands clasped against one another. I sighed. So this is where it all ends. Dito na ako mamamatay.

"This is the place where you'll decide if you wish to fight and continue living or give up and die." She explained. "The choice is yours."

The land between life and death, it's said that you'll find it somewhere within you. To think it was in my mind. At kung ano man ang mangyari sa akin ay nasa akin ring mga kamay. So ano? Kung gusto ko mamamatay, papatayin ko sarili ko. So parang suicide din. Kung gusto ko namang mabuhay, kaya ko buhayin sarili ko 'tas lalaban ganun?

"It's not exactly as what you think. If you want to live, you must fight for it and fight whatever it is that is causing your death. And if you wanted to die, you'll have to accept your death." she explained.

A long silence broke between us. She clearly read my mind. Of course, she can, that is me, iisa lang kami. Hindi ko na alam kung ayos pa ba takbo ng utak ko. It's either ayos pa o may topak na o baka sobrang gulo lang ng buhay ko na hindi na kinakayang i-take-in ng utak ko.

I sighed at naupo ng maayos sa ibabaw ng tubig. So, what will I choose? Live or die? If I die now, all my problems will be gone. Wala na akong poproblemahin pa. But in exchange, iiwan ko ang mga kaibigan ko. Iiwan ko ang pamilya ko. I will leave everything behind and I would only hurt them even more. And I don't want that. Sa lahat ng ayaw ko ay ang nakikitang nasasaktan ang mga taong importante sa akin.

If I chose to live, I'll face my problems again. The magic tournament, My family issues; mother and father. The secrets that kept riling up in our family. Kasama na rin diyan ang mga bagay na ayaw ong harapin—love, friendship, hatred. But I'll be able to see them again, makakasama ko pa sila ng matagal.

In truth, I have a lot of things to consider. And I also have considered dying before. Siguro kung noon ito nangyari sa akin, malamang pinili ko na ang kamatayan ng walang pag-aalinlangan. Yet, the more I live, the more I appreaciate life, the more I understand the things around me and the precious people whom I will hurt if I ever chose death.